Blue Crystal Storm

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Blue Crystal Storm

Are you ready to work powerfully with this year’s transformational energy ?

Today reveals the codes and the structures for you 

for the whole year 

How clear are you today ?

Are there some crystallisation codes seeking to shatter and free you up ?

I am starting monthly workshops to share the journey and create supportive frameworks for people at this time of amazing transformation 

If you are ready to start to work experientially

and

practically

with the Tzol Kin 

More info here on my dedicated page 

Living the Tzol Kin 

If you are ready to book straight away

Here is the link

Today we are in a very powerful energy 

In the Mayan this is a mastery process sign 

It is code 19 

It is the code of transformation revealed through our emotions

The planet is Pluto 

The underworld 

Each year at the Autumn Equinox ~ this year in the UK , on September 22

The dark half of the year begins 

The Persephone Path into the underworld begins 

In the sign of Libra 

In the natural zodiac this is the 7th sign 

The 7th House 

The house of the mystic

Relationships

The sacred marriage process within 

We also have Jupiter going into Libra

This is the expansion and mastery process of balance 

We are also experiences powerful eclipses to assist this spiritual journey 

as we go into the feminine cycle 

Yin

What we have been creating in the Sun part of the year ~ the Yang 

We will now be receiving 

This may be painful

It may feel challenging 

This is also the gift and reveals where we are personally

living out of alignment with health and balance 

and so 

the potentiality is revealed 

to transform our ways of relating

The problem is also the solution

everything that hurts

also holds the key to healing

and

is revealing our personal soul journey through transformation of the ego 

Time to do the inner work ~ tis the season 

The next Spiral is initiated in

Scorpio Waxing Moon

at the time of the webinar

this is the Cancer Meridian

and

then going into the 

Leo meridian at 11am

this is 

10 degrees:

SCORPIO 10
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Destructive patterns come around to regenerative places when they are persisted in tenaciously, yet with an eye toward the destructive patterns destroying themselves. Immense wells of misery have accompanied you through the miasmas of being viciously against yourself. And when the misery and the hatred have spent their wastage and their fury, the inner-core self arises unscathed, and incorporates the darkness and the anguish into the ability to raise the dead, to generate miracles, to face everybody with the unfaceable. The veteran of severe internal battles turns around and acknowledges that there is something burning at the center of your being, an essence spark which is immortal and can survive and flourish in the thick of the worst, your own veiled yet potent inner light guiding the journey and never flickering.

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Remember that the only person who can transform

your patterns and beliefs is you

Others may help you and will do in many ways that do not seem helpful 

Once you understand this experientially

you will have achieved a significant understanding of personal alchemy 

Yellow Cosmic Sun ~ Ultimate Open Heartedness

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Yellow Cosmic Sun

 

We are in the last day of the current 260 day cycle

that began on 18 July 2014

How do you feel ?

 

In the UK it is Good Friday and as I write this we are in the count down

to the lunar eclipse and Full Moon in Libra

The next spin cycle starts tomorrow

If you go to

The Resources Page

I have created a document that you download from there 

that gives my interpretation of it 

Red Dragon Wavespell in Aries 

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We are in the last day of Red Solar Moon today 

the 9th Moon 

Tomorrow the new cycle begins

with Red Planetary Moon

literally the codes of manifestation of

The Sacred Feminine 

at a very symbolic time of

Easter 

New Beginnings

New life

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Today

We are at the human being evolutionary destination again

as this is a galactic portal day 

How the human being starts at

Red Magnetic Dragon 

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and goes through 260 days of living cosmic code 

consciously 

or

unconsciously 

and a

cosmic mix perfectly spun

being a channelled

avatar of consciousness

in flesh and bone

The Fool 

Aleph 

Quetzecoatl

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Setting out on the journey again

to create the world stage anew through each Fool’s personal life story 

The Universe does not require our life force to be sacrificed

simply that 

each person does the pattern

so that 

the web is woven 

over and over

with slightly different forms 

small steps over millennia 

evolving consciousness in it’s wake 

experientially 

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and so many paradoxes in this learning

everything matters

and no thing matters above another thing

The key now is to understand this process

Personally 

and to do it 

Personally

let go of being defined by our raw ego

who is simply a child 

and by the nature of this a very unconscious child 

full of shadow 

All of this is coming to light

now on planet earth 

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Which means we are in for some shake ups

