New Story

leaf lanternToday is the last day of 2012 

I have spent the last few days connecting to the past and feeling my energetic story.

Part of this has involved integrating my work and photos which have been on different devices using different formats.

When we are experiencing transition and change this is often the way to notice it…..

by looking how what we are doing on the outside is reflecting our inner world.

We can see our inner mechanisms at work and this is a key part of our awakening process.

I have made a shift to using a Mac over the past couple of years due to my Son’s influence and how it offers such a different format to windows

I love the beauty of it.

In this simple journey I see how our collective ego pattern has created so many different systems that vie for attention and support

and how many systems are incompatible

and so a choice is often required……

we cannot choose all and oneness in our ego world

and it may take a while to integrate and for the bigger picture to become simpler

as we are in the Aquarian age where part of this transition is to become independent and celebrate our uniqueness

and to co create in this phase is tricky……

We are all involved in the bigger wheel and all on a different cog and so one size does not fit all.

There are many paradoxes on this path

the clear way for each of us is to go within

and for many initiates this step is the hardest of all because it flies in the face of all our society conditioning.

Many people have never learned how to listen to their own voice or allow their own innate wisdom

gut instinct

and

it is always there to be accessed……

when we are ready to own our power and act on it.

Today in the Mayan wavespell we are Red Solar Earth on the ninth day of the Red Moon 13 day spiral.

Today we see in the number nine energy , how the past eight days complete.

What insights have we learned over the last nine days about who we really are ?

Just to remind you if you are following the blogs …..

We are in the seventh year of the Red Moon cycle on our planet

this Red Moon archetype is all about the return of the sacred feminine

through each one of us on our world

This is the most important aspect 🙂

The change comes as we change

The world that is created through us as a reflection of our beliefs ….

a holograph

a playground constructed for our soul evolution

created by us for us

to go through ever evolving cycles

so that we can know ourselves

by experiencing lots of different perceptions

through the being of them

We are now at a very exciting time of the turning point in our tipping point

where we are now allowing the true nature of our amazingness to be experienced

by all

who dare to dream

and let go of living from the limitation of our ego selves

by transforming our darkness into light.

On this journey many of us have been plunged into the void in order to make the transition

we have to let go of the circle that we were born into

and all the wounding involved in that place

where we learned to believe we weren’t loved by teachers who believed the same

this is the karma wheel of beliefs creating our reality

This is the initiate path of the ego

and naturally the ego does not choose what it sees as it’s own demise……

Most people are dragging their heels on the slippery slopes of the descent into what we call Hades

and because our ego doesn’t take responsibility for anything at this stage

because that would mean feeling strong emotions….

it loves to pass the parcel and use the blame game

scapegoats

and deflections.

Thing is if we don’t go and experience our own personal version of hell willingly

and then let go of it

seeing it for what it truly is

a place of misunderstandings and acting out from a place of hurting…..

We are creating it over and over every day until we do…..

In our past generations of humanity this has been very literal and visceral

and sadly for many on our planet this is still true.

Only we can change that reality by changing our inner slides.

What we see on our world stage is the very old performance of avoidance.

It’s easy to recognise in the form of people creating patterns of getting their emotional needs met through

mood altering stuff

external definition through stuff

focusing on the unconscious rather than the conscious

dishonesty

hypocrisy

being around people we dislike……..

what would happen if we didn’t ?

doing jobs we find disheartening………

Is it possible that we could let go of believing that we have to earn x to support this false edifice of y?

using lots of props to support this woeful artifice

wanting something on the outside that doesn’t match on the inside

manifesting through manipulation and energy structures that are not love structures

and so like most illusions

it is simply a matter of time before the created artifice disappears in a puff of green smoke….

beings full of fear

because of the shadow energy body we are carrying around that is dragging us down

There have been lots of films on TV over Christmas to illustrate this

and unless we are cut off from the universe in a remote backspace like the moon……

we are very aware of all the myths and archetypal stories that are interwoven everywhere for our guidance in case we are so unconscious

that we have become a zombie 🙂

I watched a film last night called Moon which illustrates the metaphor of this calling…..

The essence of this film is that mankind has chosen to farm the moon for it’s power supply.

The moon in esoteric terms is our feminine energy and our shadow selves.

The more we work to know our shadow selves and transform this energy

the more grounded and powerful we become

as we know ourselves and accept ourselves

the more magical gifts are revealed

and no one has the ability to have any power over us

as is shown in our myths such as Snow White who is essentially our pure sacred feminine

compared to our narcissistic ego personality wounds of the Snow Queen

this is currently playing out on Channel 5 in the UK in a drama series

Once Upon a time

Great heart stories every day through modern fairytale

In 2013 I am focusing on creating and sharing workshops that empower people to work with this energy in a practical way.

