How is your star wavespell unfolding?
What are you seeing today in your energetic circle?
Today we are in day four of this energetic pathway with each step taking us on a journey of evolution 🙂
With every passing month of doing this Mayan wavespell calendar experientially I am seeing the world through different eyes
and feeling very differently too.
I intended to create this post earlier in the wavespell however the more I go with the flow
and the more I find energetically I cannot “make it fit” my ego timescale or the artificial ego box we have created generally in society
in our western world
which is so out of alignment with the true nature of our cyclical universe.
This way of being is coming in for everyone more and more and the sooner we adjust to it and accept it
the easier the transition becomes
the more magical too.
The three previous days are on my facebook page
The number four represents the square and a platform to build the rest of the wave.
Four is a square or a rectangle and in astrological terms this is a powerful shape that can box us in, ground us and/ or be a space to liberate us
our choice 🙂
as the next step is five
and five can bring mastery
depending on where we are on our path and our cycle.
In our 1’s we come into the world in form and essentially we move from dependent to individual
and form our ego
this continues into our 2’s and at some point some of us learn through relationships
into 3’s decade and the Saturn return time of our karma patterns seeing
how when we do this….
we create that
and our mind puts meaning onto it and each mind has it’s own ideas and perceptions.
Although our body matures
parts of our mind remain behind ready to develop at future points
of crossroads not yet seen
and yet in part written in our destiny
a pre-planned route determined by our sacred thread
This is as it is meant to be …..our soul journey unfolding
in alignment with all that is.
Today the Mayan sign is Blue Self-Existing Monkey
are we playful, open and vulnerable
the clown and a cheeky monkey?
Bringing genuine heartfelt intimacy
maybe a cruel trickster?
maybe we play the role of a clown as a defence mechanism?
Whatever our energetic intention this is always communicated and received
no matter what words are coming out of our mouths.
As this star wavespell is in the waning moon
it is a time of letting go of what is shielding our heart star quality
in contrast to the ego star of the stage
searching for external validation and affirmation.
As we see through the lives of the brave souls who seek the dizzy heights of stardom and open themselves to scrutiny
of the media
they show us all through heart rending performance
they bare their souls seeking love and approval
and there is always a childhood story that sparks this trail of ego journey.
the Joker before his tragic death
an amazing gifted man who seemingly felt unloved.
So much talent and torment
The key to this is the understanding that no matter how many outside adornments, trappings, awards and achievements we create
if we haven’t let go of the past wounds of childhood inside
we still feel the same
and no amount of external stuff can fill the void.
In this Blue Storm year we are reminded that whatever we choose as our methodology to fill the gap
when we do not have this filler
the void is revealed
and the feelings that go with it emerge
the ego personality always seeks new ever increasing levels of satisfaction
and as we age
everything starts to feel the pull
the more baggage we have
the more work it takes to support it
the more props and stage show
the more roadies to haul it
the more groupies to bring the thrills
What if we could be free to be simply us?
Stripped bare and loved for our true selves?
We are of course…… only our ego doesn’t know that…..
This is the journey.
My biggest learning came through doing my own journey with NLP about my patterns.
Once I created the intention to see them they all started to pop out everywhere with ahas
If you are ready to see yours simply send out that communication
and watch your energy matrix be revealed at the perfect time
just like Neo in The Matrix
My next big reveal was through astrology and seeing my starcode
at the same time the Mayan calendar showed up and took my awareness to a whole new level.
All this wonderful stuff is there for all of us
we are all equal under the sun 🙂
This week I travelled back to my roots and went up North to Marsden where I lived for ten years until October 2011.
I met up with friends and family and revisited past places and events physically and energetically.
The synchronicities were great and I got to meet and hear messages that were perfect for me.
One of the most major shifts doing my NLP training was my project given to me by my teacher.
It ran alongside my training and was to be performed at the last weekend.
It was clowning and filled me with fear as I didn’t like clowns 🙂
I didn’t know anything of what was involved
and it turned out to be one of the greatest gifts I have ever received
for heart opening
In a nutshell it is about celebrating our shadow
and allowing it
we all have a clown that we usually try to hide
because other people don’t find it acceptable
and so we learn to find that unacceptable in ourselves
when we are bored
make a mistake
angry or depressed
when we are clowning it’s allowed and honoured
being in a group of people who are opening and revealing this aspect is truly wonderful
and feels like falling in love
Most of the people I met shared this with me and I hadn’t consciously connected to that.
Here is the Thoth card I got:
Amazing what comes from the void 🙂
To revisit this I went to Mars……den
Mars energy is the North
strong masculine energy
It feels literally like travelling to another world
because it is vibrationally.
It’s in a valley and protected by hills
and they also limit the light
Where I live now in Glastonbury is very feminine energy and flat and open
the contrast was striking
Each place has it’s own sacred geometry to be with
This is on one level what jet lag is…..
moving from different energetic zones with their own love language
As in the matrix we have a shared playground to play in
we have our own code and sometimes we find ourselves unable to bond with others
and that is ok because it is the path
the more we become accustomed to seeing, hearing, feeling that
and the easier we flow without resistance to our next playing place.
The mastery is releasing our tags so we fly free in all space
as we are one with the Tao
limitless and unbounded
and that may take many journeys 🙂
Seeing the signs repeated
taking the time to notice
as we reveal the sacred in us and honour it
we see it everywhere.
I went back to some big crossroads in my past and one of them was a house.
I felt at peace with it.
I took a photo of a metal support that runs through the house and has a star on each side
this star has sixteen points
Ishtar’s gate and was called Fallbottom Cottage
This house experience was my journey into my underworld
and the unravelling of my ego
I met all my demons and saw all my ego beliefs revealed
and as I journeyed through them
although it felt very painful
it was the gateway to somewhere else
an opportunity to shed some skins and be reborn
revealing what lies beneath.
At these times we see what is important to us and how our choices have led us to this place.
If we take responsibilities for our actions instead of blaming others
we can integrate those child parts of ourselves that have stayed frozen in time.
To see ourselves clearly it is often easier simply to see the pattern
as our ego is designed to protect itself
If we choose avoidance patterns
what are we avoiding?
If we choose distraction patterns
what are we distracting ourselves from?
If we are seeking oblivion
then if we choose we can look at the hurt place instead
because we always come full circle.
Do we choose to learn and spiritually grow into maturity
or stay a sulky scared child?
With every cycle the energy expands
The ego race is doomed to failure by it’s very nature….
Lilith in 2007 was a star player in mine
there is always someone richer, more beautiful, faster, stronger
has a bigger gun 🙂
The ego path has a shelf life and an expiry date
the soul path every lasting
every choice is perfect
each gesture we make shapes the world
Do we choose to open and be vulnerable and celebrate our shadow
so our child can be free
or remain a prisoner of the mask
we the Mona Lisa smile?
Love to you today and our wonderful innocence.
Doing what we love is the key to heaven on earth.
It’s time to feel our way and allow our pure heart path to be revealed
anything that isn’t that beauty way is now showing up to be released.
If you would like to feedback about your path please do.
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