to crack the death culture

wide open 

so that the ego led empire will crumble

and the balance will start to return

from the chaos and destruction

Time to let go of all that ego bulls*t 

The lies

The structure of false ego identities 

This feels huge at the beginning 

Walls are crumbling down and structures feel wobbly 

and that is why it is key to be pro active 

and work on the inner structure to create complex stability

It is time for new code

new myths

new ways

out of the ashes of the ruins and those at the top of the ego structures

will try to hold on for dear life

so time to be aware as all will be revealed 

To open the heart the individual works

with child issues

The shadow 

The biggest ego mask is denial of this and coping mechanisms

that will do anything to not feel emotional pain

All those who are believing that intellectual work will prevail

take heed 

It is an ego lie 

The ultimate mask

of the spiritual warrior of the mind 

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Is

mindfulness

more mind

more information

anything to not go to the dark recesses of the human beings life so far 

which is where enlightenment is

De construction 

un learning 

removal of indoctrination

and

masses education

and

lies about society and power structures

and

facing all that uncomfortable stuff of denial

that the individual does not want to face about the empire

and so keeps the empire going

Total madness

Now is the time for radical responsibility

Anything that is being held at arm’s length

averted

avoided

bring in for a death embrace

smell the breath of death 

and allow all the fear to be felt 

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remember that the human being dies

and all that means

because when the human race is in denial of this 

genocide is manifest in the world

and the human race

justifies this genocide

Conscious human beings

understand the balance

and the structure of ego

because of living the process and that without the awareness of death in every moment

there can be no true life 

Each Mayan Sign’s process

is revealed in the cross

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Yellow Cosmic Sun

Code 20

Higher Self is Yellow Seed

The mask of the coping mechanism

each child creates to be able to live in this unnatural society world of today

that is so far out of alignment with source

When the child becomes an adult the coping mechanism can begin to be transformed

if the individual is independent and safe enough to do so 

The true seed can then be revealed by transforming the existing patterns free from emotional and energetic distortion

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Red Dragon is the subconscious helper

Code 1

 

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Everything that is in our world is here to assist us move out of the mask 

live an authentic life 

Step one

Being able to actually be open to that way of seeing the world and trusting the process even though the ego may fear it and not understand it 

White Dog is the Challenge

Code 10

The codes of our birth tribe and wounding

create conditioned way of seeing and living in the universe

the building blocks of the world

that are essential to be transformed

otherwise nothing can change and history repeats 

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Blue Storm

The compliment 

Code 19 

The catalyst of emotional evolution 

Emptying our cup 

Emotional Freedom 

Free and easy flowing with all our emotions

letting go of trying to keep all our shadow emotions in check

in order to avoid upsetting others and rocking the boat 

The more we clear our past emotional events and make peace with our life

the more we can relate to others honestly free of rage 

free of passive aggressive childish games 

Doing our inner work is what this means

not being a “spiritual” person

who is pretending to be something they are not 

like all the politicians

like all the religious figures 

in history 

A human being is the same

as any other human being

We are all born through our mother and we will all die

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pic by Alex Grey 

 

 

all equal 

all with human mess ups 

so let’s be honest about who we are as a race 

and 

when all of us can be honest 

all will change 

Let’s be the change

and

live in balance from the heart 

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Yellow Star Wavespell ~ code personified

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Yellow Star Wavespell

Last 13 day code of the Matrix

Saw my first rabbit of the year out at the back of the garden 

Lamat is the Mayan name for Yellow Star

and one of the totems is the

rabbit

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The key to this last Wavespell

is seeing how our

Starcode

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is being allowed to manifest

it’s

clear code

which depends on how much self awareness the individual has…

in particular about itself

and the universe the individual lives in

and how much inner alchemical work the individual has done on all levels:

Intellectually

Energetically

Emotionally

to heal

since the individual’s journey began in this life

to create balance and flow

of the masculine and feminine within

heart and mind

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This is revealed by the fruits of those labours now

as to:

How we are living from the heart

How we are living from our ego

According to the level of personal consciousness 

we are currently co creating with

and…

it is all scripted

Do we choose our role playing ?

Do we select a part to play ?