If you feel moon awareness may be of interest to you please message me.

Wherever we are and whatever we are doing

we are always called at the perfect time

and if we choose to ignore the calling then the message simply gets louder

Before we came in we committed to doing this journey

and we have been part of the bigger story many times

when we remember who we truly are and what magic we possess

we become the thriver rather than the survivor

Why would we want to accept this illusion that our ego driven society purveys?

That we live a life of limitation and are unable to create our dream ?

That the dream is as empty as material goods?

They have no ability to generate love so why is the majority of our planet still intent in going down the pursuit of happiness externally?

Our major industries show where our energetic focus and beliefs lie

Pharmaceuticals and War

Drugs to mask the symptoms of how we are living out of alignment with who we truly are

Weapons to destroy a perceived threat of the other

a mad world that exist because our ego believes it needs to on a deep level

Time to create a different story instead?

The essence of the transition is to keep what is coming from love and let go of what is sponsored by fear

and take the small steps

in tandem with our universal energy wheel

The key focus of the initiate energy is to work from a powerful space of intention

being mindful and focused

on what we choose to create

and essentially by accepting what is our true story now

when we get squeezed by the darkness patterns

what pops out?

Is it love and light?

Most people wear a mask to cover up their true nature

and we only show the parts of us we have learned are loveable

based on what we were educated and conditioned to do as a child

it is essential that we unlearn this to create our future of being authentic and having honest relationships

Imagine a future where we can truly be us and how good that feels?

Having let go of all our inner child ego hurt from the past

we are no longer needing to attract in old matching patterns from the past so we can heal them

Instead we can feel good about who we are

feel confident and have good self-esteem

we bounce back at any of life’s challenges

and we don’t take things personally because there is no inner shadow energy feeling hurt to be triggered

We don’t create more of the same old same

We don’t need to blame anyone and we don’t need an ego drama fix

We have a love of life because we are engaged in what we chose to come and create

We don’t feel angry because we understand that people are in a different space…

and that doesn’t mean we become a doormat or passive

We are empowered

We are strong

because we are integrated and light within

The outside show is seen truly as it is

an artifice of our choosing

We can create our dream way of living in a sustainable way that doesn’t compromise anyone else

and in this process our planet isn’t compromised either

When we all meet our emotional needs from the inside we let go of competition and needing stuff in an unsupported way

Making the transition is tricky as we change our patterns

part of that process is resistance from others that reflect the parts of us seeking transition

and so this route requires persistence, trust and dedication.

This journey is open to all who are willing to do what it takes

and sometimes this can be daunting and demanding

so not for the faint hearted

only those with courage and determination will meet the challenge and it is so worth it.

In the traditional calendar we are facing the end of 2012

in the universal cycle we are at midpoint in winter in the northern hemisphere.

The Mayan wavespell year begins July 26th so again we are at midpoint

and over the past months since October Scorpio gateway

we have been working with the darkness and shadow

This Blue Storm Year is midway.

It is a number seven year and so we have reached the top of the pyramid in the thirteen year cycle

We are experiencing everything that needs to die so we can be reborn

We may have had a tough year

of dissolution

and if we embrace this we move onto a new cycle

if we resist …..

it continues

the way is through

this is the alchemical transformation

the liquifying process that changes the caterpillar to butterfly

Many people have left the planet this year and in their passing we have learned much

Everything happens for a reason

It may not be revealed at the time and maybe never to us in this lifetime

I have noticed more and more how I am aware of how I can only relate to people because of their expectations and beliefs

and this can also trigger emotion

especially frustration 🙂

Our ego can be so limiting at times

as on one level it determines how we interact with this interface of life

however the more we become aware

the more we heal and let go

and the more freedom we have to go to new places and experience new things

when we are starting out in life without prior experience of what we call failure

then we take on great challenges from the naiveté of youth

and it is possible to revisit that energy without the lack of wisdom and without fear

if we are willing to face our shadow

this is the gift of now.

The universe always matches us if only we are willing to look at that match incarnate eye to eye.

On July 26 2013 we enter Yellow Galactic Seed year on our planet

The magical year of integrity through integration.

A number eight year and the image says it all

If we are willing to let go of our past and all that hasn’t served us

the time we spend now preparing that inner space

will reap rich rewards

we will match the universal bigger picture

Most generally hype about this Mayan calendar has come from the ego pattern focus

of misdirection and fear……

the true gift is the divinity code

that is open to all

who dare to unlock their own personal Pandora’s Box

and take a good look at what is inside.

