Blue Solar Hand

My Mayan Day

This was Monday ~ Moon day

I am lagging behind in writing my posts as big stuff happening still

and wow this is intense

key to my

at 4 degrees:

AQUARIUS 4
Many fireflies at dusk.
You become aware all at once of staggering things, of astounding things, of world-shattering things. States of revelation. You are being called inwardly to shake off the slumber of the common day and to heed the stirrings of the future. Capable of bounding leaps, your are infused with a spirit of new beginnings. Especially strongly drawn toward altered states and threshold awareness. You’ve been brought to places where all of the shared assumptions and ideologies become pale and lifeless, and something other sparks recognition and pursuit. Collectively inspired to find alternatives, to seek a vision, to gather with those who are similarly touched, you are in on the ground floor of new movements and innovative discoveries. And full of wonder and awe at the process, and at a whole way of things in worlds such as this one.

becoming very aware of my chart now and going deeper with it.

I love doing this work and each person coming in reveals me and my path.

And…I don’t know what I don’t know just like everyone else here to do the trip ~ otherwise what would be the point ?

Saint? Sinner?

Just polar labels for the mind and indoctrination models

Human being on a mission to balance themselves with their spiritual self

Charting can also be an avoidance and so key to the love and light brigade

That which is easy ~ labelled positive

Is not the alchemical process

The positive comes naturally as a part of the process and for real not an intellectual concept ~ more light

through working with the wound and what is difficult

letting go of denial of this place

This is where new universe’s are forged

in the black hole

The Galactic Centre

The Vertex

How do I integrate myself in society in a way that is balanced so I can bridge all worlds and be accepting of myself and accepting of others ~ it is all interwoven

However entanglement is not the key

I have done lots of work on the Narcissist pattern

How I am on the spectrum

How I am on the spectrum of the opposite ~ the empath

and how to blend the two now

because in my view this is the next step of evolution

Alchemically coming into centre

Two sides of the same coin and the mastery process because both extremes are coping mechanisms

and

feeling is the key to intimacy

Feels pretty barren without intimacy doesn’t it

Being seen and loved for who we are by others in relationship ?

Kissed, held, tactile engagement in a respectful loving way ?

So key for the Leo me

It is difficult for me having my Wavespell in the energy of a full moon

Not least the biggest soul axis time of the 4th and 1oth house

The formation of manifestation

What we are doing now will manifest at Capricorn Winter Solstice

I do not have any traditional planets here but always Capricorn co creators arrive to get me moving with my discipline

Things coming in on a soul level for the planet

Things coming in on a personal level

What is in Cancer and Capricorn for you ?

Cancer ~ mothering,nurturing,home

Capricorn ~ fathering,discipline,work

Soul Journey ~ deeper levels beyond the mundane

What is in your 4th house ?

What is in your 10th ?

If you are A Yellow Seed ~ number 4 of the Mayan Signs ~ this is key

If you are a White Dog ~ number 10 of the Mayan Signs ~ this is key

In general terms ~ taking the mask off ~ Yellow Seed ~ to reveal the true seed underneath the coping mechanisms

to manifest soul relationships and love free from conditioning which is truly unconditional ~ White Dog

This is the heart’s desire free from any material ego construct

In my 4th House is My North Node in Gemini at 10 degrees

Where I am going in this life:

GEMINI 10
A young woman notices the handsome man has fangs.
Blows of fate. Acts of God. Abrupt awakenings to what was suspected but naively denied. You become drastically aware of all that was hidden, and jump to conclusions. The gathering of events to prove a point, to generate a change, to draw it all out. Curiosity, probing. Yet as well, casual oblivion and riding high in euphoric assumptions. Setting yourself up for turnarounds, epiphanies, metanoia. The leap over the edge into the dark from the light that reveals the other side of life can generate cynicism and negative feedback loops, by the implication that behind every shining wonder there lies its reverse shadow image. The mind proving itself right and falling down its own hole.

Always loved Dracula

Such a deep and consuming passion for endless love

and….

potentiality

and…

wow a lot of carnage in pursuit of the lost Goddess resurrection process

It is really painful but death is part of it

Interview with a Vampyre and Brad Pitt’s role compared to Tom Cruise

A life of pain to know love through knowing what it is not and where it does not live …

