True to you

snowflakes23

Today we are in the middle of the Blue Eagle Wavespell.

White Galactic Wind is todays universal energy.

This is the wavespell of seeing the bigger picture by being the eagle who flies high in the realms of the gods and sees the wide vistas instead of being limited by the crevice or tunnel at eye level.

Many people will have experienced being blocked at this time either physically and/or mentally ……

and thinking the tool has the answer  😦

In the UK we have had lots of snow and ice .

Jack Frost nipping at our toes.

I have been connecting to lots of people this week via Skype

who are finding their path thwarted in some way at the moment.

There is a big Libra accent – finding the balance and the universe always balance us so when we are too much in our masculine we get a feminine blast

too much in our feminine we get a linear poke in the ribs.

This is all great stuff and it often seems perverse to be saying that.

It is what I have found to be true 🙂

This is Aquarius time

Which is when we connect to all god and goddess possibility within us

A few years back I had thought I had got into great flow with my holistic business and had lots of clients.

Then it snowed for three weeks 🙂

Nooooooooooooooooo

That is when I made a huge shift because during this time of physically no clients

I discovered online communities and skype

and from this different direction

I was connecting to amazing avenues that I hadn’t dreamed of…..

because we don’t know what we don’t know.

This is where focusing on our mind’s direction and guidance can be extremely limiting

and we can open up to the universal mind and family

that is always there to support and guide us to abundance and love

if only we will stop being in our masculine on a mind mission and be still

and connect

and heed the signs.

On one level there are two sides to every coin

light , expansion and love

dark and constricting and fear

heart and ego

and you can tell the difference with some simple check ins

Are we attached to an outcome?

Do we have an agenda?

Are we excited and full of joy

Are we moving towards something with openness

or banging a drum for attention

and maybe a compilation of  ego and heart……

Straining at something isn’t ease of birthing is it?

Relax don’t do it when you want to succumb to it….

relax don’t do it…

when you want to…

come

and there is no difference to creating blissful living in so many ways to the orgasm process

and that’s a different chapter…..

The more we move into the Aquarius Age

and the more we are feeling this shift

It’s time to limber up

free ourselves from our fears

be as flexible as we can

as new shifts bring new learning.

Lots of people are feeling challenged and some people are really wearing their heart on their sleeve now which is so lovely to see.

As we move towards the full moon in Leo tomorrow this energy is building.

Leo is all about heart opening

becoming the lion heart by facing our fears and having the courage to transcend them

by being open and vulnerable and letting go of our pride

How many of us are able to reach out to other people and feel loved ?

How many of us can allow ourselves to receive ?

Be able to trust and be honest

and let go of the outcome?

When I had my first encounter with my universal self saying no in a big way

I was in my early twenties and had chosen to be in a relationship with a controlling bully

As a result of this I lost my mind for a while….

I felt isolated from everyone and everything because I was living a lie

I was in public service at the time in the leisure industry and I put on a mask to serve.

Inside I was very frightened and desperate and I didn’t feel I could turn to anyone.

My physical symptoms reflected this and I developed psoriasis on my face

I used to wear foundation and that had to stop

I had palpitations

this increased to panic attacks because I ignored the signs and didn’t know how to find a way out

and be honest with everyone

Eventually I got cervical cancer

and tunnel vision

I started to have migraines that distorted my vision and as a result I looked for an outside fix ( because that was all I knew back then)

I had to wear glasses which helped to a degree.

I went to the doctors for advice and at that time my doctor didn’t have any awareness of how the mind and emotion create these symptoms

(most still don’t because if they did they wouldn’t be trying to solve things using drugs)

and so prescribed me valium.

I still had all the feelings, my situation hadn’t changed,

I was in a bubble where I felt numb

and I couldn’t function and I felt like a very glum goldfish in a world that was totally alien to me.

Somehow I came through it and back then I didn’t have a clue about anything holistic and only my will power got me to move forward.

I did the cold turkey and sought practical solutions which meant finding small steps to get through and keep going

I got support through structures outside of myself which is what most people are still doing 25 years later

and it’s time for a change 🙂

I was off work for a while because I literally couldn’t pick up the phone

and I didn’t get any sympathy from my boss because he couldn’t see my inner wound.

Funnily enough he had a nervous breakdown (breakthrough) shortly after mine and ironically maybe he missed out on the universe showing him through me

so he got his own turn because we shared the same vibes as is always the way with law of attraction.

Deaf to the message let’s turn up the volume

and take your fingers out of your ears and stop la la ing 🙂

I had lost the confidence to function and was in total headless chicken and overwhelm….

in a standing still sort of a way 🙂

Over time through being still and gentle with myself ….

I didn’t have a choice because my body enforced this by shutting me down

which is what happens in many cases at this time of year.

When it is cold and dark we cannot light ourselves up with the sun or commune with our green goddess

so the energy is unplugged and we are reliant on our inner generator for light and warmth….

hence Sad

This time of year the more we do our inner work and the more resources we have on all levels.

Composting our Karma and the real core recycling.

Rotted down poo is the best fuel for those spring flowers.

A year or so after this crossroads it was the right time to move on and in a couple of years I moved to London

in a new relationship with my partner of today.

Here I had a huge extended family working for Wetherspoon’s and all of my personal experience

with my mental health road trip

was invaluable for the people I met and who were often at this same crossroads

and I shared my story with them often with a cup of tea and sympathy

in the kitchen

and in the sharing they could see that I had got through it

and so, therefore could they

and that it was ok to say you were struggling with life and everything that it involved

and that was true family acceptance

It’s time for us all to share who we really are and our vulnerability

so we can evolve

we all have the same stuff going on

we all want to be loved and respected for who we are.

