Today we are in the middle of the Blue Eagle Wavespell.
White Galactic Wind is todays universal energy.
This is the wavespell of seeing the bigger picture by being the eagle who flies high in the realms of the gods and sees the wide vistas instead of being limited by the crevice or tunnel at eye level.
Many people will have experienced being blocked at this time either physically and/or mentally ……
and thinking the tool has the answer 😦
In the UK we have had lots of snow and ice .
Jack Frost nipping at our toes.
I have been connecting to lots of people this week via Skype
who are finding their path thwarted in some way at the moment.
There is a big Libra accent – finding the balance and the universe always balance us so when we are too much in our masculine we get a feminine blast
too much in our feminine we get a linear poke in the ribs.
This is all great stuff and it often seems perverse to be saying that.
It is what I have found to be true 🙂
This is Aquarius time
Which is when we connect to all god and goddess possibility within us
A few years back I had thought I had got into great flow with my holistic business and had lots of clients.
Then it snowed for three weeks 🙂
That is when I made a huge shift because during this time of physically no clients
I discovered online communities and skype
and from this different direction
I was connecting to amazing avenues that I hadn’t dreamed of…..
because we don’t know what we don’t know.
This is where focusing on our mind’s direction and guidance can be extremely limiting
and we can open up to the universal mind and family
that is always there to support and guide us to abundance and love
if only we will stop being in our masculine on a mind mission and be still
and heed the signs.
On one level there are two sides to every coin
light , expansion and love
dark and constricting and fear
heart and ego
and you can tell the difference with some simple check ins
Are we attached to an outcome?
Do we have an agenda?
Are we excited and full of joy
Are we moving towards something with openness
or banging a drum for attention
and maybe a compilation of ego and heart……
Straining at something isn’t ease of birthing is it?
Relax don’t do it when you want to succumb to it….
relax don’t do it…
when you want to…
and there is no difference to creating blissful living in so many ways to the orgasm process
and that’s a different chapter…..
The more we move into the Aquarius Age
and the more we are feeling this shift
It’s time to limber up
free ourselves from our fears
be as flexible as we can
as new shifts bring new learning.
Lots of people are feeling challenged and some people are really wearing their heart on their sleeve now which is so lovely to see.
As we move towards the full moon in Leo tomorrow this energy is building.
Leo is all about heart opening
becoming the lion heart by facing our fears and having the courage to transcend them
by being open and vulnerable and letting go of our pride
How many of us are able to reach out to other people and feel loved ?
How many of us can allow ourselves to receive ?
Be able to trust and be honest
and let go of the outcome?
When I had my first encounter with my universal self saying no in a big way
I was in my early twenties and had chosen to be in a relationship with a controlling bully
As a result of this I lost my mind for a while….
I felt isolated from everyone and everything because I was living a lie
I was in public service at the time in the leisure industry and I put on a mask to serve.
Inside I was very frightened and desperate and I didn’t feel I could turn to anyone.
My physical symptoms reflected this and I developed psoriasis on my face
I used to wear foundation and that had to stop
I had palpitations
this increased to panic attacks because I ignored the signs and didn’t know how to find a way out
and be honest with everyone
Eventually I got cervical cancer
and tunnel vision
I started to have migraines that distorted my vision and as a result I looked for an outside fix ( because that was all I knew back then)
I had to wear glasses which helped to a degree.
I went to the doctors for advice and at that time my doctor didn’t have any awareness of how the mind and emotion create these symptoms
(most still don’t because if they did they wouldn’t be trying to solve things using drugs)
and so prescribed me valium.
I still had all the feelings, my situation hadn’t changed,
I was in a bubble where I felt numb
and I couldn’t function and I felt like a very glum goldfish in a world that was totally alien to me.
Somehow I came through it and back then I didn’t have a clue about anything holistic and only my will power got me to move forward.
I did the cold turkey and sought practical solutions which meant finding small steps to get through and keep going
I got support through structures outside of myself which is what most people are still doing 25 years later
and it’s time for a change 🙂
I was off work for a while because I literally couldn’t pick up the phone
and I didn’t get any sympathy from my boss because he couldn’t see my inner wound.
Funnily enough he had a nervous breakdown (breakthrough) shortly after mine and ironically maybe he missed out on the universe showing him through me
so he got his own turn because we shared the same vibes as is always the way with law of attraction.
Deaf to the message let’s turn up the volume
and take your fingers out of your ears and stop la la ing 🙂
I had lost the confidence to function and was in total headless chicken and overwhelm….
in a standing still sort of a way 🙂
Over time through being still and gentle with myself ….
I didn’t have a choice because my body enforced this by shutting me down
which is what happens in many cases at this time of year.
When it is cold and dark we cannot light ourselves up with the sun or commune with our green goddess
so the energy is unplugged and we are reliant on our inner generator for light and warmth….
This time of year the more we do our inner work and the more resources we have on all levels.
Composting our Karma and the real core recycling.
Rotted down poo is the best fuel for those spring flowers.
A year or so after this crossroads it was the right time to move on and in a couple of years I moved to London
in a new relationship with my partner of today.
