I have spent the last few days connecting to the past and feeling my energetic story.
Part of this has involved integrating my work and photos which have been on different devices using different formats.
When we are experiencing transition and change this is often the way to notice it…..
by looking how what we are doing on the outside is reflecting our inner world.
We can see our inner mechanisms at work and this is a key part of our awakening process.
I have made a shift to using a Mac over the past couple of years due to my Son’s influence and how it offers such a different format to windows
I love the beauty of it.
In this simple journey I see how our collective ego pattern has created so many different systems that vie for attention and support
and how many systems are incompatible
and so a choice is often required……
we cannot choose all and oneness in our ego world
and it may take a while to integrate and for the bigger picture to become simpler
as we are in the Aquarian age where part of this transition is to become independent and celebrate our uniqueness
and to co create in this phase is tricky……
We are all involved in the bigger wheel and all on a different cog and so one size does not fit all.
There are many paradoxes on this path
the clear way for each of us is to go within
and for many initiates this step is the hardest of all because it flies in the face of all our society conditioning.
Many people have never learned how to listen to their own voice or allow their own innate wisdom
it is always there to be accessed……
when we are ready to own our power and act on it.
Today in the Mayan wavespell we are Red Solar Earth on the ninth day of the Red Moon 13 day spiral.
Today we see in the number nine energy , how the past eight days complete.
What insights have we learned over the last nine days about who we really are ?
Just to remind you if you are following the blogs …..
We are in the seventh year of the Red Moon cycle on our planet
this Red Moon archetype is all about the return of the sacred feminine
through each one of us on our world
This is the most important aspect 🙂
The change comes as we change
The world that is created through us as a reflection of our beliefs ….
a playground constructed for our soul evolution
created by us for us
to go through ever evolving cycles
so that we can know ourselves
by experiencing lots of different perceptions
through the being of them
We are now at a very exciting time of the turning point in our tipping point
where we are now allowing the true nature of our amazingness to be experienced
who dare to dream
and let go of living from the limitation of our ego selves
by transforming our darkness into light.
On this journey many of us have been plunged into the void in order to make the transition
we have to let go of the circle that we were born into
and all the wounding involved in that place
where we learned to believe we weren’t loved by teachers who believed the same
this is the karma wheel of beliefs creating our reality
This is the initiate path of the ego
and naturally the ego does not choose what it sees as it’s own demise……
Most people are dragging their heels on the slippery slopes of the descent into what we call Hades
and because our ego doesn’t take responsibility for anything at this stage
because that would mean feeling strong emotions….
it loves to pass the parcel and use the blame game
Thing is if we don’t go and experience our own personal version of hell willingly
and then let go of it
seeing it for what it truly is
a place of misunderstandings and acting out from a place of hurting…..
We are creating it over and over every day until we do…..
In our past generations of humanity this has been very literal and visceral
and sadly for many on our planet this is still true.
Only we can change that reality by changing our inner slides.
What we see on our world stage is the very old performance of avoidance.
It’s easy to recognise in the form of people creating patterns of getting their emotional needs met through
mood altering stuff
external definition through stuff
focusing on the unconscious rather than the conscious
being around people we dislike……..
what would happen if we didn’t ?
doing jobs we find disheartening………
Is it possible that we could let go of believing that we have to earn x to support this false edifice of y?
using lots of props to support this woeful artifice
wanting something on the outside that doesn’t match on the inside
manifesting through manipulation and energy structures that are not love structures
and so like most illusions
it is simply a matter of time before the created artifice disappears in a puff of green smoke….
beings full of fear
because of the shadow energy body we are carrying around that is dragging us down
There have been lots of films on TV over Christmas to illustrate this
and unless we are cut off from the universe in a remote backspace like the moon……
we are very aware of all the myths and archetypal stories that are interwoven everywhere for our guidance in case we are so unconscious
that we have become a zombie 🙂
I watched a film last night called Moon which illustrates the metaphor of this calling…..
The essence of this film is that mankind has chosen to farm the moon for it’s power supply.
The moon in esoteric terms is our feminine energy and our shadow selves.
The more we work to know our shadow selves and transform this energy
the more grounded and powerful we become
as we know ourselves and accept ourselves
the more magical gifts are revealed
and no one has the ability to have any power over us
as is shown in our myths such as Snow White who is essentially our pure sacred feminine
compared to our narcissistic ego personality wounds of the Snow Queen
this is currently playing out on Channel 5 in the UK in a drama series
Great heart stories every day through modern fairytale
In 2013 I am focusing on creating and sharing workshops that empower people to work with this energy in a practical way.
If you feel moon awareness may be of interest to you please message me.
Wherever we are and whatever we are doing
we are always called at the perfect time
and if we choose to ignore the calling then the message simply gets louder
Before we came in we committed to doing this journey
and we have been part of the bigger story many times
when we remember who we truly are and what magic we possess
we become the thriver rather than the survivor
Why would we want to accept this illusion that our ego driven society purveys?
That we live a life of limitation and are unable to create our dream ?
That the dream is as empty as material goods?
They have no ability to generate love so why is the majority of our planet still intent in going down the pursuit of happiness externally?
Our major industries show where our energetic focus and beliefs lie
Pharmaceuticals and War
Drugs to mask the symptoms of how we are living out of alignment with who we truly are
Weapons to destroy a perceived threat of the other
a mad world that exist because our ego believes it needs to on a deep level
Time to create a different story instead?
The essence of the transition is to keep what is coming from love and let go of what is sponsored by fear
and take the small steps
in tandem with our universal energy wheel
The key focus of the initiate energy is to work from a powerful space of intention
being mindful and focused
on what we choose to create
and essentially by accepting what is our true story now
when we get squeezed by the darkness patterns
what pops out?
Is it love and light?
Most people wear a mask to cover up their true nature
and we only show the parts of us we have learned are loveable
based on what we were educated and conditioned to do as a child
it is essential that we unlearn this to create our future of being authentic and having honest relationships
Imagine a future where we can truly be us and how good that feels?
Having let go of all our inner child ego hurt from the past
we are no longer needing to attract in old matching patterns from the past so we can heal them
Instead we can feel good about who we are
feel confident and have good self-esteem
we bounce back at any of life’s challenges
and we don’t take things personally because there is no inner shadow energy feeling hurt to be triggered
We don’t create more of the same old same
We don’t need to blame anyone and we don’t need an ego drama fix
We have a love of life because we are engaged in what we chose to come and create
We don’t feel angry because we understand that people are in a different space…
and that doesn’t mean we become a doormat or passive
We are empowered
We are strong
because we are integrated and light within
The outside show is seen truly as it is
an artifice of our choosing
We can create our dream way of living in a sustainable way that doesn’t compromise anyone else
and in this process our planet isn’t compromised either
When we all meet our emotional needs from the inside we let go of competition and needing stuff in an unsupported way
Making the transition is tricky as we change our patterns
part of that process is resistance from others that reflect the parts of us seeking transition
and so this route requires persistence, trust and dedication.
This journey is open to all who are willing to do what it takes
and sometimes this can be daunting and demanding
so not for the faint hearted
only those with courage and determination will meet the challenge and it is so worth it.
In the traditional calendar we are facing the end of 2012
in the universal cycle we are at midpoint in winter in the northern hemisphere.
The Mayan wavespell year begins July 26th so again we are at midpoint
and over the past months since October Scorpio gateway
we have been working with the darkness and shadow
This Blue Storm Year is midway.
It is a number seven year and so we have reached the top of the pyramid in the thirteen year cycle
We are experiencing everything that needs to die so we can be reborn
We may have had a tough year
and if we embrace this we move onto a new cycle
if we resist …..
the way is through
this is the alchemical transformation
the liquifying process that changes the caterpillar to butterfly
Many people have left the planet this year and in their passing we have learned much
Everything happens for a reason
It may not be revealed at the time and maybe never to us in this lifetime
I have noticed more and more how I am aware of how I can only relate to people because of their expectations and beliefs
and this can also trigger emotion
especially frustration 🙂
Our ego can be so limiting at times
as on one level it determines how we interact with this interface of life
however the more we become aware
the more we heal and let go
and the more freedom we have to go to new places and experience new things
when we are starting out in life without prior experience of what we call failure
then we take on great challenges from the naiveté of youth
and it is possible to revisit that energy without the lack of wisdom and without fear
if we are willing to face our shadow
this is the gift of now.
