Red Moon Wavespell April 2017

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Red Moon Wavespell 2017 

We are now

in the

Green Castle of the heart

once more

4 Castles of cosmic evolution completed 

This is a very powerful Wavespell

and

Castle

It initiates the awakening

to our

real authentic soul self 

and

how much we are embodying it

walking our talk

The planet is Mercury 

I write this blog first and foremost for myself

as it is a record of my journey

and

a record of my co creation

with this amazing cosmic tool of

revealing the cosmic matrix

the code of human evolution 

The 260 Day Wavespell

Going back over my blogs

I am teaching myself where I have been

and

the relevance of each spiral

as each day contains a spiral within it

that is an evolutionary process

and

once this is brought to consciousness within the individual

then one can navigate the path more easily

and

define where one’s focus needs to be

and

where to put one’s attention

for the most transformative results

Key for mastery is to:

Know thyself experientially

and intellectually  

On day 3 of this Wavespell

there is a

13 Clear Sign

of 

Alchemy 

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Blue Electric Monkey 

Here is a blog I wrote about this in 2016

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Here is a blog from 2014 that is very significant for me around relationship

Here is a blog from 2015

Here is a blog from 2015

Red Overtone Skywalker 

Here is a blog I wrote about Red Overtone Skywalker in 2015

Here is another I wrote in the same year different 260 day Wavespell

with different astrological code 

and as I read this re~visiting the energy I felt back then

and

remembering 

how my relating experiences at that time 

had created a heart response from me 

Generally this has come from being in relationship inauthentically 

with people who 

have not learned how to relate respectfully and lovingly 

because they have not personally had that experience shown to them in life 

and 

most importantly 

have not learned how to do it as an adult 

This is so key 

One of the most important teachings

How to be loving and respectful

whilst being authentic 

in relationship

Generally people give more importance to leaning other rules and laws 

with regards to manifesting and magic 

missing a point entirely :

that love is the way forward

for the human race 

and 

The Spiritual Warrior on the Heart Path embodiment process

means:

to sort yourself out on every level

and

as a direct outcome of that process

stop the old codes from being present in you

that hurt you

and

hurt everyone else

What goes around

comes around

that is the true integrated meaning 

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This knowledge changes everything 

This is not innate

and

many people do not understand this 

This has to be learnt by individuals 

and 

comes from 

personal integration within

It is not simply an intellectual process 

It is errenous to believe

that people can simply start behaving in a way

that is different from their experiential learning

people literally do what they know 

so 

do as I say not as I do 

Sound familiar?

Does not compute on a human level 

akin to the belief that affirmations alone will create a manifestation of change 

It is a very deep denial belief

that is a core creation code of deception in our society

and 

a core ego smoke and mirrors misdirection 

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Allowing ourselves to be fooled by this 

allows suffering

it is a natural outcome

If people could simply do this without inner process…

i.e automatically start behaving impeccably and lovingly 

on the outside …

when inside there is no existing structure to support it 

aka in nlp terms as 

The Meta Model 

An article about that here by NLP Academy 

then there would be no experiential learning or human evolution

Many people now know the theory of this

and

yet have not internalised it

and

will not

until it is their spiral time

as this allows the evolution game to be played

and

this may not happen for them in this lifetime 

Our western culture has been impoverished and repressing the sacred feminine 

for thousands of years 

and

as a result has created a model for living that is

harsh 

survivalist mode

War like

and

has to have an absence of gentle and loving feminine energy to maintain that  

there is also an absence of that experience in each human being

on a spectrum

an absence of that emotional intelligence

an absence of emotional awareness 

and 

behaviour therefore resulting in that lack of love

that is unloving and often lacks awareness of even being that 

and 

the pain of not knowing how to do that 

embody that 

feeling that lack and desperation

activating all of that ancestral code

and 

spinning on the wheel of that 

not knowing how to get off it 

knowing that one’s actions are nihilistic 

and

yet continuing with them

in order to “survive”

in our sick society 

Remember what we are being we are creating in the next moment 

and 

we will receive what we give 

which is why there is no need for punishment or law

on one level 

as one receives according to what one has lived 

and 

so it is 

Know them by the fruit of their labours

What is manifest we have co created

This endemic Narcissistic way of relating 

is the foundation stone of our consumer society 

because it is based on thousands of years of experiential learning 

Live by the sword

die by the sword

Here is a website that may be useful in explaining some of the terminology etc around narcissism generally

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The Swords being the mind energy

in Tarot 

Five of Swords in particular ~ defeat 

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Here is an article about the number codes in Thoth 

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Here is an article about the five of swords Thoth by Eli Ismerchantile 

Here is an article about the Cups Wands and Swords in Thoth:

Book of Thoth 6 

Solutions are coming now

because the time is perfectly aligned for that to happen

The balancing of the human being 

The heart and the mind 

The masculine and feminine within 

All are important 

All are key to creating wholeness 

It is the time of the emotional evolution 

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Huge realisations about the spiral for me now

and

how it links in…

It sent me on a vast cookie trail tracing back my soul sat nav since coming to Glastonbury

and 

seeing that incarnate

I had lots of emotional triggers and releases on

Red Overtone Skywalker

day

06 April 2017 

Repeating patterns

Repeating triggers in relationship

Leading to a different outcome 

A different understanding

A different level of relating 

and 

allowing me to be discerning in many ways 

and also that this is not how I choose to relate in a certain framework 

and

if I choose to override my knowingness

and

relate in a way that

does not truly serve me 

I suffer

on an emotional level

on a physical level 

and

this affects everything that I do and create 

It destabilises me 

So 

each time I learn from this 

and how to refine my relating process

often I do not trust myself and my gut 

This took place this time in Aries Sun

and

waxing moon in Leo 

Which is a power time for me

When the Moon waxes at the degree of your Sun it reveals hidden power

Moon time of 25 degrees 

at

9pm on the 6th of April 2017

LEO 25
A circle of neat houses, each one identical.
Mapping out a blueprint, a great plan. Designing into it the perfect escape route, which is anonymity. Going under for the duration, you make absolutely sure that you look and act like a clone of any given prototype that calls no attention to itself. With everything splendidly in place and the perfect disguise solidly maintained, you are safe inside to go into absolutely anything. The inside track becomes as fanciful and free as the outside track becomes innocuous and banal. This way of doing it is half-mad and half-brilliant. It is half-mad in that it is so suppressive to any prospects of expressing and embodying your real self in this world. And it is half-brilliant, offering such outward stability that the inward formative chaos can romp without disturbing the neighbors or anybody–even your own ego-mind. Ultimately it is the perfect way to grapple with being vastly other, yet still needing and wanting to be an integral part of things–loved, accepted, and welcomed. It is a strange bargain, but is, you feel it deeply to be, viable, inescapable, and true.

This is where my Venus in Virgo at 29 degrees comes in handy 

VIRGO 29
A witch preparing magic mushrooms.
Within the delicate, formative stages of major departures into the unknown, there is encountered an extraordinary task and lesson that detains you a long while. It becomes self-evident that it is everything that comes before that makes the difference. There must be a fully attuned, magical sensibility to make the future possible. Coming to this requires arduous discipline and elaborate ritual, internal initiation. This becomes such a labyrinth of discipleship and apprenticeship that you wander through the maze discovering everything you ever needed to know. All is played out within. There is no need to make anything happen on the outer. You are assigned to empty yourself out, to strip everything away, to become invisible. And if you excel at your craft, so many ventures and initiatives will be seeded, that this inner planes total mobilization will prove to be more fruitful and productive than any premature thrusts of outer mind, no matter how impressive or seemingly necessary. The entire path lies well within, and needs no surface success to substantiate itself.

as I go for the devil in the detail

Sincere thanks to everyone involved

in this process

and

I truly mean this from my heart

because it is essential to my journey to do this

and

share it 

This has been totally aligned with the

Venus Retrograde process 

which is the core energy of the Mayan Wavespell 

We have had Aries Sun energy

initiating our solar wheel

also

Libra Full Moon coming tomorrow

in the UK 

21 degrees:

This is linking to Inside Degrees Website 

LIBRA 21
A magician wearing a live snake for a belt.
A mobius strip of yes into no into yes. Yes is primally the eager embrace of sense-life in a rapture of release. The No is not being able to handle, even remotely, the social repercussions of being viscerally empowered. The further Yes is at last being able to embrace unreservedly the self that got lost in the world and the world that got lost in the self. Until this final reckoning the No wreaks havoc. You thrash around in a frenzy of trying to spin away from reflected images and impressions. You just cannot bear to hold still and be pinned by ideas about who you are and who your are not. An elemental power in spiral vortex action seeks to consume all false selves and to become so authentic that each breath of experience is purely there with no interpretive filter whatsoever. This power ultimately brings everybody to the point of no longer putting up with being trapped in shallow frequencies and bursts everything open, or else is willing to die trying.

ruled by guess who ?

Yes Venus of course 

As I am living in the Libra part of the Glastonbury Zodiac 

and 

have my Mars in Libra 

in my 8th house 

at 28 degrees

LIBRA 28
A single white swan swimming through gray mist.
Different and the same. Distinguished by vertical composure, yet intended to stay down under. A special destiny-task, a mission, an assignment. Taught to blend in and become each world passed through, yet remaining incorrigibly other. Excellent at taking up required roles and ways of life and finding the best in them. You have a remarkable social gift for making the world a better place. Endowed with higher characteristics and heavenly nature, you are sublime, yet shrugging self off–“no big deal.” The wonders of anonymity. So many changes to move through, rippling waves of time. Standing far above, dispassionately: “I shall do what is rightful.” The singular voice of the highest ethic, pure and essentialized.

this Full Moon will be impacting me ~

although not intensely it is within an 8 degree orb 

This is my Phoenix Process house

Transformation of survival through knowing my patterns and codes 

Transforming my emotional mind survival experiences 

Releasing emotion that creates distorted beliefs

based on past emotionally debilitating events 

and 

rising from the ashes 

White World Bridger  ~ Cimi ~ energy in the Mayan codex ~ 6 ~ bringing balance 

Here is a pdf by Ferrusca that reveals more about this 

articles about this astrology :

Sabrina Monarch 

Astrobutterfly 

Pam Gregory video

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Also revisited and reminded that my 

Part of Fortuna is in Libra at 13 degrees

LIBRA 13
Men and women in white towels in a steam bath talking and sweating profusely.
When you are personally ill, disattuned, all broken up, you can find a kind of healing and transformation by exposing yourself to shared experiences that give you a boost and let you release what has gotten you to this point. You will find others in similar places to your own. Rituals and styles of change, of opening, of becoming somebody new can become a way of life in themselves–being thrust into collective cycles, taking on collective karmas, immersing yourself in what is going on with everybody. Feeling it all, sensing what it is like to be human, to be wounded, to be searching. Alive to the multiple chemistries, along an open-ended pathway. Yet you also tend to loop back, to grow attached to the way it seems and to be naive to what you are really doing after all. Experiences and processes must be springboards into really becoming free. And perhaps also by rooting into a place where love is born, out of whose source you can give so abundantly and be sustained in the universal flow, as one who kept at it until all the semblances gave way to the adventure authentically embraced.

Part of fortune in Libra ~ arlenekramer.net

Part of Fortune in Libra ~ marianneohagan.com

Part of Fortune in the 8th house ~ freespiritedmind.com

This is also the completion of

Libra Sun time

from last year

and

here is my blog from then :

White Solar Wind 

which I have just realised

is one of 

my 

Burner Days 

Your Burner day is your Mayan Sign in each Castle

that repeats every 65 days

and is an

enlightenment potentiality day

This was

White Solar Wind 

What I initiated then

I am now expanding on 

in my 

Red Solar Earth

burner Day 

on

April 10 2017

I am crying as I am writing this with the grace of it 

It’s energy is Uranus

What is coming to light 

my inner child is often still afraid of my journey and does not trust the process because of my experiential process of being around narcissistic wounding patterns 

I have mapped each year of my life 

From the Fifth Sun

Here are my burner years :

Blue Solar Hand ~ my Mayan Sign ~ 1965 and will be my year from August 18 2017

planet : earth ~ how I shape my destiny here on earth through healing my emotions and emotional events and relating differently 

Here is a fab film with this theme of revisiting old wounding ~ although not emotional healing in the framework I mean ~ a Hollywood “take” on it 

The Discovery 

Red Solar Earth ~ my Red Castle of awakening ~ 1991 ~ age 26 I moved from Rochdale to London and began working for Wetherspoon’s 

Uranus is the planet ~ this is a mastery code to bringing to light what has ungrounded us and our ancestors and healing it 

White Solar Wind ~ 2004 ~ age 39 ~ Venus transit on the planet 

The initiation of a new 13 year cycle of the Gregorian framework 

Red Skywalker 

Huge wounding and split in my birth family 

Red Skywalker is the mastery code of Creating Heaven on Earth

and

doing that by embodying that

Yellow Solar Human ~ 1978 ~ age 13 ~ becoming a teenager ~ a key Uranus Gateway 

planet ~ earth 

A hard time for me with bullying and trying to choose who to connect to in school also changes in family health 