To catalyse change

This 13 day process is all about catalysing the human being to work with their shadow self

aka the emotional body

Mr Hyde

This process is not linear

This process is a spiral

The authentic self is not a zombie

or a compliant domesticated animal

On the day I sat and watched myself all day wherever I went and making notes

who showed up

what showed up

how I felt about that

nothing dramatic or epiphany esque

which is what the soap opera self is conditioned to believe life is about

Disney Drama

All Disney movies contain code for human evolution

Everything is code and the individual activates with it whatever level of being they are at in the Universal Script

more awareness more realisations for me

letting go of being the drama queen archetype through owning my stuff

and learning how to relate

not manipulate

key to this Jupiter in Leo time

mastery of ego to open the heart

This time is a birth time of the disciple willing to walk the talk

People who are incarnating at this balsamic moon time

of all ages

are experiencing rapid change because of the spiral reaching it’s extreme masculine

It is the time of the pre~menstrual storm

The time of the head wanting what it wants

The heart bringing in new wisdom

but to do that the human being has to surrender to what is given

Coming up next is Yellow Human Wavespell

This is my Yellow Castle

and the year I am in

Yellow Rhythmic Human

It is bringing me everything I need to see where I am in balance with my humanity

and most importantly…

where I am not

It’s a roller coaster ride for empaths

and emotions

and like a yo yo

like

IBS

Fear and Love doing the dance

Yes Yes Yes Yes

Noooooooooooo

Yes I want that…

Noooooooo not again

Oh really?

Are you kidding me ~ honestly

I thought I had done that to death and yet….

and yet here is the grim reaper saying it is time to go deeper

Saturnian cycles

Neptunian levels ~ work with the Moon and access Neptune free of delusion

another layer to heal

Walk your talk echoes the Goddess

The lead picture is me at 18 on a total hedonistic 2 weeks in Ios

The party island and so key to living in the body and connecting to other human beings

At that time I was a total party animal. I went away 3 times that year ~ I was a travel agent.

Each time I came back I was in need of another holiday to recover 😉

It is a key time for anyone ~ especially a 9

18 = 9

This pattern is key to me creating balanced human being ness

I could only do that in that way then because there was a holistic structure to support that way of being

This year was wild partying and the year I reconnected with an old flame

A childhood sweetheart who I sat next to in school

This was so key to my emotional coding and what I am here for this time around

To shape my destiny

Completion of awareness of the process ~ not necessarily that I will achieve it and often I am at a place of despair on this 😉 Getting used to that though

To access being a clear channel by healing all my emotional wounding

To stop doing imbalanced co dependent behaviour

I am very self aware

I have been working with myself in this way since 2007

It does get easier on some levels

It also gets more complex and deeper

and as I strip away the layers I feel more

I become more empathetic

I can See more because of this

It also means I have to be very discerning and disciplined

My body at 50 cannot tolerate what it did at 18

It is not meant to and I offer that learning and being emotionally aware

Creates Co creation Code

letting go of Co dependent Code

No doubt you are aware that the heart is not logical though

It is the Universal tool for bringing what we need for our soul and planetary evolution

and often that is the anti-thesis of what the ego wants.

Over the past few days I have seen all my past incarnate with different people

It is pure grace

Noticing how I am affected or not affected

any triggers there

Just watching this video of me is a trigger ~ I am really going through some stuff here at the time of the making of the video and it is so evident with my energy levels.

This is often what happens ~ for me too ~ I focus on the person revealing the process and I am put off because they are not superhuman 🙂

It is the process that is key ~ not shooting the messenger ~ seeing beyond to the message

No human being here right now holds the model or the solution

The solution is in each one of us

doing the personal process

What is seeking evolution within revealed outside of us ?

I love people

Gemini North Node

With some people my boundaries have been so skewed because I could not be assertive

Afraid of the response if I did

and in truth how I would be perceived

Often Scapegoated

truth be told though

It is first and foremost about me for me

as it is for every individual

this myth of being of service and self sacrifice

Is one of the biggest denials masqueraded by the ego

The paradox

To really start to work with this the individual has to let go of their denial

and face the raw self

I may be 50 and had a lot of experience that the 18 year old did not have

but I still have the same core patterns and conditioning

with Jo and my relationship to Jo

and therefore the world

At my Chiron return this is so powerful

It is designed for this very reason

50’s ~ the same as day 5’s ~ the heart of the matter

the struggle to be the authentic human being free from ego constructs that are

Totally self imposed for a good reason ~ to cope with life

Any feelings of shadow are self created and although the individual may believe this comes through the other

All the feelings the individual has

are the individuals

Who else could they belong to ?

This is responsibility in action

It is a complex process but here is a simple formula:

Feeling:

Something is happening in my world

Something does not feel good about it

I do not feel good about it

Self enquiry possible ~ being as specific as I can

Here I suggest Emotional Freedom Technique because it works

and everyone can do it including children

Be with the emotional trigger

It is the next step to freedom and conscious awareness

Feel the feeling with the intention of feeling and release

Then see what comes to light

What created this feeling in terms of my relationship with the world

Then go deeper if you feel ready

When has this feeling/event happened before ?