The universe always matches us if only we are willing to look at that match incarnate eye to eye.
On July 26 2013 we enter Yellow Galactic Seed year on our planet
The magical year of integrity through integration.
A number eight year and the image says it all
If we are willing to let go of our past and all that hasn’t served us
the time we spend now preparing that inner space
will reap rich rewards
we will match the universal bigger picture
Most generally hype about this Mayan calendar has come from the ego pattern focus
of misdirection and fear……
the true gift is the divinity code
that is open to all
who dare to unlock their own personal Pandora’s Box
and take a good look at what is inside.
It is the gift of synchronising with all that is.
This is the inspiration for workshops I am creating now.
At the start of 2012 I did not have this awareness and this has been an amazing year for me connecting to this.
I had to trust in the process and face my fear in doing so.
During Christmas my family and I reconnected to Tomb Raider with Lara Croft and have had fun exploring the virtual world of ancient civilisations.
This has been such a fun teaching tool for me
There is still the most emphasis on the ego world of violence and arousal of this part of us as a key part of the gaming process
over time as we change
this will change
part of our life challenge is facing adversarial archetypes to overcome our fear
and as we do this on the inside and balance ourselves then extreme violence will no longer be necessary
and it may take a while…..
Are we ready to have fun?
Are we ready to do what we love no matter what it takes?
Are we ready to make friends with our ego and open our heart to what wants to live in us?
My intention is to have a magical year and trust in my divine self more and more.
I am intending to be in some wonderful sacred spaces
co creating with others who are choosing to live sacred lives
by being the change
Our lives here are fleeting and short in this form
when we honour who we really are and treat ourselves accordingly
with reverence and respect
our lives have meaning and true worth
we allow our magnificent creativity to be unleashed
I had a dream to be in Kephalonia in 2012 running a retreat.
That didn’t work out as I saw it originally.
Instead I was there with my family having a retreat for myself.
This was one of the major highlights of my year
and allowed me to be clear of the powerful Glastonbury bubble that can often cloud our vision
as our ego looms large when we are in it 🙂
I remembered and reconnected to the wonderful feminine healing energy of Greece
which has always been such a high energy heart space for me
and where I intend to create retreats for others with me doing what we love.
Simply being there is so uplifting in this natural beauty space.
If you feel you are drawn to a heart opening retreat in Kephalonia please message me.
This is another aspect I have integrated this year.
I had an intellectual knowing of this and now I really feel it.
Our journey is a process and we follow a certain path that is predetermined in many respects by our energetic alignment at birth.
Astrology is the language of consciousness.
This Starcode and Mayan sign is our sacred geometry and is what guides us to experience a certain flavour of the universal tapestry
there are many paths we can take within this framework
we have a star coded mission that will always assert itself
with or without our ego consent and co-operation.
If you want to know more about this please message me with your time,date and place of birth and I will send you the information.
If you already have this and would like to know more….
what year you are on in your thirteen year cycle and how to work with this with awareness…..
please message me
As I co create with everyone I learn and evolve and I am so grateful for living this life in this way.
Love to everyone who has been with me so far and I look forward to our meetings and connecting in the coming months.
I am planning an event in my home village at Lammas in August 2013 which will be focusing on sending out our Yellow Seed Intentions to the universe.
I would love to co create this with other people offering heart opening workshops so please get in touch if you feel this calls to you.
It is in the Gemini and Taurus of the Glastonbury Zodiac
So we have all the tools we need and all the raw material within us to weave the magic……
Are we sitting comfortably?
Then let’s begin….
What is possible for us now?
Love to you all and our wonderful potentiality.
I was given a gift by a friend in Glastonbury and I have recently started reading it….
It is wonderful and I would love to share it with you if you haven’t yet seen it.
I am simply recommending the wisdom in the words in the book alone
and not the wider scope of anything connected beyond that of which I have no personal experience
What we believe we conceive.
Here is a fab video in a great series of sharing the mystery teachings.