Knowing your patterns and codes

in this way

creates massive self awareness

and

understanding 

and

self empowerment 

I know many people do not yet share my perspective

around

what is known as

shadow emotions 

Generally uncomfortable feelings that are not happiness or joy 

Everything that allows me to clear all my resistance

and

emotional imbalance is welcomed 

This is paramount for the ego Leo energy

As a Leo my main focus is the heart

and 

I feel and love deeply 

along the way I have been deeply wounded too

This is a huge lesson in how to love

and 

I have not always been loving and respectful 

I have often been egotistical

and I have not been in gratitude 

I have taken people for granted 

and

I am truly sorry for that 

Sincerely if I have ever done anything to you that has been disrespectful to you 

I apologise unreservedly 

I am Sorry 

Please forgive me because there are no excuses for disrespectful behaviour no matter what the provocation

and

this does not mean being a doormat or weak 

It is the essence of integrated authentic compassion

and

to turn the other cheek 

forgive them for they know not what they do

wisdom statements 

and 

to act from this inner space too in a powerful loving way

More about this Venusian power energy in an article 

Sabrina Monarch 

This is key to Ho oponopono way of being

more about that here  

I am learning as to what way of relating I chose to be party to

that created this 

and

to become very discerning

and

stop doing that action

that creates suffering for all

this takes time

and

I still love eating sugar

even though I know it is not good for me

and

it changes the truth of who I am 

biochemically 

and

this again is true in many other arenas of my conditioned mind 

that I am transforming 

Ignorance can create bliss and it can create suffering on the next cycle

Being coming aware

and

embodying Karma codes

is the key

to letting go of suffering

I committed to this process before life 

and 

key to my

Medicine Buddha initiation

in my spiral of 

Blue Hand in October 2016 

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no matter how familiar this old way of relating felt 

I had to change that on many levels 

and 

still am as part of the pixel

in the new age formulating 

This is key to our personal soul journey 

and

role as a planetary server

To heal what has hurt us

to then allow us

to create harmony

through healing the harm and no longer harming our self

or others

In my opinion over many years of experiential learning 

this harmony has to be created from the inside out 

Most peoples’ focus is still

on the outside in

which is a disempowering pattern

as it avoids focus on the self

which is where

the creation code is

This is a key factor to revolutionise

The personal journey

of

being the compassionate Bodhisattva 

who is truly at peace with oneself

on an emotional level and has released all the loss of power tags 

so is the

Sovereign Queen energy 

able to stop playing the power egoic games

and

Be love once again

The Divine child 

transparent wise 

free

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Key learning for me in this code:

The significance again of the Red Skywalker codes 

Which are the creation codes of the conscious dreamer process 

the human being who wants to understand the process of manifestation

and

do it 

through inner transformation work

This is linked to the Gregorian Yearly cycle of 01 January

We are now refining the 13 year cycle that began on 01 January 2004 

What created hell for us personally 

To see what is reflecting back in our holographic world 

so we can change it beaming it from the inside 

This new 13 year cycle of White Mirror began on 01 January 2017 

I blogged about it here:

New Year Cycles Gregorian 

I began a relationship in my

Red Resonant Earth Year in 2014 age 50

The 50 decade being key for becoming the mastery process of the struggle encountered in life so far 

this relationship resulted in two big woundings

in

Red Skywalker 13 day process with that person

Red Skywalker 13 day process being the most powerful process as it contains

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13 Clear signs 

Here is a blog about this:

The first one was on Valentine’s Day 14 Feb 2015 

Red Overtone Earth 

which is a 13 clear sign 

key to what un grounds us seeking light 

day 5 of the process 

This is my Red Castle 

I experienced this energy when I was 22 and I had cervical cancer 

it was 1987

I was in an abusive relationship 

I was also physically attacked by this man 

It began my journey into mental health 

I was experiencing panic attacks, tunnel vision and psoriasis on my face 

The experience I had in 2015 was not the same

but highlighted where I was now 

Very aware of some things 

still in abusive and imbalanced relationship

with massive projection going on 

and

the difference was I felt deep love and compassion for this man 

a deep soul and past life connection

I re ~engaged 

Even if I had stopped this there I am offering you that this would have re emerged somewhere else 

this is deep soul work 

that is happening for planetary evolution and understanding 

and I do not in any way encourage or dismiss abusive behaviour 

My journey involves modelling experiential learning to understand 

I cannot do that with a book

I keep going until I create a completion of a stage and pass through a Gateway 

This is often not good to experience 

I am always hopeful of a loving transformation 

however key learning for me through this journey 

the other person has to be learning how to emotionally evolve and heal 

The spirals have different astrology 

This Spiral in February 14 2016 was Aquarius Sun and Taurus Moon 

in the Mayan 

Galactic Moon Day 8 

The day of integration in the Integration Moon 

My 8th house 

The 260 day Spiral it was in was initiated in the spiral of the Sagi fire

on December 20th 2015 

The second wounding which ended the relationship was on 02 November 2016

White Rhythmic Mirror 

also a 13 Clear Sign Day 

It was on the next spiral of 260 days initiated in Virgo Sun Energy 

Blog here

The event took place on

Self Existing Moon Day 16 

The heart path energy of being free of disempowering relationship 

I am resolving again today to go into more awareness and learning 

to embody 

the 13 Moon energy 

We are in Planetary Moon Day 7 today 

Here is a great article about this by 

Resonant Truth 

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This may not mean anything to you …

yet 😉

For me it reveals my journey and helps me understand it 

I also help people make sense of theirs too when often it feels so hurtful

It can reveal a bigger picture process that can assist in healing it 

Balance of heart and mind 

My Journey with Red Skywalker Process

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My journey with the Mayan calendar

by me actually doing the process 

began on 02 November 2011 

when I went to a workshop at

The Glastonbury Positive Living Group 

and

purchased a calendar 

and

started to co create with it consciously 

I did not know this at the time but it was 

Red Skywalker Wavespell 

This started a spiral for that date :

In Self Existing Moon Day 16 

02 November 2011 ~ initiation consciously of creating Heaven on Earth ~ only not conscious of exact code 😉  Red Magnetic Skywalker

02 November 2012 ~ New Learning ~ White Lunar Mirror ~ Halloween in Glasto always has been challenging ~ new cosmic code about to come in with old calendar ending on December 21st ~ I had achieved my 5 year plan of being in Kephalonia ~ only on holiday ~ Glastonbury had not been in my awareness at all

02 November 2013 ~ Blue Electric Night ~ Alchemy ~ creating the conscious dream . I was having a real awakening and blogging a lot 

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02 November 2014 ~ Yellow Self Existing Star ~ bombshell dropped ~ end of my 26 year relationship and lots of revelations coming to light around this 

02 November 2015 ~ Red Overtone Skywalker ~ I moved to my new home in Libra 

Creating balance here but being away at my partners place a lot of the time 

02 November 2016 ~ White Rhythmic Mirror ~ coming into balance ~ end of the relationship 

02 November 2017 ~ Blue Resonant Night ~ what will be resonating around living my dream from a love filled space ?

We will have to see 

Current Workshops 

At this time now I am using my experiential journey

to embody my authentic Self

and share

what I know

for others

who feel this is something they would like to be involved in 

As I always say I am simply sharing what I know is all 

A perspective 

Please check out my events page on here and also on my website 

Barefoot Holistics 

Also on Facebook

There are lots of new things to bring light out of the dark 

and

I love sharing them 

I feel so sad for people who are suffering as I know how that feels and I choose to feel it

rather than bottle it up anymore

this has been really tough love too for me around the people I love

and

have loved 

and

I cannot be in relationship with them any more 

What we do in life echoes in eternity 

Lets be that change we want to see 

I can assist you in seeing this process

in your own code now 

with

Mayan and Starcode Readings in person and on Skype 

and

workshops about how the Mayan Calendar works ~ in person and on webinars

and

how to transform it 

with energy coaching one to one in person and on Skype

and

workshops on emotional awareness and how to do EFT ~

Emotional Freedom Technique

and most importantly 

how you can do that for yourself

by learning the process for yourself

to create personal alchemy everyday

Please get in touch to take the first step 

 

 

 

Be Love at Beltane 

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Pic Beltane Kiss by Nat Lee 

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Star People

reflections

 

Today is the letting go day in the Star wave spell and if it’s your birthday today then this is the bigger picture wave for you this year.

White Spectral Mirror

It’s a new moon in Aquarius and this weekend is a powerful one showing us our Aquarius selves.

Blue Moon astrology ~ fabulous insights every time

How we are shining our starlight from true potent possibility

and where we have shadows

that are seeking some information to transform

and some loving to be healed.

Light is information remember…….

all those particles of sunshine

have gifts to bestow

Shimmering skin like the creatures of the night in Twilight

When we learn about astrology we can see how the planetary dances are caressing us

shaping us and evolving us

by resonating and plucking at our heart strings.

Whenever we have a huge hit at the box office or a runaway bestseller it is going deep into our subterranean fears and desires.

All the metaphors of the intoxicating heady shadow selves are there.

This weekend is a Scorpio and Taurus North Node and South Node Tango

 this culminates an amazing wave of exciting new galaxies to explore for me

and it soooo makes sense of the dynamic happening in my household just now.

If you have read my earlier posts on this on my facebook page you will know how this wave has brought massive new learning for me.

I don’t do daily posts about this on a regular basis for a full wavespell

I felt called to do it this time with this particular spiral.

All the coloured words in this blog lead to great resources that have appeared on my cosmic cookie trail and I am sharing them with you….

they may be perfect for you and you may choose to google and find your own

as we all have our sacred thread to follow that is individually patterned for us

We have a wealth of limitless resources and thanks to the wonderful web we can access them

in a magical way….

following our sacred cosmic cookie trail…

when we remember our heart wisdom we remember that competition is an ego invention

there is no need to compete as there is the perfect match for us in every moment

the perfect therapist

the perfect business partner

the perfect lover

and so on…..

who is here right now showing up right on time

to take us over the page and into the next dance marking our card….

if we allow it and that is the most powerful magical place to be….

to allow it

In tarot the princess of cups position

Most people aren’t allowing

and

energetically believe…… and so dance with lack

competition = lack in the bigger picture

and a belief in scarcity and limited resources

which in some respects is a material truth…..

there are a finite supply of sources on our planet

and an infinite supply of creative alchemical soul….utions

through transformation

Millions have trod the earth before us and all that ever was is still with us in our earth bubble

A combination of masculine and feminine touch and system is the key.

If we push and force we get an outcome that can sometimes be brutal and damaging

ripping a strip off……

another way is to soften and render tender

so the husk opens up and falls away with the new growth revealed.

In the Mayan calendar this is where we are heading for in July.

July 26 is Yellow Galactic Seed and a time for new growth.

The Heart Path 🙂

We are currently in Blue Resonant Storm and this is a whirlpool year of death and transformation

stirring up our ego suit of armour that often has become our somnambulist performance

playing a role instead of our soul.

This weekend North Node is Scorpio which is death and rebirth.

This is a wonderful resource if you know what yours is.

This is a wonderful site of information from  Elizabeth Spring

If you don’t know and would like to know more please message me with your time,date and place of birth and I will set you off on a cookie trail of discovery about a bigger picture if you are ready.

All my info has links so you can do this for yourself and if you want to go deeper then….

like me you could book for a reading

this week I had an indepth astrology reading with Mary English that was a total wow 🙂

This year for me I am revisiting my Jupiter expansion that happens every 12 years and as it’s my 48 birthday in August

in my Mayan thirteen year cycle I am moving into year number five which is blue overtone hand 

Radiating my mayan sign which is a gateway for healing, shaping and death and transformation

on the heels of white self-existing wind

a year four of speaking truth from the heart and creating a structure in the process

In this year I have been revisiting lots of old patterns and cycles….

which I offer you is what we all do

and then we get a chance to experience from a different perspective….

back to the Scorpio North Node which is evident in parenting

It is only when we become parents that we truly understand where our parents were coming from…..

and we are at a choice point…..

often we find ourselves hearing our parent’s words coming out of our mouths….

never would those words leave our lips we thought…..

and yet 🙂

ooops there they are.

Conditioning is so strong

we hold all our experience in our energetic blueprint

our cup holder of the gods

it is there to be transformed

One of the key issues we are all faced with at this time is understanding our child selves so we can transform into mature beings

on all levels not simply what uniform we wear or what face we put on to our peer group

while we have an alter ego ….the child who is the rebel

Watch a group of young children and their attention span to something they really don’t want to do 🙂

That is really all of us isn’t it?

Only we have a parental control mask that we employ

and now and again it slips off and the bushy wolf tail pops out from under grannie’s nightie.

When we were a teenager how did we get our rebellious kicks?

As we were morphing and our bodies maturing…

our hormones racing

and our search for love and belonging

how did we learn to achieve this……

this is the key now to our transformation.

Do you remember the first valentine card you received or gave?

Do remember your first kiss?

The sound of your heart beat

feeling the pulse of desire

and the warmth spreading

tingling

the first cut is the deepest….

sorry no to Rod Stewart here I do draw the line….

love the lyrics tho….

Scorpio is sex on one level

I watched the Full Monty last night and it brought back memories of living in a South Yorks town after I lived in Crete in 1987

both had lots of similarities around masculine and feminine role playing

In the wake of the miner’s strike there was huge fear about the ending of that cycle

Pits were closing fast

there were working men’s club’s and women dressed to the nines …

the trophy wife

women stayed at home to make the Sunday lunch while the men got drunk and watched strippers

and I found this to be sooooo frustrating and controlling

and I wouldn’t do it 🙂

Many people of my generation learned to role play

me totally included full throttle

to….

Cover their emotion with alcohol

allow themselves to be liberated to excess through getting drunk

and some are still doing it because it works on some level

gets them into another place but there is collateral damage

and it’s often at a very high price

Feeling connected to base chakras through sex

feeling empty because that isn’t love

and all the feelings return that we are trying to suppress in triplicate along with the hangover.

I notice the difference with my children and children I have worked with

in a holistic therapist approach

Generally they are not doing that dance and are refusing to wear the mask which is why we have so many

issues…..

around attention and presence

and my offering is these truth tellers

heart wisdom

out of the mouths of babes

are moving us towards authentic relationship

because they demand more

they expect more

and they are showing us the next steps towards our future

being real

Deep down none of us want to do the boring stuff

and resent mundane aspects of our lives

and we have created them because we believe that is how it must be

and that is true as long as we believe it…..

Time to change our beliefs?

I left the UK in 1986 because I didn’t want to be a hamster on a wheel

I felt so strongly that there was more to life than a 9 to 5 and soap operas and I was really scared to take the plunge

some of my friends did it and so I had a stepping stone into the unknown and I took it

This was my first major awakening on a Greek beach gazing at the mountains and feeling oneness

I was alone that day and part of me plugged in

This place is Paleochora…..

Old town 🙂

During my time there I indulged in a hedonistic life

I turned a major milestone here

my 21st

I ran away from intimacy too on one level and kept looking for it in others

I had a Scorpio addiction time of building my shadow

Watching Ulrike Jonsson and her sex addiction confessions gave me a major consciousness raising on this.

My moon is in Taurus and I can indulge deeply in hedonistic pursuit

When I became a parent this changed in my physical process

and yet part of me grieved at the loss of freedom of other aspects of myself.

Now I am seeking to integrate these adolescent parts of me that learned to feel loved in a certain way

outside of myself

because my ego defence that I learned was to people please and to feel valued through others

work in progress 🙂

One of the shadow aspects of this time is that we seek to distance ourselves from our feelings and emotions

and use intellectual control and solutions instead

when ideally…

when in balance…..

we do all of it

and wherever we have emotional black hole responses or addictive urges

we notice that

and for me I use EFT (tapping) to transform through letting go of all my fear ( anything other than joy and love)

so I can be free of my past

and live differently

so I am not  living my past today.

If you know your North Node and want to know who you share this with here is a great site

for this and many other things

Astrotheme

I find we can see so many things about ourselves through others with the same patterns and I discovered a

lot about my children and me and my partner.

I have had an affinity with Jim Morrison since my first boyfriend introduced me to him

He sang in a band

I thought the music very bizarre at the time and now I am really getting the lyrics in a whole new way

Jim and I have had an on off relationship over the years that has embraced many places and people

and I love how I can time travel to them simply by playing the tunes.

My partner has the same north node as him and is a Saggi and I have the same as his girlfriend Pamela Courson which I found very interesting 🙂

Energetically the wave we are in process with

that the Mayan wavespell reveals to us…..

takes nine steps

one each day

It takes thirteen days to complete a wave and each is unique

each is continuous like creation

we have an opportunity to see ourselves through working with it

it reveals our pattern and beliefs

The first nine steps lead to the tenth …

the manifestation and that was yesterday

we created a wave

an energetic signature

a resonance

a potent dreamweaver

that is how our world really works

thoughts become things

it is so simple

and so complex 🙂

We are part of it

when we raise our consciousness we can create consciously with it in ever more powerful ways

if we are willing to do what it takes

or we stay at Go point and keep coming round to the same place

This is the pattern of the ego dweller who isn’t willing to let go of the old to welcome the new

and so will struggle because digging in heels

create resistance

and resistance is futile…..:-)

We all have ego and it is our friend

our shadow dance partner

Today we are at the letting go day of seeing this wave that we have created so we can release it

and therefore create anew with new ideas

awareness of what our star potential is

what our shadow is

If something outside of us creates pain

something inside of us matches it

simple

that is why it is showing up outside so we can see it

hello 🙂

It is an opportunity to let go and the next wavespell is coming up on tuesday

hot on the heels ready for us to dance with this new learning

Red Dragon wavespell

perfect for the Chinese New Year which is Serpent energy

see how magical it is this framework

Day two is Valentine’s day which is always the challenge that helps us create and evolve.

The Dragon is the great mother energy of the serpent

kundalini

Our mind worries about this and that

and all the while the universe is about it’s business weaving in amazing beautiful patterns

that are way beyond our human mind comprehension and our heart wisdom knows.

Learning to let go and let love show the way is key

and it’s easy to do in an abstract Facebook fluffy rabbitty way

posting spiritual pics is all well and good

and …..

doing it is the key

doing the shadow dance

jumping off the edge

building the letting go of the safety net muscle 🙂

Today is all about seeing what has happened over the last nine days to mirror what seeks release

Who

What

Where

What has pushed our buttons

What is challenging us

What feels really uncomfortable

Where are we facing walls, barriers and ego protection

Where are we avoiding intimacy

Where are we holding back on speaking out for fear of…..

This wavespell is now moving into new moon energy

the energy is expanding

and as we cannot see her face yet

the moon is in darkness

still shielded

our feminine is still shielded too

first couple of days are in darkness

Here is George Michael and star people which has been buzzing around in my mind today

The amazingly talented beautiful man who is George Michael.

I was never a huge fan until I went to see him perform live and heard him.

Heard his heartfelt communication and felt the resonance of his music and words

the caged bird singing…..

I sobbed my heart out to his

Jesus to a child

telling of his love for soul mate who died from aids

and once I started I couldn’t stop

he touched my resonating inner child

How can this amazingly talented man believe he is unworthy when his gifts have manifested so much?

yet part of him feels so unworthy he was very close to death recently

Isn’t it true for all of us?

A key lesson

that we are required to heal within as well as without

and that is the most important place of focus.

The same is true of Stephen Fry who is such a passionate man about so many things

and a genius

Who wouldn’t want this man as your friend and in your circle ?

He is a Scorpio North Node and South Node in Taurus.

He has had a challenging life that he has shared and in the process raised awareness of many taboos

around sexuality and mental health.

I love him and his beautiful vulnerability

I only hope sincerely that he feels loved by so many.

Shines his starlight for us.

This year is a catalyst and if we want to ride the storm

and transform with it

place our focus on ourself is the starter for ten remember…..

My Sun is in Leo, my Moon is in Taurus and my Ascendant is Aquarius

so no wonder that I am feeling a huge urge to purge right now with

Saturn in Scorpio

Initiate your awareness now and connect to a huge resource of people who have knowledge to help you

create a pow wow team 🙂

a reframe of a power team.

Connect to people who are open and willing to thrive

willing to receive

willing to let  in

people who are still in the land of limitation through ego

cannot do this and so seek to narc  with their narc patterns

rather than face  fears

and we all have them

until we energetically release them

and reveal our vulnerability

ready to move where the wind blows us

where the energy matches us

where we can share our sacred places

and feel real

purely magical.

Leaving you with Madonna

and if you haven’t seen it yet

Chocolat

is the perfect get real movie for Valentine’s Day

and believe it or not it is written by a wonderful  South Yorkshire lass 🙂

Joanne Harris

Wow what amazing synchronicities have woven together in this blog .

I make it up as I go along…..

so I think….

ha ha avatar.

Divine child shining

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How is your star wavespell  unfolding?

What are you seeing today in your energetic circle?

Today we are in day four of this energetic pathway with each step taking us on a journey of evolution 🙂

With every passing month of doing this Mayan wavespell calendar experientially I am seeing the world through different eyes

and feeling very differently too.

I intended to create this post earlier in the wavespell however the more I go with the flow

and the more I find energetically I cannot “make it fit” my ego timescale or the artificial ego box we have created generally in society

in our western world

which is so out of alignment with the true nature of our cyclical universe.

This way of being is coming in for everyone more and more and the sooner we adjust to it and accept it

the easier the transition becomes

and

the more magical too.

The three previous days are on my facebook page

The number four represents the square and a platform to build the rest of the wave.

Four is a square or a rectangle and in astrological terms this is a powerful shape that can box us in, ground us and/ or be a space to liberate us

our choice 🙂

as the next step is five

and five can bring mastery

and struggle…….

depending on where we are on our path and our cycle.

In our 1’s we come into the world in form and essentially we move from dependent to individual

and form our ego

this continues into our 2’s and at some point some of us learn through relationships

into 3’s decade and the Saturn return time of our karma patterns seeing

how when we do this….

we create that

and our mind puts meaning onto it and each mind has it’s own ideas and perceptions.

Although our body matures

parts of our mind remain behind ready to develop at future points

of crossroads not yet seen

and yet in part written in our destiny

a pre-planned route determined by our sacred thread

This is as it is meant to be …..our soul journey unfolding

in alignment with all that is.

Today the Mayan sign is Blue Self-Existing Monkey

are we playful, open and vulnerable

the clown and a cheeky monkey?

Bringing genuine heartfelt intimacy

maybe a cruel trickster?

maybe we play the role of a clown as a defence mechanism?

Whatever our energetic intention this is always communicated and received

no matter what words are coming out of our mouths.

As this star wavespell is in the waning moon

it is a time of letting go of what is shielding our heart star quality

in contrast to the ego star of the stage

searching for external validation and affirmation.

As we see through the lives of the brave souls who seek the dizzy heights of stardom and open themselves to scrutiny

of the media

they show us all through heart rending performance

they bare their souls seeking love and approval

and there is always a childhood story that sparks this trail of  ego journey.

Heath Ledger .….

the Joker before his tragic death

an amazing gifted man who seemingly felt unloved.

So much talent and torment

The key to this is the understanding that no matter how many outside adornments, trappings, awards and achievements we create

if we haven’t let go of the past wounds of childhood inside

we still feel the same

and no amount of external stuff can fill the void.

In this Blue Storm year we are reminded that whatever we choose as our methodology to fill the gap

when we do not have this filler

the void is revealed

and the feelings that go with it emerge

the ego personality always seeks new ever increasing levels of  satisfaction

and as we age

everything starts to feel the pull

the more baggage we have

the more work it takes to support it

the more props and stage show

the more roadies to haul it

the more groupies to bring the thrills

What if we could be free to be simply us?

Stripped bare and loved for our true selves?

We are of course…… only our ego doesn’t know that…..

This is the journey.

My biggest learning came through doing my own journey with NLP about my patterns.

Once I created the intention to see them they all started to pop out everywhere with ahas

If you are ready to see yours simply send out that communication

and watch your energy matrix be revealed at the perfect time

just like Neo in The Matrix

My next big reveal was through astrology and seeing my starcode

at the same time the Mayan calendar showed up and took my awareness to a whole new level.

All this wonderful stuff is there for all of us

without discrimination

we are all equal under the sun 🙂

This week I travelled back to my roots and went up North to Marsden where I lived for ten years until October 2011.

I met up with friends and family and revisited past places and events physically and energetically.

The synchronicities were great and I got to meet and hear messages that were perfect for me.

One of the most major shifts doing my NLP training was my project given to me by my teacher.

It ran alongside my training and was to be performed at the last weekend.

It was clowning and filled me with fear as I didn’t like clowns 🙂

I didn’t know anything of what was involved

pure ignorance

and it turned out to be one of the greatest gifts I have ever received

for heart opening

In a nutshell it is about celebrating our shadow

expanding it

and allowing it

we all have a clown that we usually try to hide

because other people don’t find it acceptable

and so we learn to find that unacceptable in ourselves

when we are bored

make a mistake

angry or depressed

when we are clowning it’s allowed and honoured

being in a group of people who are opening and revealing this aspect is truly wonderful

and feels like falling in love

Most of the people I met shared this with me and I hadn’t consciously connected to that.

Here is the Thoth card I got:

Queen of Swords

Amazing what comes from the void 🙂

To revisit this I went to Mars……den

Mars energy is the North

strong masculine energy

It feels literally like travelling to another world

because it is vibrationally.

It’s in a valley and protected by hills

and they also limit the light

Where I live now in Glastonbury is very feminine energy and flat and open

the contrast was striking

Each place has it’s own sacred geometry to be with

This is on one level what jet lag is…..

moving from different energetic zones with their own love language

As in the matrix we have a shared playground to play in

we have our own code and sometimes we find ourselves unable to bond with others

and that is ok because it is the path

the more we become accustomed to seeing, hearing, feeling that

and the easier we flow without resistance to our next playing place.

The mastery is releasing our tags so we fly free in all space

as we are one with the Tao

limitless and unbounded

and that may take many journeys 🙂

Seeing the signs repeated

taking the time to notice

as we reveal the sacred in us and honour it

we see it everywhere.

I went back to some big crossroads in my past and one of them was a house.

I felt at peace with it.

I took a photo of a metal support that runs through the house and has a star on each side

this star has sixteen points

Ishtar’s gate and was called Fallbottom Cottage

This house experience was my journey into my underworld

and the unravelling of my ego

I met all my demons and saw all my ego beliefs revealed

and as I journeyed through them

although it felt very painful

it was the gateway to somewhere else

an opportunity to shed some skins and be reborn

revealing what lies beneath.

At these times we see what is important to us and how our choices have led us to this place.

If we take responsibilities for our actions instead of blaming others

we can integrate those child parts of ourselves that have stayed frozen in time.

To see ourselves clearly it is often easier simply to see the pattern

as our ego is designed to protect itself

If we choose avoidance patterns

what are we avoiding?

If we choose distraction patterns

what are we distracting ourselves from?

If we are seeking oblivion

then if we choose we can look at the hurt place instead

because we always come full circle.

Do we choose to learn and spiritually grow into maturity

or stay a sulky scared child?

With every cycle the energy expands

The ego race is doomed to failure by it’s very nature….

Lilith in 2007 was a star player in mine

there is always someone richer, more beautiful, faster, stronger

has a bigger gun 🙂

The ego path has a shelf life and an expiry date

the soul path every lasting

every choice is perfect

each gesture we make shapes the world

Do we choose to open and be vulnerable and celebrate our shadow

so our child can be free

or remain a prisoner of the mask

we the Mona Lisa smile?