Ego simply attracts so much ego

I remember at crisis times since then I have always been honest and sought help more and more

I am a human being

I make mistakes and I mess up

and through this process is the greatest time of my evolution

When I had my property crisis I went to property seminars and met some lovely heart centred people who really wanted to help other people transform their crisis into a new possibility

There were very young people who were transforming and challenging local councils and courts

There were also the very masculine predators who were looking to make a killing

in their glittery splendour

as the vampire archetypes cold blooded without a beating heart it seems

because they have been wounded and often seek to redeem through building portfolios to hide in….

all are valuable and all allow love to blossom with their truth.

We are ready to move into allowing ourselves to not know and open up to the

dark matter that holds our galaxy together

and is our glue too

and we will create this

willingly or unwillingly

the universal goddess knows it is where we are heading and is birthing it through us

It’s a time of surrender to whatever we are resisting

feel those labour pains

The majority of the planet is still slumbering in sheeple land

and making noises about change and transformation

when we actually look closer we see that is the same song of slavery to the hamster wheel that has always been sung

only now it is in a different choir

How many bubble bursters are there out there terrified of having to do something new?

Wanting to pop someone else’s dream because it is too brilliant and illuminates their darker world ?

How many speak the language of the new love world and yet do the dance of the cave dweller ?

To create a new way of being

we actually…. create….. a new way of being?

A thought gives rise to a dream

A word gives the thought a voice

Action brings it into being

Repeated action brings change and creates new pathways.

We have to go into long virgin grass sometimes, tangled thickets and sometimes we get many scratches

and nettle stings

oooo and find a dock leaf to soothe the sting

sometimes we have to howl with the moon

Our mind would weave us a safe playground of knowingness and this is what kills our spirit

If we make choices that conspire with it

It is all of our choosing and always perfect.

I am constantly wowed by the intricacy of our amazing universal selves.

Today I am sharing more of my Thoth journey and my latest read

The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life by 

Drunvalo Melchizedech.

This has totally inspired me

and I am getting a compass 🙂

I will share more of this in another blog because this is huge.

It is easy to see where our spirit wants to go

where our excitement goes

and for me when I feel like a child on Christmas morning…..

it’s a heart thing

Woo Hoo

In January it is sometimes easy to lose focus and wonder at what is next….

and when we surrender to that we allow something new to appear

instead of trying to make things happen we allow our higher self to bring us amazing gifts

and it usually comes when we least expect it

and…..

it isn’t what we think it is

Look back at how many times you have taken an unexpected turn on your path

look back and see how you have learned so much in this shadow space

when we allow others to give to us these miracles occur

and so often we don’t do that because our mind is stage directing

Lots of people talking about NLP today

and I got my learning through a great school with wise teachers

The Heart path.

So many NLP courses focus on the masculine power alpha approach

teaching techniques that aren’t love based and are manipulative in many ways

The Dark Side 🙂

Like Darth Vadar in Star Wars who wanted power to become more powerful than his adversaries and defend his heart

and in the process lost his humanity by denying it

when the true way to becoming powerful is to become more vulnerable  than your opponent and in the process

let go of any need to fight

let go of any need to do the dance

by integration through the wound

by exposing our gentle underbelly to the sword

and our heart on the sleeve

When we choose to live in a world of protection and defence walls

we close off to love too.

Walls close everything out and we stay in the gilded cage of our own making.

See the iceberg floating by and jump

where will it take us

Down the rabbit hole

to new countries that speak in a different tongue

have different beliefs

different customs

and  different ways of living life

where do we start this new journey?

By looking within and broadening our internal horizon’s

slipping off our straight jackets

changing our circle

daring to dream

finding something new to do that challenges us.

When I met my new partner we went to the Caribbean. We had lots of adventures going on a submarine and flying in a mini plane.

Afterwards he admitted they terrified him.

Me too.

One day we went on a yacht cruise and we went snorkelling

It was a wonderful experience and he was keen to swim out to an island some way from the yacht. On the return to the harbour we were shown a pool of sharks. These sharks had been where we were swimming. Our faces drained of colour as we looked at each other. Our guides explained they were harmless and didn’t have teeth however I guess that wouldn’t have registered if we had met one close up in the sea 🙂

We wouldn’t have asked for a cheesy grin photo 🙂

Later my partner admitted he couldn’t swim  very well but had decided to go for it as it was shallow and we had flippers and masks 🙂

In the book I have mentioned there is a section on initiate tests in Egypt and having to swim through a pool of crocodiles

the crocodiles had been fed but the initiates didn’t know that 🙂

Life is a series of initiate tests

For each challenge we have an opportunity to go through a gate and experience the rewards

Everything in life is a reward

It is life

Let’s live and love

and let go of anything that feels less than love and joy.

It is why we have feelings…

to override the mind and navigate with the heart.

Life is an adventure we can all share in

and be the open hearted loving people we want to see

This isn’t something anyone can fake

and you cannot simply buy a tee shirt for it

because if you don’t feel it

no one else can feel you.

Love to you all and bringing that god and goddess potential to full brilliance.

This was a lovely film I watched this week that has such a great simple message of love

Here is my tapping video to open to the Cosmic Cookie Trail:

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s