It is the gift of synchronising with all that is.

This is the inspiration for workshops I am creating now.

At the start of 2012 I did not have this awareness and this has been an amazing year for me connecting to this.

I had to trust in the process and face my fear in doing so.

During Christmas my family and I reconnected to Tomb Raider with Lara Croft  and have had fun exploring the virtual world of ancient civilisations.

This has been such a fun teaching tool for me

There is still the most emphasis on the ego world of violence and arousal of this part of us as a key part of the gaming process

over time as we change

this will change

part of our life challenge is facing adversarial archetypes to overcome our fear

and as we do this on the inside and balance ourselves then extreme violence will no longer be necessary

and it may take a while…..

Are we ready to have fun?

Are we ready to do what we love no matter what it takes?

Are we ready to make friends with our ego and open our heart to what wants to live in us?

My intention is to have a magical year and trust in my divine self more and more.

I am intending to be in some wonderful sacred spaces

co creating with others who are choosing to live sacred lives

in reality

by being the change

Our lives here are fleeting and short in this form

when we honour who we really are and treat ourselves accordingly

with reverence and respect

our lives have meaning and true worth

we allow our magnificent creativity to be unleashed

I had a dream to be in Kephalonia in 2012 running a retreat.

That didn’t work out as I saw it originally.

Instead I was there with my family having a retreat for myself.

This was one of the major highlights of my year

and allowed me to be clear of the powerful Glastonbury bubble that can often cloud our vision

as our ego looms large when we are in it 🙂

I remembered and reconnected to the wonderful feminine healing energy of Greece

which has always been such a high energy heart space for me

and where I intend to create retreats for others with me doing what we love.

Simply being there is so uplifting in this natural beauty space.

Check out my photos.

If you feel you are drawn to a heart opening retreat in Kephalonia please message me.

This is another aspect I have integrated this year.

I had an intellectual knowing of this and now I really feel it.

Our journey is a process and we follow a certain path that is predetermined in many respects by our energetic alignment at birth.

Astrology is the language of consciousness.

This Starcode and Mayan sign is our sacred geometry and is what guides us to experience a certain flavour of the universal tapestry

there are many paths we can take within this framework

and

we have a star coded mission that will always assert itself

with or without our ego consent and co-operation.

If you want to know more about this please message me with your time,date and place of birth and I will send you the information.

If you already have this and would like to know more….

what year you are on in your thirteen year cycle and how to work with this with awareness…..

please message me

As I co create with everyone I learn and evolve and I am so grateful for living this life in this way.

Love to everyone who has been with me so far and I look forward to our meetings and connecting in the coming months.

I am planning an event in my home village at Lammas in August 2013 which will be focusing on sending out our Yellow Seed Intentions to the universe.

I would love to co create this with other people offering heart opening workshops so please get in touch if you feel this calls to you.

It is in the Gemini and Taurus of the Glastonbury Zodiac

So we have all the tools we need and all the raw material within us to weave the magic……

Are we sitting comfortably?

Then let’s begin….

What is possible for us now?

Love to you all and our wonderful potentiality.

I was given a gift by a friend in Glastonbury and I have recently started reading it….

It is wonderful and I would love to share it with you if you haven’t yet seen it.

Ramtha The White Book

I am simply recommending the wisdom in the words in the book alone

and not the wider scope of anything connected beyond that of which I have no personal experience

What we believe we conceive.

Here is a fab video in a great series of sharing the mystery teachings.

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Moon awakening

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Today is the start of a new thirteen day Mayan wavespell that connects us to the essence of the thirteen year cycle our planet is experiencing.

We are in Red Magnetic Moon

This started on July 26 2006 and when you add 2006 you get 8 which is the number of integrity and the picture of the hourglass nebula which chose me for today’s blog.

I followed the cosmic cookie trail and this beauty is what showed up for me.

This wavespell we are embarking on today takes us through a spiral of thirteen steps to reconnect us to our sacred feminine energy and awareness.

Remembering who we are and why we came here at this time to be a cog in a wheel of transition and the cosmic hourglass literally being turned on it’s head…….

we are now going in a different direction and turning around from our patriarchal path having learned so much along the way 🙂

I have so much to share over my journey in the last few days

and yet today as I am in my balsamic energy zone

I do not have the resources to beam it all out.

When I do I will 🙂

Newsletter coming soon.

Now is the time for me to take it easy and go within to clear and prepare for the sharing ahead.

The light is returning for all of us as we are at the pinnacle of this pyramid.