Love to you today and our wonderful innocence.

Doing what we love is the key to heaven on earth.

It’s time to feel our way and allow our pure heart path to be revealed

anything that isn’t that beauty way is now showing up to be released.

If you would like to feedback about your path please do.

If you want to know more please email me with your time/date/place of birth.

True to you

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Today we are in the middle of the Blue Eagle Wavespell.

White Galactic Wind is todays universal energy.

This is the wavespell of seeing the bigger picture by being the eagle who flies high in the realms of the gods and sees the wide vistas instead of being limited by the crevice or tunnel at eye level.

Many people will have experienced being blocked at this time either physically and/or mentally ……

and thinking the tool has the answer  😦

In the UK we have had lots of snow and ice .

Jack Frost nipping at our toes.

I have been connecting to lots of people this week via Skype

who are finding their path thwarted in some way at the moment.

There is a big Libra accent – finding the balance and the universe always balance us so when we are too much in our masculine we get a feminine blast

too much in our feminine we get a linear poke in the ribs.

This is all great stuff and it often seems perverse to be saying that.

It is what I have found to be true 🙂

This is Aquarius time

Which is when we connect to all god and goddess possibility within us

A few years back I had thought I had got into great flow with my holistic business and had lots of clients.

Then it snowed for three weeks 🙂

Nooooooooooooooooo

That is when I made a huge shift because during this time of physically no clients

I discovered online communities and skype

and from this different direction

I was connecting to amazing avenues that I hadn’t dreamed of…..

because we don’t know what we don’t know.

This is where focusing on our mind’s direction and guidance can be extremely limiting

and we can open up to the universal mind and family

that is always there to support and guide us to abundance and love

if only we will stop being in our masculine on a mind mission and be still

and connect

and heed the signs.

On one level there are two sides to every coin

light , expansion and love

dark and constricting and fear

heart and ego

and you can tell the difference with some simple check ins

Are we attached to an outcome?

Do we have an agenda?

Are we excited and full of joy

Are we moving towards something with openness

or banging a drum for attention

and maybe a compilation of  ego and heart……

Straining at something isn’t ease of birthing is it?

Relax don’t do it when you want to succumb to it….

relax don’t do it…

when you want to…

come

and there is no difference to creating blissful living in so many ways to the orgasm process

and that’s a different chapter…..

The more we move into the Aquarius Age

and the more we are feeling this shift

It’s time to limber up

free ourselves from our fears

be as flexible as we can

as new shifts bring new learning.

Lots of people are feeling challenged and some people are really wearing their heart on their sleeve now which is so lovely to see.

As we move towards the full moon in Leo tomorrow this energy is building.

Leo is all about heart opening

becoming the lion heart by facing our fears and having the courage to transcend them

by being open and vulnerable and letting go of our pride

How many of us are able to reach out to other people and feel loved ?

How many of us can allow ourselves to receive ?

Be able to trust and be honest

and let go of the outcome?

When I had my first encounter with my universal self saying no in a big way

I was in my early twenties and had chosen to be in a relationship with a controlling bully

As a result of this I lost my mind for a while….

I felt isolated from everyone and everything because I was living a lie

I was in public service at the time in the leisure industry and I put on a mask to serve.

Inside I was very frightened and desperate and I didn’t feel I could turn to anyone.

My physical symptoms reflected this and I developed psoriasis on my face

I used to wear foundation and that had to stop

I had palpitations

this increased to panic attacks because I ignored the signs and didn’t know how to find a way out

and be honest with everyone

Eventually I got cervical cancer

and tunnel vision

I started to have migraines that distorted my vision and as a result I looked for an outside fix ( because that was all I knew back then)

I had to wear glasses which helped to a degree.

I went to the doctors for advice and at that time my doctor didn’t have any awareness of how the mind and emotion create these symptoms

(most still don’t because if they did they wouldn’t be trying to solve things using drugs)

and so prescribed me valium.

I still had all the feelings, my situation hadn’t changed,

I was in a bubble where I felt numb

and I couldn’t function and I felt like a very glum goldfish in a world that was totally alien to me.

Somehow I came through it and back then I didn’t have a clue about anything holistic and only my will power got me to move forward.

I did the cold turkey and sought practical solutions which meant finding small steps to get through and keep going

I got support through structures outside of myself which is what most people are still doing 25 years later

and it’s time for a change 🙂

I was off work for a while because I literally couldn’t pick up the phone

and I didn’t get any sympathy from my boss because he couldn’t see my inner wound.

Funnily enough he had a nervous breakdown (breakthrough) shortly after mine and ironically maybe he missed out on the universe showing him through me

so he got his own turn because we shared the same vibes as is always the way with law of attraction.

Deaf to the message let’s turn up the volume

and take your fingers out of your ears and stop la la ing 🙂

I had lost the confidence to function and was in total headless chicken and overwhelm….

in a standing still sort of a way 🙂

Over time through being still and gentle with myself ….

I didn’t have a choice because my body enforced this by shutting me down

which is what happens in many cases at this time of year.

When it is cold and dark we cannot light ourselves up with the sun or commune with our green goddess

so the energy is unplugged and we are reliant on our inner generator for light and warmth….

hence Sad

This time of year the more we do our inner work and the more resources we have on all levels.

Composting our Karma and the real core recycling.

Rotted down poo is the best fuel for those spring flowers.

A year or so after this crossroads it was the right time to move on and in a couple of years I moved to London

in a new relationship with my partner of today.

Here I had a huge extended family working for Wetherspoon’s and all of my personal experience

with my mental health road trip

was invaluable for the people I met and who were often at this same crossroads

and I shared my story with them often with a cup of tea and sympathy

in the kitchen

and in the sharing they could see that I had got through it

and so, therefore could they

and that it was ok to say you were struggling with life and everything that it involved

and that was true family acceptance

It’s time for us all to share who we really are and our vulnerability

so we can evolve

we all have the same stuff going on

we all want to be loved and respected for who we are.

Ego simply attracts so much ego

I remember at crisis times since then I have always been honest and sought help more and more

I am a human being

I make mistakes and I mess up

and through this process is the greatest time of my evolution

When I had my property crisis I went to property seminars and met some lovely heart centred people who really wanted to help other people transform their crisis into a new possibility

There were very young people who were transforming and challenging local councils and courts

There were also the very masculine predators who were looking to make a killing

in their glittery splendour

as the vampire archetypes cold blooded without a beating heart it seems

because they have been wounded and often seek to redeem through building portfolios to hide in….

all are valuable and all allow love to blossom with their truth.

We are ready to move into allowing ourselves to not know and open up to the

dark matter that holds our galaxy together

and is our glue too

and we will create this

willingly or unwillingly

the universal goddess knows it is where we are heading and is birthing it through us

It’s a time of surrender to whatever we are resisting

feel those labour pains

The majority of the planet is still slumbering in sheeple land

and making noises about change and transformation

when we actually look closer we see that is the same song of slavery to the hamster wheel that has always been sung

only now it is in a different choir

How many bubble bursters are there out there terrified of having to do something new?

Wanting to pop someone else’s dream because it is too brilliant and illuminates their darker world ?

How many speak the language of the new love world and yet do the dance of the cave dweller ?

To create a new way of being

we actually…. create….. a new way of being?

A thought gives rise to a dream

A word gives the thought a voice

Action brings it into being

Repeated action brings change and creates new pathways.

We have to go into long virgin grass sometimes, tangled thickets and sometimes we get many scratches

and nettle stings

oooo and find a dock leaf to soothe the sting

sometimes we have to howl with the moon

Our mind would weave us a safe playground of knowingness and this is what kills our spirit

If we make choices that conspire with it

It is all of our choosing and always perfect.

I am constantly wowed by the intricacy of our amazing universal selves.

Today I am sharing more of my Thoth journey and my latest read

The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life by 

Drunvalo Melchizedech.

This has totally inspired me

and I am getting a compass 🙂

I will share more of this in another blog because this is huge.

It is easy to see where our spirit wants to go

where our excitement goes

and for me when I feel like a child on Christmas morning…..

it’s a heart thing

Woo Hoo

In January it is sometimes easy to lose focus and wonder at what is next….

and when we surrender to that we allow something new to appear

instead of trying to make things happen we allow our higher self to bring us amazing gifts

and it usually comes when we least expect it

and…..

it isn’t what we think it is

Look back at how many times you have taken an unexpected turn on your path

look back and see how you have learned so much in this shadow space

when we allow others to give to us these miracles occur

and so often we don’t do that because our mind is stage directing

Lots of people talking about NLP today

and I got my learning through a great school with wise teachers

The Heart path.

So many NLP courses focus on the masculine power alpha approach

teaching techniques that aren’t love based and are manipulative in many ways

The Dark Side 🙂

Like Darth Vadar in Star Wars who wanted power to become more powerful than his adversaries and defend his heart

and in the process lost his humanity by denying it

when the true way to becoming powerful is to become more vulnerable  than your opponent and in the process

let go of any need to fight

let go of any need to do the dance

by integration through the wound

by exposing our gentle underbelly to the sword

and our heart on the sleeve

When we choose to live in a world of protection and defence walls

we close off to love too.

Walls close everything out and we stay in the gilded cage of our own making.

See the iceberg floating by and jump

where will it take us

Down the rabbit hole

to new countries that speak in a different tongue

have different beliefs

different customs

and  different ways of living life

where do we start this new journey?

By looking within and broadening our internal horizon’s

slipping off our straight jackets

changing our circle

daring to dream

finding something new to do that challenges us.

When I met my new partner we went to the Caribbean. We had lots of adventures going on a submarine and flying in a mini plane.

Afterwards he admitted they terrified him.

Me too.

One day we went on a yacht cruise and we went snorkelling

It was a wonderful experience and he was keen to swim out to an island some way from the yacht. On the return to the harbour we were shown a pool of sharks. These sharks had been where we were swimming. Our faces drained of colour as we looked at each other. Our guides explained they were harmless and didn’t have teeth however I guess that wouldn’t have registered if we had met one close up in the sea 🙂

We wouldn’t have asked for a cheesy grin photo 🙂

Later my partner admitted he couldn’t swim  very well but had decided to go for it as it was shallow and we had flippers and masks 🙂

In the book I have mentioned there is a section on initiate tests in Egypt and having to swim through a pool of crocodiles

the crocodiles had been fed but the initiates didn’t know that 🙂

Life is a series of initiate tests

For each challenge we have an opportunity to go through a gate and experience the rewards

Everything in life is a reward

It is life

Let’s live and love

and let go of anything that feels less than love and joy.

It is why we have feelings…

to override the mind and navigate with the heart.

Life is an adventure we can all share in

and be the open hearted loving people we want to see

This isn’t something anyone can fake

and you cannot simply buy a tee shirt for it

because if you don’t feel it

no one else can feel you.

Love to you all and bringing that god and goddess potential to full brilliance.

This was a lovely film I watched this week that has such a great simple message of love

Here is my tapping video to open to the Cosmic Cookie Trail:

The divinity code

universe

How is your learning going so far this year?

It’s an amazing transition time we are in and this time is always challenging.

As an Aquarius rising my personal life challenge is to share my Aquarius self and my Aquarius filter.

It always has been and now I am understanding this more.

It’s only taken me half a century on the planet 🙂

If you are reading this from a position of wayshower and soul traveller then what I say may be unusual and yet you can connect to it

and it may be your perspective too….

and if not

somewhere within you

there is an opening that allows you to hear what I am saying and connect to it

although it may be light years away from where you are now

it may still be felt as potentiality.

For others it may be barking mad and alien

and all of that perspective is ok

that is what gives rise to our creative kaleidoscope of a world.

It would be fab if we could avoid shooting the messenger too

and to accept our differences.

We are where we are and I understand that saying numbers and colours have a vibration makes some people feel ill…..

had a conversation with someone a while back about that and they got very defensive and then went on the attack.

Often our ego tries to destroy what it perceives as a threat…..

the narc pattern comes out to keep the status quo

and radical paradigm shifts are as such

it is a leap too far

the ground moves beneath us

and we struggle to keep our sanity

as a new world looms that is so often radically different to the one our mind knows.

Welcome to the Aquarius Age 🙂

It is always perfect for where we are as well because if we aren’t geared up cosmically to enter that road trip

and it’s out of alignment with our spiritual schedule

then a sabotage will occur for a reason.

The way of the initiate is to know when to push forward and when to hold and this is learned over time when we are on the road to nowhere.

All those dearly beloved gathered here today signed up for this cosmic trip…..

and to forget what we know from previous lives at the beginning and what happens before and after

otherwise we wouldn’t get a fresh outlook and to play and discover and explore would we?

When we are ready for this extra info it arrives ready to explore.

Would you choose in advance some of the key learning curves of your life?

With the mind in charge it’s a big no no to these gateways of “opportunity”

insanity?

Insanity is often where the learning is at it’s peak

the mystical mountain top

We often live in resistance to what is….

It’s unnatural for a parent to outlive their child

is a common theme

If something happens then it is for a reason

If the plants are out “too early” or lambs born at “the wrong time”

How can that be true?

They are here aren’t they ?

It has happened for some reason

and we may not like it

that’s ok

Who are we to know the amazing workings of divinity ?

and yet in a way we do because we are part of it and we are the sacred web of life

and we consciously create it

only until we match up with the script

we often feel reactive and a dandelion seed blown by the wind.

In a majority co dependent pattern world

with the majority of our psyche being of the  reactive pattern

focusing on fixing

something needed outside of us to restore balance inside of us like drugs

having the perspective point at what we can add to ourselves

change about our appearance

as the way to joy

when the true beauty way is within

going deep inside to reveal our inner core structure

The new time is a change of focus and direction

and shape

more emphasis on the circle and spiral

the long and winding road

Here is my offering as to what I have learned so far and how I have come to know some fabulous things about life, the universe and everything 

by following the cosmic cookie trail.

This is offered to you from the heart and it is what I know so far.

I am attempting to share it in my Taurus Moon capacity ……

Practical and Grounded as much as I can

The Divinity code is appearing now because we are ready to receive this information……

The information of the Gods

as in……

us

yea how exciting……

We are ready to awaken to our true nature which is powerful creative beings who create our unique reality through our beliefs

our thoughts become things.

In the Ancient Egyptian times there was much ado about Thoth and Aleister Crowley and Lady Frieda Harris created The Tarot Thoth deck and lots of books on the subject.

I have just acquired a deck and did my first Mayan spread last night…. more of that later.

He had a connection to Glastonbury and one such connection was Dion Fortune who lived here and is buried in our cemetry.

When I first came here I started reading her books and went to visit her grave.

I have learned a lot from her and still learning.

If you feel drawn check out her books – they are experiential and create profound transformation in the reading.

At the time of Thoth in Egypt from what is understood today

through whoever’s energy circuit and level of understanding….

Which may be very different from the original as the flavour and cycle was very different

is that Thoth has both elements combined within him and is seemingly androgynous

That in terms of an archetypal pattern he is Mercury the messenger and Gemini

this to me , represents balancing our masculine and feminine and hearing our higher soul selves

The legend is that a human stole Thoth’s secret teachings that were hidden from mankind

with that knowledge they would be able to access many magical powers

and so the human was found, the secret books recovered, the person and family punished and sealed in a tomb.

A common theme in our collective story and myth world library.

The metaphor of this story and many others is that humans are not ready to handle the god and goddess self and knowledge

akin to children using adult tools and ways and hurting themselves and others

due to inexperience and immaturity

perfect for our ego world today

and so this is where we are in dark moon time on our planet

Lots of children in adult bodies

seeking to create immortality and worth through outside means

and as the Universe card on this blog shows

only the pure of heart can access and ascend the tree of life.

So much of this may sound like riddles to the uninitiated

and in the past this has been intentional for that very reason

to hide the power of the universe and the code

the holy grail

from those that would seek to use it from an ego space.

Now it’s the time you be accessed by more and more people.

If you are ready…..

and you will know in your heart that you are….

and are willing to do what it takes…..

whatever the universe asks of you

( the universe being you remember 🙂 )

then it’s time to see the code

the real secret

that has always been here

and now is available to more people because our planet is ready to evolve

and so each of us is ready to birth it.

Today we are in Aries Moon

unless you believe in precession then we are in Taurus

Just bought Llewellyn’s moon sign book and am confused on this because I want to know for planting my veggies and I don’t want to be planting them in a barren time so if someone can advise me please message me 🙂

I am intending to work intuitively as well

and learn to trust my experience as a long time gardener

I always question myself and am open to learning.

if we are in tune and a clear vibrating tuning fork we can feel it as well 🙂

So here’s to plain language of New Beginnings

If you design a website or a document some of it may be in code HTML

If you write a blog like me then you can add widgets and media – youtube for example

and you embed a code or put a link to add it to your blog.

If you use a certain company they will have their preferred methodology and you have to use it because that is their divinity code

and if you expand this concept their sacred geometry is revealed because our energetic fingerprint is revealed in everything

Mac is different to Windows

If you play computer games they have a code. You can be in a virtual world fairly free to roam where you will and you will encounter lots of code – only it doesn’t look like code it looks like landscape or a bird or a person.

So it is in our game of life.

This is the tree of life and why we are here

This is why animal totems show up and people show up to reveal the code

Our personal Matrix

On a very simple level we beamed in at a certain time to have a certain experience and be part of a bigger picture production.

We had a code like the virtual experience in the film Total Recall

This film has been upgraded recently with a different code and some interesting product placements and subliminal codes to sell things which is very much today’s consumer lifestyle world.

I prefer the old version in many ways.

We design our trip in advance.

The first part of our trip is designed to allow us to learn and crete an energetic code from the perspective of a child

a dependent 

who largely is reliant on others and is generally made to receive a view of the world perceived by caretakers

and this view isn’t often shared by the child because they are freshly into life and very close to their source

the children are free from education and conditioning to begin with although they carry  past lives code and DNA code

on a cellular level

In this experience the child creates new energetic code  from the original and often in this time this code is very much coming from ego and fear

survival

This energetic code allows the child to create certain life experiences

the universe brings us what we believe to be true

If we want to change this code and have different landscapes, animals and people show up then we have to do something new with our child code.

Often as a child we have created safety programmes designed to allow us to be kept safe in a practical way and yet in a heart way they are very inauthentic as to our spirit and heart knowing.

The child learns code to survive basically by adopting codes of fear based games.

This continues until the child decides to do whatever it takes to live from the heart instead of from the ego.

This is the tipping point and it is often triggered at certain times in alignment with the universal divinity code.

As the universal cycle moves we are always at a point of choice to stay as we are or create new code.

If we have been hurt by a man in our lives we have a code for that.

If we have had uncomfortable relationships with women we have a code for that.

and they keep showing up in some form……

until we change …..

Here is a big gateway point:

To change the code we have to let go of the emotion that was encoded with the experience because it has been anchored.

We cannot create a different game simply by knowing that with our mind.

Remember the pure heart accessing the tree of life wisdom?

There is no judgement in our universe save for what is created by the ego in the human mind.

Things simply are what they are and we all place meaning on them.

What I believe pure of heart means is having let go of our wounding from the past

otherwise we are forever bound to it

and to repeat it

unless we mature

by loving and accepting ourselves

and letting go of needing to please anyone else

We truly grow up inside as well as outside

everyone simply wants to be loved

and when we do this inner work we ascend and are free.

We believe in ourselves.

We have faith in us.

If we have an emotional attachment that hasn’t been released then we are coming to each relationship

fully loaded

like a huge photo file

big media story

on a mission

with all the code to match.

Example:

If we have a belief that people are unjust then we will get lots of game codes to show that in our day to day.

I am not saying that injustice will disappear overnight  in our world as a whole

simply by each individual doing an energy emotional release

it will change over time in alignment with the bigger cycle……

small steps

and things do not change simply by wishing or positive affirmations

I hear lots of people saying:

I didn’t ask for this universe 🙂

Well of course on some level we did because it showed up right on time for us to learn

We created it based on our beliefs, choices and actions

If start to look instead at what is within us to match this then we have a great gateway opportunity

Once we have cleared a lot of our energetic past we create new codes

we have let go of our anger and vitriol.

We have learned how to be a student and a teacher by creating different relationships

and the give and take pattern which is so essential to flow

Being in balance.

Imagine a street in a village and one side has parked cars in one section and on the other side the same only lower down. If traffic only flows one way then the lane with the stopped traffic will eventually build up a tail back. This tail back will get bigger until the moving lane cannot get through either so they stop and when enough space is created then again it’s time to stop and let the other lane through again.

Giving and receiving in balance creates flow.

The same is true of all things.

Money coming in and going out.

Yin and Yang cycle.

When we focus on connecting to the code we start to see patterns.

There are no “good ” patterns or ” bad ” patterns.

That’s the mind coming in to measure and label.

Patterns create a form

Patterns are the code

What we can do is choose an outcome we want to create.

This is what I have learned to do in my life

and am still learning

and I share it with others.

If we want to create harmony then we can follow a code

There used to be a coaching saying…..

it isn’t where you are now……it’s where you want to be.

For me

it is where you are now AND where you want to be.

The journey is the sacred path we take

and being happy now is the secret.

Being happy simply is letting go of any expectations and mind chatter that says you cannot 🙂

It is always there as part of our factory setting

only sometimes we forget for a while.

The more we allow ourselves to receive the more our self worth and esteem grows from within.

We allow vulnerability and intimacy through trusting others

and offering the hand of friendship and love

and learning along the way

We are the fool.

In our lifetime we are the fool over and over and we set off on a great adventure.

Each drop of the universe has the universal code in it at heart.

This is the microcosm within the macrocosm.

Back to Egypt….

Here is an interesting awareness of the pyramid

and here is more info about the amygdalla

and  how our mind pattern matches

So now is the time to tune in to more awareness of our code and creating the life we want to live and taking action and choices that support that.

A code is a code and many people are wanting one thing whilst choosing another

A self loathing code and expecting the universe to reflect back beauty and peace

A lack and competitive vibe and expecting abundance and co-operation

A buy your stairway to heaven vibe and expecting heart opening relationships

sometimes that is out of lack of awareness

and sometimes that is avoidance of facing our shadow.

In this time of Eris we can see that some astrologers would choose to demote the planet Pluto rather than accept a new discordant archetype  planet

so would most people

however she is here so it’s clear that the time is perfect for her revealing.

Interesting that this planet is very slow moving so that anyone born after 1922 has the same vibe of Eris in Aries

If you are ready to get the ball rolling in your own circle now is the time to align

with the yin and yang cycle

Here is a fab website illustrating this.

It may feel a bit strange to begin with simply because it is new

the more we go with the universe and the more we flow with the universe.

You may also get some aha moments as to why you never wanted to eat breakfast

( maybe much ado about breakfast is marketing a plastic fantastic cereal product ? )

and why you are a night owl or an early riser

the real reason we want to rest in the afternoon

and so our awareness becomes clearer

and we get to transit easier through these challenging times.

This is the last day of the White Wind wavespell where we have been speaking our truth or not and in White Cosmic Wizard day we can let go of trying to create the magic using things outside of us as our ego focus and follow the yin

allowing the magic to flow through us

by being authentic and a clear channel

Tomorrow brings an exciting wavespell of death and transformation with

blue eagle

We go on our next 13 days of discovery by rising up and seeing the bigger picture

When we look down from a great height we can see our tiny form on the landscape far below and how we have come far

and still have exciting terrain ahead

this can align us with our guidance team

who are waiting in the wings to give support when asked

ask and it is given

sometimes we seem to be stuck in a very dark place

and yet suddenly a crack of light appears

and in the next moment we are bathed in luminous light

such is the nature of the journey

If you would like to know more about how to access info about your unique code

or the universal code

please message me with your time/date and place of birth

and we can also arrange a chat on skype to discuss where you are now….

and where you want to be and

it is totally free 🙂

Love what I do and I learn every time I do this with someone

If you would like to know more about The Mayan spread for Tarot get in touch.

It’s an amazing way to blend different circles of influence.

If you would like to learn about the moon cycles and how to use them here is a link for an ebook workshop I have created to share that

Awakening Moon

I use emotional freedom technique and NLP in an energy coaching format to change my divinity code and love sharing it with others as 

a wonderful self-empowerment tool.

My Mayan Thoth reading was so perfect for yesterday when I created it on Red Crystal Skywalker day.

I will create a document and share it soon.

What an amazing magical world we live in.

Thank you to everyone who shares so much wonderful info and websites that make my blogs possible.

Love to you all and your Blue Eagle 13 days of mystical vision quest.

What will you see ?

New Story

leaf lanternToday is the last day of 2012 

I have spent the last few days connecting to the past and feeling my energetic story.

Part of this has involved integrating my work and photos which have been on different devices using different formats.

When we are experiencing transition and change this is often the way to notice it…..

by looking how what we are doing on the outside is reflecting our inner world.

We can see our inner mechanisms at work and this is a key part of our awakening process.

I have made a shift to using a Mac over the past couple of years due to my Son’s influence and how it offers such a different format to windows

I love the beauty of it.

In this simple journey I see how our collective ego pattern has created so many different systems that vie for attention and support

and how many systems are incompatible

and so a choice is often required……

we cannot choose all and oneness in our ego world

and it may take a while to integrate and for the bigger picture to become simpler

as we are in the Aquarian age where part of this transition is to become independent and celebrate our uniqueness

and to co create in this phase is tricky……

We are all involved in the bigger wheel and all on a different cog and so one size does not fit all.

There are many paradoxes on this path

the clear way for each of us is to go within

and for many initiates this step is the hardest of all because it flies in the face of all our society conditioning.

Many people have never learned how to listen to their own voice or allow their own innate wisdom

gut instinct

and

it is always there to be accessed……

when we are ready to own our power and act on it.

Today in the Mayan wavespell we are Red Solar Earth on the ninth day of the Red Moon 13 day spiral.

Today we see in the number nine energy , how the past eight days complete.

What insights have we learned over the last nine days about who we really are ?

Just to remind you if you are following the blogs …..

We are in the seventh year of the Red Moon cycle on our planet

this Red Moon archetype is all about the return of the sacred feminine

through each one of us on our world

This is the most important aspect 🙂

The change comes as we change

The world that is created through us as a reflection of our beliefs ….

a holograph

a playground constructed for our soul evolution

created by us for us

to go through ever evolving cycles

so that we can know ourselves

by experiencing lots of different perceptions

through the being of them

We are now at a very exciting time of the turning point in our tipping point

where we are now allowing the true nature of our amazingness to be experienced

by all

who dare to dream

and let go of living from the limitation of our ego selves

by transforming our darkness into light.