Are we being played

as we are not yet willing

or ready to take responsibility for our life 

here on planet earth

It can be a bit of a mind spinner trying to figure it out 😉

there is a simple way 

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and if the individual is not feeling in a good place

then there is code that has been corrupted by the life experience so far

and this is the simple starting point

When the individual starts to be more and more present

and still

 

stops doing distractions

allows the thoughts and feelings that do not feel good

to be heard and felt

and if possible

accepted and understood

The individual realises that

everything experienced is a highly subjective soul journey

a personal mission impossible

designed uniquely

and

constantly updating

in a Quantum Universe

that is also reactive to the individuals that are a part of it

rather a complex living consciousness….

whereas the ego structured society created by the ego 

is often fixed 

and rigid

which can be abrasive

as the cogs jar

and create resistance

to natural rhythms

calcify and crystallise 

inside the human being too

stop the flow of life and love and light

which is what is happening to most of society’s structures right now

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At the moment I can see all my patterns

so significantly

and I am so tired of so many of them

and as I am going through layers of healing and understanding

I often wonder

what on earth was I thinking ?

and no doubt will continue to do so throughout my life

as that is the nature of an evolving learning journey

and

that due to this design

we cannot see everything all at once

otherwise we would not be a part of

the universal web

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that is also evolving

and that is what this amazing matrix of 

the Wavespell calendar

reveals

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Key to the way of working with the calendar and

the returning Sacred Feminine

is that we learn to commune with our universal self

and develop autodidactic learning strategies

and habits

that create new patterns

and

this is key

to being in relationship with the calendar consciously

and therefore in alignment with the universal codes

and energies

that the individual’s code is dancing with

there is a lot to learn

which takes patience and being open to new ways as an essential pre-requisite 

All the answers for our personal journey

and healing are already within us

this is the essence of the galactic teaching of the

Red Moon 13 year cycle we are currently in 

Red Moon Year 9 now

no need to look elsewhere

our answers are right there in our life so far

and this holds the seeds of our future 

all of our futures as we are all intrinsically linked

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Like all systems I can only present a theory of how this works

as is true of everything

we believe about our universe

this theory is ancient

and was hidden in exclusive mystery groups and is now…

like everything

emerging into the wider world

to be seen

We can propose a hypothesis of how something works

and then see it fulfilled in action

however as the universe changes

so do the frameworks

and that can be unsettling for the ego mind

The difference that makes the difference

is that once the individual starts to do the process

it becomes self~evident 

and the key process to the mysteries

of working with the matrix

is written in a philosopher’s stone

as is so often the case with clues left by the ancients 

the key is 

this is a process

as the soul journey is a process

The 13 clear signs of Pacal Votan

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As with any mystery training

the objective is to remove

any fear of death

which is the

human being’s constant companion

and a necessary part of staying alive

such is the paradox

and by removing fear

understand the nature of the cycle of spirit

that there is nothing to fear after all in the eternal picture

and

indeed to use the fear in the human experience

as part of the transformation of the self and therefore the soul relationship

because it holds all the answers

to personal freedom

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This knowledge becomes stronger during the process

that the individual personally goes through

and 

that is the only way through…

is

the enlightenment process

Each individual will go through

a shared process of transformation for all…

that is unique to them

and their choice before incarnation

Once the individual becomes aware of this choice

using their Astrology and Mayan Sign

the veil starts to lift

This is the initiation at a whole new level

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and  

with the current energies

you may be feeling intense emotions right now as we are in the

Solar Moon time

The 9th Moon

and the sign of this current Mayan Year

Things are coming around for completion

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The more awareness the individual has about their patterns

and the more can be seen

and this is key to working consciously 

 

 

I do not want to be made to live in this world that is created by pure raw ego

that has no conscious input

and that is the nature of things right now

and is so self evident

there is no need

to live this painful way

apart from

it is a match for the majority of human evolution

that has no conscious awareness

It feels so limiting and constraining

and

part of me is feeling this so deeply 

so strongly 

that so much in our world today comes from 

fear based rules

that are very unfair 

and we are locked in these death throes

of 

old ways

out of balance ways 

that have had their day 

Are you feeling this too ?