We are in number seven year

blue resonant storm

and the year of the mystic within us

Now is the time of the disciple

a time to be disciplined and discerning about our what we see in our circle now

who we are

how we have created this nest of our own making

and a time to sit with that

and how we truly feel about it

When we are prepared to be real about our deal we get to choose

when we are in denial the default setting is more of that illusion and fantasy because this is the true meaning of karma

In this time of raising consciousness and allowing more light

It is time to focus on the conscious

being present

and letting go of the spin doctors

all that energy brings is dizziness and vertigo

because we are out of balance.

The more clearly we see our soul now

the more we love and accept ourselves

and in this process is our liberation

the ego loves instantaneous glittery sparkle

and fake adornment

it loves Christmas for the shining facade of a paid for paradise

We cannot buy our stairway to heaven

it is an inside job

and so simple

Let’s love the skin we are in and love and in the doing love each other

and remember our sacred magic and inner fire.

Love to everyone who is sharing my journey with me .

Deep gratitude for all that we share with each other.

Here is a full moon picture coming up on December 28th.

Being brave and being true to our selves is the way to pure joy.

Hugs xxx

Integrity

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It’s chilly here in Somerset as we approach the magical dates of  the end of a Mayan Calendar.

The energy is still very intense as the spiral speeds faster and faster synchronising our integration.

Today in the wavespell we are in Day 11 Red Spectral Skywalker of the Blue Night and letting go of what is out of alignment with our dreams

Over the last eleven days we have been experiencing our intuitive dream self and the patterns of that energetic space.

Our heart’s desire revealed through our sacred feminine selves.

It has been a very emotional time for me and a tough time of keeping my nose to the grindstone ……

seeing where my inner child is seeking a release because of emotion I am feeling

this is my inner guidance revealing how my past is still presenting today.

When you live in an intense energetic space like Glastonbury

and a feminine energy place like Hawaii , Fiji, the Greek islands for example

it can be very tricky to balance out achieving the masculine balance of doing and linear action.

This is the wonder and the challenge of living here.

We are now in an amazing expansive time of Sagittarius energy and two of my family members are Saggi’s so this is a key time for us.

Here is a wonderful blog on this:

Blue Moon Astrology

Living in a family of four fire signs ~ Leo, Aries and two Saggi energy bubbles is very potent

We have a very dynamic interaction especially here

and now

at a time that my children are rapidly individuating and becoming adults too.

This has given me so many insights and much learning just now.

My insights today were around the sharing of this synchronisation in a way that everyone can understand and use

with a down to earth practical approach

Lots of workshops coming up in the next few months on integration as part of this transition process.

This really helps me focus on what I can do in my process and share that with others.

I have an in person workshop coming in Glastonbury

and if you aren’t in Glastonbury you can also access it through pdf and on skype/phone/email with me too.

Integration * Clarity workshop

This has proved a little tricky to physically get out on my blog today as it’s a Virgo moon and with every energy we have the sun and the shadow aspects.

I have three lots of Virgo in my chart and one of those aspects is in Venus which gives rise to me being a stickler for perfection

and doing “the right thing”

so lots of other tasks to do before I got around to it in the real sense……

I get frustrated with myself around this as it can block spontaneity as you can imagine….

and I am learning to be accepting of myself in my maturity

( honestly……..:-) ok some of you will shake your heads on that one….working at it )

This morning I was so excited as I had so many ideas that were bursting to be shared and now it is tea time….

For a long time I have been guided as to circles and cycles and working with the planets and the moon

When someone asked me for an appointment for a tapping session with EFT on a new moon a couple of years ago I was a little puzzled…..

Now I get it 🙂

If you haven’t got in synch with that way of working just yet….

no worries

When the time is “right” for you it will become a nudge from the universe.

This is what I have integrated over the past twelve months of living in the Glastonbury Zodiac

The Heart Chakra of the world.

I have gone in a slightly different direction to the one I was following in Huddersfield and it wasn’t what I thought I would be doing…..

however I trusted the process and now my integration on this is happening.

Magic.

Here you cannot do anything more than be your ego.

It is simply how it is.

If you are working to transform your ego and let go of it running the show then there is so much amazing stuff to learn and share

Many people are called here to do this and arrive for an event

and keep coming back…….

Some, like me, come to stay until it’s time to leave

until they have completed their cycle and dance with the energy here

Many people lose their way in a mind sense and become part of the sleeping beautyness

believing they have found the light

when in truth they have simply swapped their circle of influence for a different brand with the same content.

Glastonbury is an intoxicating opium den where many come for a fix.

It elevates the mood on some days and dives down deep on others…

If you allow yourself to feel it

and many don’t

and are unaware of it’s powerful amplifying qualities.