On this journey many of us have been plunged into the void in order to make the transition

we have to let go of the circle that we were born into

and all the wounding involved in that place

where we learned to believe we weren’t loved by teachers who believed the same

this is the karma wheel of beliefs creating our reality

This is the initiate path of the ego

and naturally the ego does not choose what it sees as it’s own demise……

Most people are dragging their heels on the slippery slopes of the descent into what we call Hades

and because our ego doesn’t take responsibility for anything at this stage

because that would mean feeling strong emotions….

it loves to pass the parcel and use the blame game

scapegoats

and deflections.

Thing is if we don’t go and experience our own personal version of hell willingly

and then let go of it

seeing it for what it truly is

a place of misunderstandings and acting out from a place of hurting…..

We are creating it over and over every day until we do…..

In our past generations of humanity this has been very literal and visceral

and sadly for many on our planet this is still true.

Only we can change that reality by changing our inner slides.

What we see on our world stage is the very old performance of avoidance.

It’s easy to recognise in the form of people creating patterns of getting their emotional needs met through

mood altering stuff

external definition through stuff

focusing on the unconscious rather than the conscious

dishonesty

hypocrisy

being around people we dislike……..

what would happen if we didn’t ?

doing jobs we find disheartening………

Is it possible that we could let go of believing that we have to earn x to support this false edifice of y?

using lots of props to support this woeful artifice

wanting something on the outside that doesn’t match on the inside

manifesting through manipulation and energy structures that are not love structures

and so like most illusions

it is simply a matter of time before the created artifice disappears in a puff of green smoke….

beings full of fear

because of the shadow energy body we are carrying around that is dragging us down

There have been lots of films on TV over Christmas to illustrate this

and unless we are cut off from the universe in a remote backspace like the moon……

we are very aware of all the myths and archetypal stories that are interwoven everywhere for our guidance in case we are so unconscious

that we have become a zombie 🙂

I watched a film last night called Moon which illustrates the metaphor of this calling…..

The essence of this film is that mankind has chosen to farm the moon for it’s power supply.

The moon in esoteric terms is our feminine energy and our shadow selves.

The more we work to know our shadow selves and transform this energy

the more grounded and powerful we become

as we know ourselves and accept ourselves

the more magical gifts are revealed

and no one has the ability to have any power over us

as is shown in our myths such as Snow White who is essentially our pure sacred feminine

compared to our narcissistic ego personality wounds of the Snow Queen

this is currently playing out on Channel 5 in the UK in a drama series

Once Upon a time

Great heart stories every day through modern fairytale

In 2013 I am focusing on creating and sharing workshops that empower people to work with this energy in a practical way.

If you feel moon awareness may be of interest to you please message me.

Wherever we are and whatever we are doing

we are always called at the perfect time

and if we choose to ignore the calling then the message simply gets louder

Before we came in we committed to doing this journey

and we have been part of the bigger story many times

when we remember who we truly are and what magic we possess

we become the thriver rather than the survivor

Why would we want to accept this illusion that our ego driven society purveys?

That we live a life of limitation and are unable to create our dream ?

That the dream is as empty as material goods?

They have no ability to generate love so why is the majority of our planet still intent in going down the pursuit of happiness externally?

Our major industries show where our energetic focus and beliefs lie

Pharmaceuticals and War

Drugs to mask the symptoms of how we are living out of alignment with who we truly are

Weapons to destroy a perceived threat of the other

a mad world that exist because our ego believes it needs to on a deep level

Time to create a different story instead?

The essence of the transition is to keep what is coming from love and let go of what is sponsored by fear

and take the small steps

in tandem with our universal energy wheel

The key focus of the initiate energy is to work from a powerful space of intention

being mindful and focused

on what we choose to create

and essentially by accepting what is our true story now

when we get squeezed by the darkness patterns

what pops out?

Is it love and light?

Most people wear a mask to cover up their true nature

and we only show the parts of us we have learned are loveable

based on what we were educated and conditioned to do as a child

it is essential that we unlearn this to create our future of being authentic and having honest relationships

Imagine a future where we can truly be us and how good that feels?

Having let go of all our inner child ego hurt from the past

we are no longer needing to attract in old matching patterns from the past so we can heal them

Instead we can feel good about who we are

feel confident and have good self-esteem

we bounce back at any of life’s challenges

and we don’t take things personally because there is no inner shadow energy feeling hurt to be triggered

We don’t create more of the same old same

We don’t need to blame anyone and we don’t need an ego drama fix

We have a love of life because we are engaged in what we chose to come and create

We don’t feel angry because we understand that people are in a different space…

and that doesn’t mean we become a doormat or passive

We are empowered

We are strong

because we are integrated and light within

The outside show is seen truly as it is

an artifice of our choosing

We can create our dream way of living in a sustainable way that doesn’t compromise anyone else

and in this process our planet isn’t compromised either

When we all meet our emotional needs from the inside we let go of competition and needing stuff in an unsupported way

Making the transition is tricky as we change our patterns

part of that process is resistance from others that reflect the parts of us seeking transition

and so this route requires persistence, trust and dedication.

This journey is open to all who are willing to do what it takes

and sometimes this can be daunting and demanding

so not for the faint hearted

only those with courage and determination will meet the challenge and it is so worth it.

In the traditional calendar we are facing the end of 2012

in the universal cycle we are at midpoint in winter in the northern hemisphere.

The Mayan wavespell year begins July 26th so again we are at midpoint

and over the past months since October Scorpio gateway

we have been working with the darkness and shadow

This Blue Storm Year is midway.

It is a number seven year and so we have reached the top of the pyramid in the thirteen year cycle

We are experiencing everything that needs to die so we can be reborn

We may have had a tough year

of dissolution

and if we embrace this we move onto a new cycle

if we resist …..

it continues

the way is through

this is the alchemical transformation

the liquifying process that changes the caterpillar to butterfly

Many people have left the planet this year and in their passing we have learned much

Everything happens for a reason

It may not be revealed at the time and maybe never to us in this lifetime

I have noticed more and more how I am aware of how I can only relate to people because of their expectations and beliefs

and this can also trigger emotion

especially frustration 🙂

Our ego can be so limiting at times

as on one level it determines how we interact with this interface of life

however the more we become aware

the more we heal and let go

and the more freedom we have to go to new places and experience new things

when we are starting out in life without prior experience of what we call failure

then we take on great challenges from the naiveté of youth

and it is possible to revisit that energy without the lack of wisdom and without fear

if we are willing to face our shadow

this is the gift of now.

The universe always matches us if only we are willing to look at that match incarnate eye to eye.

On July 26 2013 we enter Yellow Galactic Seed year on our planet

The magical year of integrity through integration.

A number eight year and the image says it all

If we are willing to let go of our past and all that hasn’t served us

the time we spend now preparing that inner space

will reap rich rewards

we will match the universal bigger picture

Most generally hype about this Mayan calendar has come from the ego pattern focus

of misdirection and fear……

the true gift is the divinity code

that is open to all

who dare to unlock their own personal Pandora’s Box

and take a good look at what is inside.

It is the gift of synchronising with all that is.

This is the inspiration for workshops I am creating now.

At the start of 2012 I did not have this awareness and this has been an amazing year for me connecting to this.

I had to trust in the process and face my fear in doing so.

During Christmas my family and I reconnected to Tomb Raider with Lara Croft  and have had fun exploring the virtual world of ancient civilisations.

This has been such a fun teaching tool for me

There is still the most emphasis on the ego world of violence and arousal of this part of us as a key part of the gaming process

over time as we change

this will change

part of our life challenge is facing adversarial archetypes to overcome our fear

and as we do this on the inside and balance ourselves then extreme violence will no longer be necessary

and it may take a while…..

Are we ready to have fun?

Are we ready to do what we love no matter what it takes?

Are we ready to make friends with our ego and open our heart to what wants to live in us?

My intention is to have a magical year and trust in my divine self more and more.

I am intending to be in some wonderful sacred spaces

co creating with others who are choosing to live sacred lives

in reality

by being the change

Our lives here are fleeting and short in this form

when we honour who we really are and treat ourselves accordingly

with reverence and respect

our lives have meaning and true worth

we allow our magnificent creativity to be unleashed

I had a dream to be in Kephalonia in 2012 running a retreat.

That didn’t work out as I saw it originally.

Instead I was there with my family having a retreat for myself.

This was one of the major highlights of my year

and allowed me to be clear of the powerful Glastonbury bubble that can often cloud our vision

as our ego looms large when we are in it 🙂

I remembered and reconnected to the wonderful feminine healing energy of Greece

which has always been such a high energy heart space for me

and where I intend to create retreats for others with me doing what we love.

Simply being there is so uplifting in this natural beauty space.

Check out my photos.

If you feel you are drawn to a heart opening retreat in Kephalonia please message me.

This is another aspect I have integrated this year.

I had an intellectual knowing of this and now I really feel it.

Our journey is a process and we follow a certain path that is predetermined in many respects by our energetic alignment at birth.

Astrology is the language of consciousness.

This Starcode and Mayan sign is our sacred geometry and is what guides us to experience a certain flavour of the universal tapestry

there are many paths we can take within this framework

and

we have a star coded mission that will always assert itself

with or without our ego consent and co-operation.

If you want to know more about this please message me with your time,date and place of birth and I will send you the information.

If you already have this and would like to know more….

what year you are on in your thirteen year cycle and how to work with this with awareness…..

please message me

As I co create with everyone I learn and evolve and I am so grateful for living this life in this way.

Love to everyone who has been with me so far and I look forward to our meetings and connecting in the coming months.

I am planning an event in my home village at Lammas in August 2013 which will be focusing on sending out our Yellow Seed Intentions to the universe.

I would love to co create this with other people offering heart opening workshops so please get in touch if you feel this calls to you.

It is in the Gemini and Taurus of the Glastonbury Zodiac

So we have all the tools we need and all the raw material within us to weave the magic……

Are we sitting comfortably?

Then let’s begin….

What is possible for us now?

Love to you all and our wonderful potentiality.

I was given a gift by a friend in Glastonbury and I have recently started reading it….

It is wonderful and I would love to share it with you if you haven’t yet seen it.

Ramtha The White Book

I am simply recommending the wisdom in the words in the book alone

and not the wider scope of anything connected beyond that of which I have no personal experience

What we believe we conceive.

Here is a fab video in a great series of sharing the mystery teachings.

Into the blue

How are you bearing up after your journey into Mercury Mind Games over the past three weeks?

It’s been a powerful journey and the last thirteen days of the Mayan Unconditional love wavespell of White Dog has brought many gifts for you I hope 🙂

We have been going through a wave of unconditional love showing us our companions of destiny who bring great gifts during their time with us

As the saying goes

Some come for a reason

some for a season

and some come for a lifetime

and as a reflection of everything that is our life experience

a mirror of that in some way

we see our beliefs reflected and where we can enhance and let go

It can be very simple ……when we use our feelings to guide us

If our inner dog has been barking in alarm that is always an emotional response and is linked to our past

The framework I use :

it’s a pattern match for something that has happened in the past that our fight/flight/freeze defence mechanism of our emotional mind has been triggered by

and we can notice that and how this trigger creates a feeling

If you want to give it a go here is a document you can use for when your buttons are being pushed:

 Daily Button Pushing Questionnaire

then we can be with that feeling and feel it because clearly it is showing up to alert us to something that has hurt us before

and I use emotional freedom technique to tap on this and let it go

Here’s a video that can help

and allow myself to have insights about what that was about in the past

and let that go

and then see what I want to do about the situation now free from being pushed into a response that is fear led

When I am free from this response I can come from inspiration instead and be living in the now

Otherwise I repeat that pattern all over again because energetically I am still reacting to that match with the same awareness and emotion

Make sense?