This is an essential part of the process

I am seeing this all around me 

in myself

my circle of experience

and the people I work with

who have experienced 

being manipulated

and abused

and being blamed for it by people who do not want to look at themselves

do not care about others

or anything outside of their own 

hedonistic

ego self centred 

ignorance

and these are the people who are stating and forcing

how the masses should live according to this narrow  view

Scapegoat Vibe 

 

Seeing people who feel lost 

Know on some level that their relationships are way off 

yet are struggling with all the collective damage 

that goes with that 

over decades

of demoralisation

It takes a heavy toll on all the levels of the energy body 

and 

can feel like a struggle right now to

keep the head above water 

because so many triggers are coming up everywhere

for these relationships 

that abuse the soul

and match soul destroying past events of all time

no escaping these as these are what are undergoing evolution

directly through human beings

and human beings have to find new ways to stand up

and  

bring evolution

by speaking of truth 

We have to go through it to create something from the ashes

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We are embarking on another spin of the wheel of the zodiac

This Wavespell

began in Aries Sun 

Aries Moon

at 24 degrees

in the North of the UK

ARIES 24
A harp which plays itself.
Joy and freedom are perfect companions along the greater way. Joy celebrates existence with a passion and a power and a fervent insistency. Freedom keeps on opening the context to make it more universal, more resonant, and more karma-free. Moving along this way is a creative feast of self-discovery and exploration of the edges. When selfhood is free to improvise and is open-ended, it is an unqualified blessing. You most especially demonstrate and embody a self-generative style and substance that is wildly needed and inspirationally infused into the collective bloodstream. So that we can get on with innovations and limitless worlds, and feel confident that there is somebody there pioneering the bold reaches forward who is too foolish to stop for anything.

This summation code reveals where we are currently stationed on our journey

as a result

of the 260 day spin cycle

that started on the 18th of July in 2014

Initiated in Cancer Sun

in the UK

and

Aries Waning Moon 

and the last time we were experiencing this

Yellow Star code was on July 05 2014

Here is a blog I wrote then

This is how the Mayan Matrix can be used in a very practical way

to see energies and cycles on the world stage

and most importantly on our personal stage

Our personal stage is the one creating the world stage

holographically

which is why it is so important that individuals understand this process

in order to work consciously with it

 

After the many astrological shake ups

over this time

It could be 

that you are feeling lost

having had many old ways

old identities 

old relationships

disappear

or seemingly self~destruct

or feel untenable

because they create such conflict and misery to all concerned

This can feel that the ego personality self is on shaky ground

and 

experiencing huge sadness

anger

and everything coming to a head emotionally

and all the usual ego fixes

not working

no longer valid

expired

This is all part of the process of dissolution

required to create

new ways

new worlds

As revealed in these pictures

of the asteroid belts

Everything broken down into fragments

to be reworked in a new way

These are remnants of old planets

If the myths are believed…

old civilisations

ground to dust

These Asteroid belts hold the key to the bridge we are building

inside and out 

calling the fragments back to wholeness

for human conscious evolution at this time

and

the return of the sacred feminine

which means for each individual

that things are starting to break down in the same way

New Myths

New Archetypes being formed

and all the clues are there in our natal astrological charts with the placement of

Goddess Asteroids

whose message is already here for many years

in beautiful works of art

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Here are the 3 Graces

who form part of the Primavera painting by Botticelli

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These paintings are magical 

and reveal so much

there are many healing plants for example

and an

alchemical process

is portrayed with the key players

The companion painting to this is

Pallas and the Centaur

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I have created links to web pages that explain in more detail

the key message 

is to 

create knowledge experientially

and go to the deeper places

where love is found

a very different way of being

to lust and surface ego materialism defining the individual

The Asteroid Belt is

found between Mars and Jupiter

Mars the planet of Aries

Jupiter the planet of Sagittarius

which is also the planet of

Blue Eagle 

The integration day which was yesterday

Blue Galactic Eagle 

Today as I write this it is the 9th day

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which is always the day of completion in every 13 day Wavespell

 

The day when the individual

can look back at the previous 8 days and see

what happened

what felt good

what did not 

and bring the creation code back to oneself

See how the inner code of the individual influenced the events

what beliefs were present

what was the universal self bringing for healing

Most focus on the law of attraction

in a material way

like a shopping channel

like a way of being in control of life

simply more ego modus operandi

so that life becomes manageable and :successful:

and I offer you this

that is not the nature of life or living the heart path

that is simply more empire building 

life has ups and downs

life events are here to teach the soul what creates what

in the human being framework

and

to master the wisdom of that and create new future worlds with that wisdom

what an individual does in life creates their life

and each generation takes on that creation system from their ancestors

for their time to shape the dna 

Humanity is now at an amazing time of evolution for this

Yellow Solar Warrior

is today’s sign

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Tomorrow is the day of manifestation

The heart’s desire

I am doing a mini workshop about this in Glastonbury

Seeing our bigger picture with divinity codes

I will create an ebook for it tomorrow and put it on the Resources Page.