Go back to that

Replay that

Do the same process

Keep doing it until the emotion is cleared

Then everything changes

This is the emotional evolution

Emotional Events are coded into our human body in a powerful way as a learning experience

to teach the individual what literally creates pain

It is a survival mechanism which allows avoidance of pain

If the individual starts to work with this then they evolve

and learn how to do relationships in a different way

In a way that they can state what is acceptable and not acceptable

State desires and needs

It is a process

As a child that is not an option

As an immature adult that is not an option until the adult decides to make it an option

and be pro active

work on themselves and their emotional baggage

This can happen very quickly with EFT

and …

it is not a quick fix

It is life long because learning and evolution is life long

Whatever the universe is bringing in right now

that is uncomfortable

is what our planet needs to birth something new

It is what the human being needs to birth something new

Each human being that does this personal process

relates differently because of it

This ripples out on the web of life

Being the change we want to see happens with this process

This is not about a therapist doing it for another

Passive receiving of healing

That is another thing entirely

This is about each being becoming the pro active Red Skywalker

The Fool

as and when ready to

The alchemist

ready to do the personal inner marriage

Can you walk amongst the beauty

be in it

not of it

engage in love free from sacrifice ?

For people in powerful relationship now

It is time to integrate the polar opposites so being open to this is key

The easy option of comfort zone and compatibility of the astrological chart

is not it 🙂

Bursting each other wide open is it

Being able to stay open and love deeply

even though this is pushing all the buttons ….

All the buttons being pushed hold the key

to go beyond ego limitation

I am not suggesting abusive relationship ~ the opposite

Being discerning

Stating boundaries

Being honest about what is coming up

This is conscious relationship

This is the future

It begins here

Blue Hand is the 7th Mayan Sign

It addresses the gateway to the mystic

What is resonating reveals

the ecstatic and compatibility with the divinity code

It reveals what is not through pain

It’s planet is Earth

So in this wavespell

Pluto and Earth

The underworld and the early experience ~ hell on earth

allow completion

It is the Christ process ~ the Buddha process ~ the enlightenment process

Light let in through transforming the self

Total engagement with divinity accessed because of that

Remember all the clues are there in the body

If we are shutting down emotionally around relationship then this will

be revealed in emotional constipation

the colon

Not to put too fine a point on it…

Holding on to old sh*t

Literally

If someone is so repressed emotionally they may be healthy most of the time

Usually that means an empath partner does that emotional expression for them

That also means there will be a distorted code going on to allow this imbalance too

What has to happen for emotion to be expressed usually is anything but loving

no surprise given our current cultural trip on relationship

and focus on external structures at the expense of compassion and caring in our communities

Becoming really aware of this way of relating is key for both people

If this is at the start of the relationship it can be hugely beneficial as there is no personal wounding between the two parties

there is awareness potentially of what has hurt in the past

If the couple have the courage to transform this together

The level of shadow into love is truly Cosmic

At the beginning this takes a big leap of faith

and the intention to trust that the God and Goddess self has created this crucible which is revealed in the Astrology in great detail as to the degrees and planetary placements

I am now at a level of amazing awareness of code through doing this process

and…

My body cannot tolerate toxicity and toxic relationships

This is the process

It is the descent all of humanity is on

As the human being is stripped naked on all levels

there is a pendulum swing

The desert is visited for contemplation and awareness of what created this space

~ it’s all in any Wisdom Doctrine underneath the manipulated religious overtone

What happened to these Archetypes such as Jesus

is the process of human evolution

There are several stages to go through

The more the individual learns how to work with the self ~ the less emotional drama ensues because the individual has learned how to relate in a way that is ecological

and most importantly the first step of that process is to clear the emotional baggage

free up emotional expression

Let go of the loaded gun

Understanding one’s own code is key

The patterns

A phd in personal patterns

A master of oneself

This is what it takes 🙂

If you are ready to do that process pro actively

Here is a workshop designed exactly for that purpose

Balance Workshop

Remember it is on the cards right now for us all

People who are doing this work will not be famous or popular or leading the way in the general traditional ego framework because this is the framework of the pioneers 😉

That is the path at the moment and it is evolving quickly …

The ego doesn’t feel comfortable with it though which is exactly why it has to be done

Are you going to let your ego overrule divinity and stay “safe” for a while longer ?

Remember as you change everyone will notice and this will also create a wave ~ ultimately what role model do you want to manifest

What we do in life echoes in eternity

Gladiator

Can you learn and do “right” relationship ?