The Emotional Mind is a different animal to the Logical Mind and they don’t speak the same language which is why we can rationalise something forever and a day and we still get triggered

Here is a document explaining that:

Emotional Mind

Feel it and let it go and be free 🙂

Watched an amazing heart film which has apects of this yesterday

It shows how we are repeating patterns over and over in our history because we haven’t let our inner dog go and it has escalated time and time again

to epic proportions

war after war that doesn’t make any rational sense

fear running amok and literally destroying everything in pursuit of contolling that which cannot be controlled or known…..

life

beautiful free spirit 🙂

Miracle of  St Anna

shows the farce of our created society and the beauty of truth and love

that transcends it

Today we are in the White Cosmic Wind energy of speaking our truth with that cosmic experiential awareness

We always take ourselves with us wherever we go and we always reveal our pattern

with our inside world showing up on the outside world

Our beliefs create how we experience life on planet earth

As we are leaving this wave behind we have lots of insights to take into Blue Night Wavespell which starts tomorrow

We are going into the abyss of our inner galaxy to explore our dreamworld and how we are dreaming ourselves into being as the conscious dreamer

I am working with The Mayan Wavespell calendar for myself and with clients

because it works extremely well with my way of being in the world

and have been doing so experientially over the past twelve months now…… rather than learning it in an purely educational way using my mind alone

and what I mean by this is that I was educated to believe I could read things and learn a course and I would “know it”

and now I know that to “be it” on an energetic process I have to actually become it by integrating it and doing it

Be Do Have

This is the mastery process and our life process

When we read something we have an awareness of it on an intellectual basis and the next step is to put the learning into prectice to see how it works for us

or not

in reality

This is a holistic approach

We get to grips with the theory out in the field in practicality

using what we have learned 🙂

as we integrate our learning we can become wise

and we can also access universal wisdom

as we allow our higher selves/spirit/intuition/collective unconscious

to guide us

and let go of imposing our will and making things happen out of alignment with the path and cycle of the bigger wheel

This is the true test of will

when to act and when to be still as in The Chariot card

In my reading for November I got an interesting mix of cards :

The Tower being one of them

This is what our ego often fears

change and dissolution

however only by letting go of that which doesn’t feel a match for us so that we can flow to where is

can we truly create freedom

freedom from our ego pushing us, driving us and saying now , now , now

like an impetuous child that demands it’s needs be met

the heart does not “need” anything knows that all is well and trusts the process

our intention determines everything in how we set off in our creation process

and when we clear our emotional baggage we can give and receive in a more balanced way

As we journey we evolve our ago through our process and we allow our true authentic self to emerge nore and more

If we do not allow our true heart’s desire than we keep receiving distortions in our field showing us where we aren’t being truly honest with ourselves in who and what we attract

until we decide to do whatever it takes to be the true us

no matter what the cost 🙂

For years I have had several books on the go at once and often didn’t complete reading them because I lost heart and interest

and my inner critic who had been educated to read to the end had something to say about that

however I chose to listen to my heart wisdom and my feelings instead and strengthen that voice

Part of me knew that was the perfect action for me and so I chose to ignore my ego and go with my knowingness

This has become stronger since moving to Glastonbury and I have let go of needing to know why and surrender to trusting my knowingness

As I have connected to the Mayan Wavespell calender all has been revealed at the right time in synch with the universal cycle

this is such an amazing gift that The Mayan’s have given us knowing that it would serve us at this time

Deep gratitude for all that ever is and will be

This goes against the grain of our western way of living and if you have been feeling the pressure of all of this incoming information recently

the changes in so many things

speeding up of integration

and here in Somerset the Isle of Avalon has had so much water, it appears as an island again from certain directions

roadways blocked with emotional outpouring

literally manifest so we can literally experience our inner world on the outside

take heart this is blue resonant storm year

It is always the perfect unfolding of events

no one has got it “wrong”

there is nothing to fear

the universe is right on time and so are we walking our path

all is happening now because it matches our beliefs

As we change our beliefs the world will change as it always has

unlearning to remember who we really are

creators of our own dream on our quest for rememberance

On this bigger picture of thirteen years we are in year seven

and this thirteen year cycle started with Red Magnetic Moon Year seven years ago

What where you doing in July 26 2006 – July 26 2007?

What had you started?

I started my self-discovery with NLP training and Emotional Freedom Technique training.

So the next wavespell arriving tomorrow will really help us to go within and dare to dream

Blue Night Wavespell.

I am a Blue Solar Hand and my higher self and guide using the Mayan framework is blue night

Using the astrological framework I am a Leo with Aquarius rising

The Mayan information gives an amazing bigger picture view of astrology in a different way if you choose to take that route 🙂

If you want to do this

please check out my website

www.barefootholistics.co.uk

on the bigger picture page – there are links on there

Here is a direct link to my document

Mayan Sign

or simply google to find your own 🙂

and if you wish you can contact me with your time,date and place of birth

and I will start you off with sending you that info and giving you a bigger picture view of yourself

which is the key to journeying with awareness

For me it has clarified so much of my journey so far with great ahas and illuminated my path even more

All of my sharing involves other people and I thank them for their amazing resources

Tracey Gendron in particular has a wonderful website with lots of inspiring info

astrodreamadvisor.com

I have also recently connected to a hidden gem in my hometown

Claudie Planche and Stargaia

and today am again sharing a wonderful video that is connected to her work at the end of my blog

I am just in the process of reading Claudie’s book Starmaya

this is incorporating lots of other frameworks too and she gave a fascinating talk at our wonderful

Glastonbury Positive Living Group a couple of weeks ago

about sacred geometry and crop circles and so much more

I love this stuff

sets my heart on fire and awakens the  spiritual seeker in me.

My intention in creating these blogs is to raise awareness of amazing resources for us all to connect to at this time of transition

we signed up for this journey and we are very capable of meeting the challenge

I aim to offer practical solutions to help people work with awareness of the bigger picture with our Starcode Map

Our Starcode that we beamed in with

When we work in alignment with the universal pattern

which is cyclical instead of linear

than it all happens and is revealed at the perfect time

the more we go with the flow and relax into it

the more we see how we are going around for another go and if we want to do things differently

we can look at what changes we can create

through letting go of past ways of relating

and taking action

in a new way

The Mayan wavespell transcends language when we allow it 🙂

On a practical level we can see how our ego way of living is totally unrealistic.

As the festive season approaches we have lots of stuff out for delivery and we are informed that our precious prezzie will arrive

in 2001 I had a courier business with my partner

Part of it was a franchise called Fastway and it may or may not still be going 🙂

Love the name?

We had six vans that we bought brand new from a well known worldwide company

and they all broke down just after their warranty expired a year later

we found out that this fault was known about and unrectified when we bought them

because an honest individual who worked at the dealership thought we should know 🙂

We learned about it at the perfect time as had we known we wouldn’t have bought them and had the valuable experience

This is the hero/heroine’s challenge that is our learning and unlearning process

Many mail order companies promise their customer’s the earth and cannot ever practically deliver the goods

when they say they will

and this is a great metaphor for ego letting go and walking the path

There are so many unknown variables to get that parcel from a to z

so many potential time stops

floods

traffic

animals on the road in rural areas

gridlock in cities

unexpected happenings

illness

losing the parcel

and last week I grinned when I saw the latest way of controlling that by the company on their track and trace

it gave a specific time slot of arrival of an hour – an hour before

so if I didn’t look at the track and trace email at that time I would have missed that info

and even though I was aware and in the house

I nearly missed him because he rang the wrong doorbell and

as luck would have it I ran outside when my gut instinct said to

and he was just getting in his car

The more flexible we are about meeting others where they are

without sacrificing ourselves to do so

because our relationship is mutually matched and respected

and honouring our uniqueness

and speaking our truth with openess because we value ourselves

and the more we heart co create

To move from a to z takes time

and that is what we are here for

our minds may think they know

and our day to day living shows us the truth of where we are

We are here for an experiential journey and there are no shortcuts

there are ways to work with the process as well

and the key is

change the inside emotionally

and enjoy the ride

feal the fear get less as you go through the eye of the storm

and survive

Love to you today with speaking your cosmic truth

Enjoy this amazing video

Red Earth Wavespell ~ Are we on our heart path or being led astray by our ego ?

 

 

Day one of a new wavespell: Red Earth

and feeling the pull of the earth and in Somerset

where I live

I see

(and smell……. and that is a different aroma related to recycled grass 🙂 yikes it’s pungent )

is a rich and loamy red.

Red Magnetic Earth is all about feeling our earth connection and belonging through our base chakra.

This Red Wavespell brings us an opportunity to go within and see how we are grounded and in alignment – we are in the yellow cycle of flowering what has come before in the past few weeks. If we have done our inner work we are in a space of solar plexus sharing from our heart – this is the veil. If we have not we are still power tripping and feeling angry and getting our power from outside of ourselves. Notice the metaphors in the storms we have experienced and remembering it is Blue Resonant Storm Year.

Most places lose their electrical power when a storm hits because the power lines are outside and unprotected instead of deep in the earth – here they can also be hit by earthquakes and this is an interesting metaphor. If we all have our own power centres for our homes that have several power generators such as Fire ( recycling and solar) Water (rain, steams, wells powering generators) Earth – (pipes heated by the earth’s natural temperature where possible, insulation) Wind ( wind turbines) .

We also relinquish reliance on power companies and this is the letting go of co-dependency.

We also let go of nuclear power that at the moment we pay a very high price for on our planet.

It could be that a breakthrough will come for this too as eventually usually happens.

This wavespell follows on from the Yellow Seed Wavespell which has been about letting go of our old egoic ways of protecting our heart so we can open our heart instead.

Had a wonderful couple of days really seeing this vibe in action with the synchronicities in Glastonbury.

Glastonbury is the heart chakra of the world and as such the fourth dimension.

It is an amazing supernova of energy and wow does it mess with the mind with different outcomes

this depends where you are in the Glastonbury Zodiac

there are different energies on the landscape and I work as a therapist mainly in the Aquarius

I live in Taurus

this is also affected by the solar energy – currently Scorpio

and the moon which as I am writing this is in Gemini.

We have just been through Taurus full moon and in that energy for a couple of days which is my moon so lots for me to notice

this is a great way to raise our awareness and notice how we are puppets in many senses energetically

The cosmos pulls on our energetic strings and we dance to the rhythmn

The more ego shadow energy we are still carrying and the more we are pushed and pulled at the Universal God and Goddess whim

The more we let go of old stuff and the more we become the shaman who has recapitulated and become a clear channel

When we do this we free ourself from limitations and we can move outside the box of our own egoic minds making.

We become free from the Devil card in tarot.

Back to the synchronicities…..

I don’t normally do gore fest and so I found myself being surprised that I chose to watch the new film Cabin in the woods….

It was our Halloween viewing last night

My partner and son wanted James Bond at the pics and the universe said no…..going later when universe said yes

Getting used to that position and learning to go with it and trusting that there is a message in there

and it may not be what my mind and ego thinks it is…..

usually it is way outside of my mind’s experience

because I am being guided by my higher self/God and Goddess and whatever that heart wisdom other me really is 🙂

Prior to the film we were channel flicking and saw Star Trek the original which is what I grew up with as a child

It was a bizarre episode where the crew had been captured by aliens and forced to act out as puppets

If you want to watch the film Cabin in the Woods I won’t go into any more detail except to say that most of it I watched behind a cushion

the horror is horrific and the blood is plentiful

it is a very visceral film

the theme is the same as many current films on offer…. which is no surprise as this is synchronicity at work and why we often have virtual identical films being released

Wrath of the Titans is another which has a slightly different angle

It is all about our shadow self being seen

and allowed to let rip

and released

our inner demons transformed

as we become spiritual adults and let go of fearing the gods

because we are them…..

Neo in The Matrix reveals the basic metaphor for where we all are on the planet right now.

We are all players in a game.

The question is:

Do you want to be a player or do you want to be played?

I suggest we are all in the process of both as we move beyond duality.

We are all teachers and students….

there is no right and wrong

It simply is what it is

Are we ready to look at who we are and what our destiny is ?

Do we stand for creating our destiny and are prepared to do what that demands from us

and that is going to mean going into the void……

Or are we going to simply push our childish will all the time and keep repeating old old patterns

and in doing so keep our world in old old patterns.

The universe can only bring us what we have ordered by way of our beliefs remember

When we are grounded, in our body and balanced in our masculine and feminine we give and receive

We learn to be the Chariot in Tarot

we see the terrain and the landscape and we are discerning with our choices

we let go of charging around like a bull in a china shop and we realise that

it’s all about us

all we are actually here to do is our own Sacred Journey

and in the doing of it we transform ourselves

and in the doing of it our ripple goes out in the cosmic pool

our Sacred Journey isn’t an ego trip that needs measuring or highlighting in neon lights

often it will take us to places of great fear and humilty

desperation and humbleness

loneliness and sadness

and to transform these shadows we feel the feelings and we let go of them

this isn’t a head trip……although the mind is involved….

it isn’t leading the way

the soul navigates and to do this we have to be able to receive and be open to that process

It can be very tricky to know when to act and when to let go

We have our spirit as a satnav

and it uses our body as a philosopher’s stone

on track we are feeling good and our chi is flowing

off track we don’t feel good and something is out of alignment

the more we ignore the body and the more our chi stops flowing

Sometimes we go into the cabin in the woods for a few weeks

months

years

sometimes we don’t come out

The key to being a player is working with awareness of ourselves and what our patterns are

this is where the mastery path lies…..

See who we are and where we have been

where we are now……

where are we headed given the evidence of our patterns?

If we do the same  banana cake recipe we get the same banana sponge

we do not get a sticky toffee pudding 🙂

With the Mayan wavespell we get a wonderful opportunity to check out our law of attraction and see what shows up

We each have a Mayan Sign and we have four building blocks of energy that come in  yearly cycles.

Just connected to this at my last workshop of the Scorpio Transformation.

My building blocks are Red Earth, White Wind, Blue Hand and Yellow Human.

When we look back at when they were together with the numbers they were we see a pattern and that can help explain all that has happened in our lifetime.

When we look at our family pattern we can see how that has all been interconnected.

This was a huge wow moment for me.

If you want to know yours message me.

I have a wait list at the moment so please be patient….

it will arrive for you at exactly the right cosmic time…..

I need your date, time, place of birth and I will send you this info.

It’s all free and thank you in advance because simply by connecting to me you are helping me so very much on my path

and that is priceless for me

and for our universal emotional evolution.

There is so much to share…

and

being in balance.

Today in my Tai Chi class – or taiji or wuji

Yuri explained how the term of Tai Chi is often lost in translation into English.

A summary of this is that essentially this is all about many energies coming together and the combination of masculine and feminine energy as shown in the yin and yang symbols.

We all have different places on our path and we are all here to create a different outcome so each of us sees the energy and experiences it differently.

We are all teachers and students and the more we are open to sharing ourselves and our experiences and the more we can all learn

this is the nature of circles.

Rob led the warm up today and it was perfectly in alignment with the Red Magnetic Earth Mayan energy of today.

In synch without conscious awareness.

We are always held.

Moving the energy felt great.

I noticed that when I used to do Tai Chi I was warming up in a circle holding hands and I could stand on one leg easier

Today I did it on my own and struggled to stay balanced

and so that was my information for today

I noticed where my energy flowed and where it didn’t….

and now I have the mind awareness of that.

I have the body well-being of being in my body and gently moving it

and I have the magical wonder of my spirit guiding me in this wonderful planet we live in.