Here I had a huge extended family working for Wetherspoon’s and all of my personal experience
with my mental health road trip
was invaluable for the people I met and who were often at this same crossroads
and I shared my story with them often with a cup of tea and sympathy
in the kitchen
and in the sharing they could see that I had got through it
and so, therefore could they
and that it was ok to say you were struggling with life and everything that it involved
and that was true family acceptance
It’s time for us all to share who we really are and our vulnerability
so we can evolve
we all have the same stuff going on
we all want to be loved and respected for who we are.
Ego simply attracts so much ego
I remember at crisis times since then I have always been honest and sought help more and more
I am a human being
I make mistakes and I mess up
and through this process is the greatest time of my evolution
When I had my property crisis I went to property seminars and met some lovely heart centred people who really wanted to help other people transform their crisis into a new possibility
There were very young people who were transforming and challenging local councils and courts
There were also the very masculine predators who were looking to make a killing
in their glittery splendour
as the vampire archetypes cold blooded without a beating heart it seems
because they have been wounded and often seek to redeem through building portfolios to hide in….
all are valuable and all allow love to blossom with their truth.
We are ready to move into allowing ourselves to not know and open up to the
dark matter that holds our galaxy together
and is our glue too
and we will create this
willingly or unwillingly
the universal goddess knows it is where we are heading and is birthing it through us
It’s a time of surrender to whatever we are resisting
feel those labour pains
The majority of the planet is still slumbering in sheeple land
and making noises about change and transformation
when we actually look closer we see that is the same song of slavery to the hamster wheel that has always been sung
only now it is in a different choir
How many bubble bursters are there out there terrified of having to do something new?
Wanting to pop someone else’s dream because it is too brilliant and illuminates their darker world ?
How many speak the language of the new love world and yet do the dance of the cave dweller ?
To create a new way of being
we actually…. create….. a new way of being?
A thought gives rise to a dream
A word gives the thought a voice
Action brings it into being
Repeated action brings change and creates new pathways.
We have to go into long virgin grass sometimes, tangled thickets and sometimes we get many scratches
and nettle stings
oooo and find a dock leaf to soothe the sting
sometimes we have to howl with the moon
Our mind would weave us a safe playground of knowingness and this is what kills our spirit
If we make choices that conspire with it
It is all of our choosing and always perfect.
I am constantly wowed by the intricacy of our amazing universal selves.
Today I am sharing more of my Thoth journey and my latest read
This has totally inspired me
and I am getting a compass 🙂
I will share more of this in another blog because this is huge.
It is easy to see where our spirit wants to go
where our excitement goes
and for me when I feel like a child on Christmas morning…..
it’s a heart thing
In January it is sometimes easy to lose focus and wonder at what is next….
and when we surrender to that we allow something new to appear
instead of trying to make things happen we allow our higher self to bring us amazing gifts
and it usually comes when we least expect it
it isn’t what we think it is
Look back at how many times you have taken an unexpected turn on your path
look back and see how you have learned so much in this shadow space
when we allow others to give to us these miracles occur
and so often we don’t do that because our mind is stage directing
Lots of people talking about NLP today
and I got my learning through a great school with wise teachers
The Heart path.
So many NLP courses focus on the masculine power alpha approach
teaching techniques that aren’t love based and are manipulative in many ways
The Dark Side 🙂
Like Darth Vadar in Star Wars who wanted power to become more powerful than his adversaries and defend his heart
and in the process lost his humanity by denying it
when the true way to becoming powerful is to become more vulnerable than your opponent and in the process
let go of any need to fight
let go of any need to do the dance
by integration through the wound
by exposing our gentle underbelly to the sword
and our heart on the sleeve
When we choose to live in a world of protection and defence walls
we close off to love too.
Walls close everything out and we stay in the gilded cage of our own making.
See the iceberg floating by and jump
where will it take us
Down the rabbit hole
to new countries that speak in a different tongue
have different beliefs
and different ways of living life
where do we start this new journey?
By looking within and broadening our internal horizon’s
slipping off our straight jackets
changing our circle
daring to dream
finding something new to do that challenges us.
When I met my new partner we went to the Caribbean. We had lots of adventures going on a submarine and flying in a mini plane.
Afterwards he admitted they terrified him.
One day we went on a yacht cruise and we went snorkelling
It was a wonderful experience and he was keen to swim out to an island some way from the yacht. On the return to the harbour we were shown a pool of sharks. These sharks had been where we were swimming. Our faces drained of colour as we looked at each other. Our guides explained they were harmless and didn’t have teeth however I guess that wouldn’t have registered if we had met one close up in the sea 🙂
We wouldn’t have asked for a cheesy grin photo 🙂
Later my partner admitted he couldn’t swim very well but had decided to go for it as it was shallow and we had flippers and masks 🙂
In the book I have mentioned there is a section on initiate tests in Egypt and having to swim through a pool of crocodiles
the crocodiles had been fed but the initiates didn’t know that 🙂
Life is a series of initiate tests
For each challenge we have an opportunity to go through a gate and experience the rewards
Everything in life is a reward
It is life
Let’s live and love
and let go of anything that feels less than love and joy.
It is why we have feelings…
to override the mind and navigate with the heart.
Life is an adventure we can all share in
and be the open hearted loving people we want to see
This isn’t something anyone can fake
and you cannot simply buy a tee shirt for it
because if you don’t feel it
no one else can feel you.
Love to you all and bringing that god and goddess potential to full brilliance.
This was a lovely film I watched this week that has such a great simple message of love
Here is my tapping video to open to the Cosmic Cookie Trail: