Connecting to various people by subscribing to blogs and newsletters really assists in my awareness and makes sense of the bigger picture for me.
I cannot be an expert in everything no matter how much my ego would like to be 🙂
In this journey of being independent and responsible in order to co create rather than co depend , there are many paradoxes at work.
Creating a power team of support really assists at this time
We can do this with people, food, information and well being grounded frameworks.
Boji Stones , Benzoin and salt baths help keep us grounded as we go through these energy gateways
Putting our bare feet on the ground
We allow ourselves to be held and trust that all is well with each step that we take.
If we struggle with that ~ we can tap on that 🙂
Trusting the process and getting out of our own way……..
Today has been a rollercoaster ride for me and I have experienced great highs and lows over the past few days of holidays and celebrations.
Part of me really wants to do that in a manner that is familiar ~ like a pair of old slippers 🙂
When I take part in that way I forget that much of me has moved on and cannot do that because it is not an energetic match 🙂
I cannot visit places I used to
I cannot eat food I once enjoyed
I cannot be around certain behaviours or people right now
that may change at some point…..
as I go through the spiral repeatedly and out the other side
We are all in a different light space now and our planet earth is on the moon journey of remembrance.
At this Aries time we are able to create new beginnings if we allow that to happen
and set sail into unchartered waters ~
unchartered by our ego selves that is 🙂
It has been a harsh sky today with the moon and Pluto conjunct in Capricorn……
hardball being played by these masculine , controlling energies.
If you have these planets in your chart or someone in your circle does……
you may have had a tough time
The good news is ~ if we go within and let go of any resistance we get to reshape our patterns
and let go of groundhog days.
I have been on the receiving end of these energies today and it has tagged so many past patterns for me
it has brought up a huge amount of emotion and so I have been tapping on that .
Lots of times in my life I have been blown away by the depth of people’s anger
and how that has been turned on me and I have been held as the sum total and focus of it all.
I couldn’t comprehend how someone who supposedly loved me could behave in that way.
I have also had that behaviour with others as my rage reached black hole proportions…..
I can honestly say that in most regards I haven’t physically bullied people since I was a young child
although I know I have used aggressive behaviour and I am owning that today
As we change positions we get to see the impact of that energy ~ to give and to receive
In the past this has devastated my world
Today I have a new approach
First of all to let those feelings out and grieve for how that part of me feels
I tap as I let the feelings out in my own space
preferably without ping ponging my pain back to the person who is involved
so I go away to a space and be with that emotion and let it out
Cleansing the wound as deep as I can
as is possible in that moment of my cog on my karma wheel
Letting go of needing to do anything but that
that is what is being sought…..
When I have cleared that I can speak of the behaviour and how I choose to relate with that person from this moment.
There is no rush to do that.
I have learned over these past few days that when I learn to communicate more openly, honestly and clear any blocks to do that…..
It does take time…..
more time that often the ego wants…..
it wants instant results
and often doesn’t want to wait until the cog wheel turns to align
It wants to push the envelope
When we didn’t feel nurtured and loved we adapted….
our ego evolved and created behaviours and beliefs that temporarily allowed it to deflect pain
we created a behaviour that allowed us to feel empowered, to feel good, to feel we didn’t need anyone
an avoidance mechanism
We are ready to manifest something else…..
The Heart Patterns are created differently from the ego
It is always challenging to be real
in the face of an overwhelming societal pattern that isn’t :-)……
We live in a time where speaking authentically gets an uncomfortable response…..
We simply get comfortable with the uncomfortable 🙂
Great reads I am experiencing
Cellular Awakening by Barbara Wren
Moontime by Johanna Paungger and Thomas Poppe
Two books with ancient wisdom that is our ancestry and it’s time is here and now
It is initiation time ~ time to burn off our fear by facing it
We have come through the dark ages and are heading for more light
We create new light circles
We head into new worlds
we pioneer new frontiers
Often this is painful
It gets easier
We recover quicker
We are re-calibrating our vehicle
and go for the jugular ……
Your own vein
Feel the pain
Feel it all
Go as deep as you can
Do the opposite of ego directions
go to the oily deep stuff
from this space
our wings are born
ready for us to fly high
We are in the last two days of the Mayan Solar Moon
We go into Red Planetary Moon on the 4th of April for a month where we see what our energy has shaped for us
Keep those Capricorn hooves firmly on the ground, nose to the grindstone, one step at a time
and intend to open your heart by going forward now
Love to you today Moon seeds
Dare to Dream