I know when I am in the flow as I experience so much joy and wonder.

I am sharing this video today as I got a huge aha from it so thank you to it’s maker

Ahmed Hassan

He has been sharing some wonderful insights on facebook.

I do reflexology and energy work with my hands and when I watched this is took me to a new level of awareness around the solar plexus point in the hand.

It is very simple and I love that.

Magic.

We are now in a Mayan expansion cycle whilst in a waning moon and waning time of the year

so my offering on this is

expand on our letting go of our will to be in alignment with divine will

as we let go of our needs we open our heart to new learning

and we create deep earthly connection so that our new seed intentions will get an energetic boost from a place of authenticity in Spring

Genuine energetic new beginnings

If you want to let go of your ego I use Emotional Freedom Technique.

It’s an amazing way to let go of old emotional goo and beliefs that restricts our navigation and allowing ourselves to receive.

www.barefootholistics.co.uk

Yellow Seed Wavespell ~ Scorpio black hole gateway

Just got back to the UK and realigning myself with the Glastonbury energy bubble and the contrasting grey dynamic to the superheat of Greece where I have been for the past two weeks.

This wavespell is so powerful ~ how is it affecting you?

I am writing this in Aquarius moon time at waxing moon so bear with me this is a biggie blog

Lots of links to click on here if you choose and gratitude to all the people who have created these wonderful resources I am sharing with you.

There are ten galactic portal days helping us in our transformational busting out of our cocoon time.

Are you going with the flow of it or resisting all that it is bringing?

It is an energy gateway taking us into another seemingly upside down reality if we allow it

rather like Alice through the looking glass we can experience a whole new world if we allow it to happen

Our ego may be putting up a fight right now to keep things as they are and continue with the status quo it knows

Be assured that what we resist persists so …

when we succumb

is the only real choice we have.

A few days ago I got the name Cassiopeia and as always it was out of the blue

this is how I connect with my higher self guidance

I do not know what it is about and have learned to wait and see as all will be revealed……

My conscious mind told me to do this yesterday and practicals came first so I found myself doing it today

which of course is the perfect timing……. and how Cassiopeia fits in

my conscious mind and ego often resists this process and as I let go of my conditioning I learn to allow it more and more

I recognise my own patterns of when I am in my ego space of risk assessing and acting from fear energies and beliefs

and when I am allowing myself to trust and let go of my mind being the leading role of my life production.

Being comfortable with the uncomfortable and allowing our process of not knowing is the key

Being balanced in our masculine and feminine energy within which is when we become true masters of our will and our ego transforms to become our friend rather than our inner critic

Today is day five of the Yellow Seed Wavespell and Yellow Overtone Star

Just been on a magic cookie trail of discovery for my blog and am loving the co creation of sharing this with you all

My partner David has an application on his phone which shows the constellation Cassiopeia directly above where I am sitting writing this blog 🙂

There is too much to mention on the synchronicity of the threads of the cookie trail which connects our trip to Kefalonia so here is a short version:

  • Ithaca is the island facing and is believed to be connected to Odysseus and Homer‘s writings of the epic cycle ~

The bigger picture cycle all about the sacred journey and a very early version of the hero/heroines journey

and the fool’s journey in tarot.

  • There are five stars in the constellation
  • One of the main topics of conversation with our children was about the tortoises on the island (we kept looking and didn’t see any) and this is also mentioned in the Chinese astrology link to this constellation
  • I have always had a connection to Greece and Homer – I remember playing the game of charades in the 80’s and using The Iliad as one of my charades even though I have never read any of his work and it was so out of keeping with what I was doing at the time – great for being difficult to guess 🙂 When we look back with awareness we can see where we have always been connected and following our path even though we may not have been consciously aware of it.
  • The metaphor is there in the story if we choose to see it about moving into this space of letting go of our ego

My gift is seeing patterns and helping others see theirs so we can make different choices instead of simply creating more of the same pattern

I am therefore a seer and more and more as I have cleared off my past ego emotional patterns I can connect to inspiration rather than ego led repeating history

My belief around this is that we each come into the world for a soul journey adventure and we have a starcode which is our astrological sign.

So we are in an amazing Mayan wavespell which is all about removing the barriers we have learned to create in childhood so we can be the true starseed that we are.

The Mayan wavespell is a wonderful tool for seeing the bigger picture and brings so much information together.

The key to seeing and being a clear seer is availing ourselves of the information about our pattern and the pattern of the universe so we can go with the flow

and

create consciously

We become very aware of our map of the world ~ which is what we have learned in our life so far based on our experience

We can also be aware that the map is not the territory

and so we have created our map

and so we can uncreate it and redraw it

we are the god and goddess energy this isn’t outside of us

however most of us are being reactive rather than proactive and still living our day to day life using maps we created in early childhood

most of us believe other people have the power

most of us believe we are seperate from our source energy

and we are fragmented both in our thoughts and our energy

when we work holistically we see everything is connected

and we start bringing the fractures back to centre

we heal our core

we focus on ourselves

we let go of feeling seperate

we can only do this from the inside out

all of the health dynamic of the body creates change

most people focus on trying to heal through this method as seperate from mind and spirit and this is

a seperation pattern

The starting point is to remember

that the universe is experiential

it brings us our map beliefs

it can only bring us that

so here is where the central point is

we have a starting point on our journey

this is today

this is now

where are we?

If we do not look where we are

If we do not love and accept where we are

then we cannot go anywhere else……

Many people are simply repeating their pattern they learned to keep themselves safe and creating a drama out of it

so drama it is

It really is that simple

are we being the star that we are?

Are we aware that we are acting out

using avoidance strategies for what is?

Controlling

blocking receiving?

Manipulating?

If we want to live a sacred life that is full of joy and harmony

we have to be it and tame our wild child

the rebel that strikes out to be free blaming others when in reality it is only ourselves that create emotional binding

the rebel without true cause

that is the child seeking to balance the people pleasing mask

If we do not evolve then neither will our circle of influence.

Most people are still repeating the ways of relating that they were taught as a child

that caused alot of emotional pain

and yet aren’t ready to create change by taking the steps required to end that scenario

it is the only way……

To take responsibility ourselves.

Today is the number five and the fifth element which is a truly magical number

it can mean a struggle

depending where we are on our path.

When we become very aware of our area of hurt we become able to transcend and transform.

This is what Scorpio energy is all about.

As we come into November we are at a time of fire transformation with bonfire night and an approaching solar eclipse on November 13 there is so much happening especially for Taurus, Leo, and Scorpio

This is significantly marked in the Mayan wavespell on November 14 of the start of the White Dog Wavespell which is all about how we live from a space of unconditional love rather than drama

Often we are looking for meaning outside of ourselves instead of being the star of our show

A Mercury Retrograde thrown in for good measure starting November 07 until 26

in my past this has always been a challenging time where I have faced adversaries who have pushed my buttons

as a reforming people pleaser I have struggled to be in the space of meeting the challenge

sometimes we need to rant too simply to let go of avoiding being unpleasing

however we create an energetic output with that

and this adds to the collective rant

so being mindful that this is always resistance to what is

the higher self has no need to rant

it is always ego based

and resistance to what is

 I found a new way of working for me that I love to share ~ using emotional freedom technique.

Feeling the trigger and then going back to times in the past when the resistance was created

letting it go

speaking from a clearer emotional and energetic space

Using this strategy allows us to integrate our past and heal our inner child

We are now in Self-Existing Moon in the Mayan 13 moons and now is the time of building that structure of the heart

firm foundations

being disciplined from love instead of fear

We are still in the new moon energy founded in Libra and waxing energy growing until Monday’s full moon in Taurus which is my moon sign.

Scorpio is the holy trinity

It is beneficial to know where we have Scorpio presenting in our chart to work with this awareness

The Snake of being in the skin we are in ~ we just visited that space with the Red Serpent Wavespell which was all about our addictions and how we use them to wear a mask and get our fix instead of walking our talk

The Phoenix is the bird that is created in the transformational fire of death of the old self so the free bird can fly

The Eagle is the visionary that flies high above the world and seeing the bigger picture of our life path rather than our ego fear

These are the last few days of the time of death and transformation in the blue energy of the Mayan wavespell and then we go into yellow which is power and expansion of  everything that has gone before

power from being true unto ourselves and the rich rewards that come

or power from being our ego selves which will bring big awakening on what we attract back

because the universal balancing energy will be our karma as we reap what we sow

we can run but we cannot hide from our shadow

This weekend I am creating a trilogy of workshops in Glastonbury at The Heart Centre

they are also available online so you can take part wherever you are in the world.

Places are limited due to space of the room and the online server so please reserve if it feels timely for you

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Here are some great resources I have loved exploring and thank you to those who shared them.

Creating sacred structures with sound healing:

Transportals

Tom’s fab astrology bigger picture weekly report which is so apt as always 🙂

Love to you all amazing souls

Wishing you joy and abundant living wherever you are

unleash your dream and be the brightest supernova that deep down you know you are

Day nine and completion of the mirror wave

How are you feeling today as you sit back and survey the landscape and your creativity?

What amazing things have happened to your inner slides ?

Has your movie channel changed?

Many people have been emotionally white water rafting during this wave

and I have been a busy bee inspired by the meeting of minds

and the sharing of souls

I love my life and am so honoured to be living it

I am feeling tired and depleted today

it’s been quite a journey this year and the waves keep coming

I love the exhilaration change brings

some quiet time would be nice….

no chance of that when you live on ley lines…..

mission goes on

and on…..

I have met lots of people over the last week

some from my old hunting grounds in the North

Liz Green and I sat down in the Abbey together on magical Saturday

and shared some vibes

It was a revelation for us both and we laughed at the similarities of our shared journey

often people don’t “get” us as we have Aquarian energy

and see the bigger picture

and people think we are aliens….

that has been tough at times

and as we say in the North…..

the making of us.

Liz has been talking her talk and walking her walk on many a media

and wondering how she is being received

in Wakefield it can be tricky to have the courage to talk about vibrations and the like

and I admire her tenacity to speak her truth no matter how it is received

when you feel it in your heart

you know you would rather die than go back to the old ways of hiding your light

to fit in with the crowd

Often we can feel disheartened and doubt ourselves

and then we remember

when new paradigms are being created

wayshowers have to blaze a trail

someone has to go first

without a map

set sail and chart a course

so that others will follow

spiritual entrepeneurs

if no one ever says the new language

how do we ever have a conversation

we get stuck telling the same old story

someone has to start the song

in the brain new neural pathways are created

new behaviour

new models for living

and now is the time to start singing a different tune

so everyone out there who is aching to come out

about all the exciting magical stuff that is heart knowingness

speak up 🙂

It is White Solar Worldbridger and time to let go and go with the flow

bringing together the nine pointed star and mind, body and spirit

Nine in tarot asks us how we have completed

have we become masters of our art yet?

Nine is the shape of the labyrinth

we have gone in and around and now can we see what has come as a result of taking this journey?

Tomorrow will be the manifestation of what has come in the nine days

We are in for some more big picture self-examination as our planetary giants take us on a tour back to the year 2000.

This is Jupiter who is going retro through Gemini on the 4th of October – Red Crystal Moon in this wavespell.

Add on to this Saturn into Scorpio on the 6th and we are going to revisit an old cycle.

This is a new wavespell ~ Blue Monkey which is all about our divine child.

Jupiter governs the throat chakra and Saturn the base chakra….

so we have an exciting little trip down memory lane

Jupiter is all about expansion and Gemini in this instance relationships, with our higher selves and how we are living our sacred truth

or speaking in tongues….

any structures in our connection to our tribes ~ maybe birth families (and for me the thirties time of Saturn Return)

that were formed or had issues in the later part of 2000

are coming back so we can have another look

and so people from our past or archetypes who match them…

as we have unfinished energetic business to complete…

will be arriving soon.

My biggest meltdown in relationships happened in this period

and back then it was a tough road

and I survived and learned alot

and we are still together

having had alot to look at on the way

and to repattern and let go of our past

It was when I was given my first copy of Louise Hay “You can heal your life”

and wow how far have I come since that day in changing how I see the world

I have just done Louise Hay’s Mayan sign and she is a Blue Galactic Night born on a GAP day 🙂

Born in October….

synchronicity

Thank you Louise Hay your paradigm shift work changed my life

My ego struggled with it

my heart knew it to be true

Big skins started shedding when I opened that first page……

not long after I passed a gallstone

and I have repeated that in Glastonbury in 2010

crawling around in agony

my bitterness and bile being blasted out….

not a pleasant experience

I would rather use EFT and tap to let go instead

before I reach a critical point.

So brace yourselves for another layer as the cosmic soup is ready for another stir

and our opportunity is ripe for a de-clutter of the murky depths of

what lies beneath

at the waning time of the moon

If you want to let go of that old way of being for good contact me and we can skype

the more we can be proactive now and the easier the rest of the year will be

so

seize our chance while the going’s good

and the emotional evolution hasn’t got us locked in a vice

of our own making

we need to learn to have regular letting go

instead of leaving things until critical mass forces us to look

it can be tricky to negotiate with the fight or flight

and sometimes we have to sneak under the radar

with gentle hands

and lots of lavender lip balm

Lots of resources for you on my website just added.

Remember the only way to journey is to….

move

if you are still sitting in the same circle of influence as this time last year

with the same familiar faces

trotting out the same stories

face the fact

you are stuck

and it’s time to do some inner energy rewiring

before the cicuits blow

there is a storm on it’s way

and it’s bringing our future

by letting go of our past

cracking open the shells

to let in the light

If you are experiencing synchronicities

you are on the path to the stars

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