I had an open day recently at The Heart Centre

which is a beautiful room where I work in Glastonbury

and a seed of my creativity to a dream I have had for a very long time

a place of heart centred community and transformation…….

 and someone wise shared an insight about the Glastonbury experience

that it draws people to embrace their ego in whatever way is seeking expression

so the inside is drawn outside and we can see it manifest

It is on first sight an unusal place of the individual and artistic expression

and a place of amazing workshops and all things cosmic

beyond anywhere else I know of in the UK on display as it were

However like most glittery things in the ego world

much of it is shallow and scratch the surface and the veneer disappears

leaving a raw wound visible underneath.

Like every ego pattern there is no true heart space evident for many resident’s and visitors

and all is energetically based on ever shifting sands

and houses of cards

built without firm foundation

there is no substance and the actions reveal the true nature of the inner workings

the puppet masters pulling the strings.

Masks and glitterati.

This is the nature of the shadow world

and so this is where we are in the UK on the wheel of the year

and the wheel of the planet.

We are in the dark of the moon phase where it often gets darkest before dawn.

It is a wonderous place to be this underworld

just like Gollum in The Hobbit

The ring became his nemesis and his undoing and yet he was there to give gifts to Bilbo Baggins on his journey.

I remember this story as a young girl at junior school.

We had some lovely teachers who inspired us with magical stories and encouraged our imagination

thank you Mrs Wadsworth wherever you are now

You touched my heart with your wonderous stories and gentle wisdom.

So….. circles

Do you look around you at your circle?

Have a look what is in your house, on your curtains , your fabrics and ornaments…

What do you see revealed of your secret journey in your pictures…….?

Have you looked at what your higher self has been guiding you to buy and collect so you become aware of your path?

The inside coming outside?

I laugh when I see something that has been under my nose all along and yet not been ready to be revealed….

In my house and garden

on many of my cushion covers and clothes

circles have been sneaking in for a few years.

When I first came to Glastonbury I visited a crop circle.

That was profound and anyone who says one of these can be created by a group of people with a torch , some string and a some wood

I cannot envisage that happening

I certainly couldn’t do it

and I don’t know about you but my tipping point on this knowingnesshas been reached and flowed over….

that there is so much exciting stuff out there

beyond the linear mind and our so called “real world”

that is the place of education and mankind

that I am not interested in debating it

I trust and know it is what it is

and I have let go of trying to debate or convert anyone

as I have been down that road so many times

and I finally get it that people who are in one energy circle of beliefs and understanding

are not in alignment with another

and that’s ok

each to their own

it is all part of the game of our evolution.

We have been connecting with our tribes

as we come to the end of a cycle

we are letting go and transiting.

Just in the process of reading a couple of fabulous books

depending where you are on your path they may call to you:

Barbara Hand Clow – The Mayan Code

and Claudie Planche – Starmaya

So if we are ready and positioned to move from survivor to thriver

then it’s time to visit with our shadow and shake off  our fear

allow our inspiration to flow

dare to dream and meet our challenge once more

Our dream journey and path lets us experience what is there that seeks release

as we become the fool many times on the road less travelled

we can see our circle revealed

and in doing so integrate all the parts of us that have strayed and got lost in the woods

I had let go of Christmas because I really cannot stand the manipulation used by the consumer world

and one that I had become so caught up in

and as I went through my black hole of letting go of my way of being a consumer

starting in the financial crash of 2008

that has lost sight of the true nature of this wonderous time of year

now I am returning to it in a new way

free from being pulled into the magnetic void

of  what can be a very imbalanced

pure shopping overload

The shortest day of the solstice is the signal that light is soon to return

This week I have watched several films and again experienced synchronicity

that working with the wavespell brings awareness of

two were based in Somerset although one was medieval and set in the 16th century and the other set now in the US

When you start to experience this way of living every day you see the matrix revealed…

and everything has a different meaning

and is sooooooo magical.

It is the life we are truly born to live.

The one that affected me the most was :

Seeking a friend for the end of the world

It shows the total madness of how we are living ego led lives that actually make no sense at all…

and of course to evolve this is what we are here to learn.

I cried alot and as I cried I tapped and let go of all that hurt my wounded inner child feels.

All those times I have felt wounded by my life experience and how things and people didn’t match my expectations.

So now is the season for being that divine child that is clear and resonant.

The adult that has integrity and is independent

freeing ourselves of co dependency

creating new ways of relating

that feel good

and allow us to be truly present

feeling full of goodwill

without a need for presents

Joy to the world and to all of us

we are each a valuable unique snowflake crystal

in a blizzard of bliss

Whether shadow or light

we are all perfect in the language of love.

If you choose to know more about your patterns and want to co create with me please get in touch.