This is a key step to being the star that we really are

Red Planetary Earth

It is one of my core patterns

It is a 13 year Cycle of mine

In the Mayan this is known as a Castle

Red Earth’s planet is Uranus

Red Earth is code 17 = 8

It is a Mastery Code

Caban is the Mayan Name

Here is a great source of info about the Mayan Signs

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One of it’s manifestations is a rainbow

In the Goddess Asteroids

this is

Iris

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She is the female version of Hermes

Here is a great article by Darkstar Astrology

which tells more about her and how to find her in your chart and how this is so key to integrity and living from the heart 

Caban teaches mastery of being a lightening rod

How to align with the liquid light activated by Uranus

It brings freedom and liberation from ego states and ego rules

Requires paradoxically…

that the individual is well rooted and earthed

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has a complex stable structure

and shows

where the individual is stuck on old programmes

and

codes that are ego based and obsolete

which is key to Code 12

Yellow Human

In 1993 Uranus and Neptune formed an exact conjunction 

at 18~19 degrees of Capricorn

which is key to the New Age coming in

CAPRICORN 18
A black leopard with green eyes.
Total intensity of inward and outward endeavor. Goal oriented, plans-intensive. Schematic, premeditated, comprehensive. Elaborately sophisticated at implementing vision in action. Aware of your own position–standing above, seeing it all, and magnificent at putting everything together. An old karmic knack coming in handy. A past master in the arts of manifestation. The emperor. Astute, adroit, keenly observant. So strategic and clever and cool that there can be corruption. If distortion sets in a subtle, insidious suggestion of self-importance and abuse of power will arise. Superlative consciousness needing advanced handling to stay truth-centered and immune to the false light of power.

CAPRICORN 19
A half-eaten piece of bread.
Utilitarian considerations. Observing the self through objectified eyes. Conditioning and programming. Talking self and others into following the program. Astute wheeler-dealer. You’re not there in it, picturing it as though it were something brutally obvious and commonplace. Decadence, barbarian tendencies. Sympathies with the consciousness of problems and issues, difficulties and struggles all-pervasive. Never content, always aware of what is not happening. The bitter perspective and relentless repetition of the litany of gloom and doom.

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pic by Catrin Welz Stein

When we accept everything that has happened so far

everything that is happening now

we let go of resistance

we surrender

and 

go with god and goddess wisdom greater than the human mind

that does not mean giving in to relationships that are not coming from truth 😉

The universe is infinitely wise

and we learn to go with it

or fight it

Resistance is futile 

Resistance is pure ego seeking healing

Everything that is happening right now is part of the divine plan

so….

Embrace it or die

Evolve or devolve

The Universe is simply revealing 

Us in all our star spangled

glory

Red Earth is the place the individual can be 

synchronised

with the universe

free of conditioning and this happens naturally as part of the process of clearing the shadow issues of the base and sacral chakra

that transform the solar plexus

where the veil is

the heart opens to more love free of conditions

as a result of making peace with our personal past

Anything that caused the individual to feel ungrounded

that the individual did not belong

unable to connect and feel safe in the tribe

and all the ancestral history of such ways

is resonating with this dis connection

awaiting healing

when that disconnection is still causing the individual

to look for connection up and out of the body

away from the here and now

repressing emotions because they were not allowed by the tribe

or society

then the individuals are out of synch with the truth 

that all are loved and held by the universe

because that is the individual’s vibe

because that is the individual’s belief and interpretation of events

because that is the untruth that the individual’s ego believes

that has been learned from so many so called doctrines

that are manipulated and distorted to create fear

until this clears 

nothing is clear

it is a mis interpretation that will repeat 

until 

integrated

We have four more days to go

in this Green Castle

before we begin the process again

Now is the time to see the writing on the wall of our palace of possibilities

to use an EFT Framework

and realise

that as we wrote these scripts

so we can write others

What is resonating for you ?

 

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pic by Catrin Welz Stein

Leo Waxing Moon at 19 degrees in the UK

as I close

LEO 19
A hummingbird feeding at a trumpet vine.
Heightened perception exquisitely poised, brilliant and as fast as can be. You have the genius of seeing things, knowing things, and being there. Overflowing with destiny-bounty earned over many lifetimes, yet you bring all this through with a fine-tuned ability to land in the situation at hand with only as much as can be worked with. You are guided to follow an extraordinary course through the world, which features the perfect opportunities to tap what is inside in so many different ways. The blessings, the grace, the heart’s wonder are superfull. As this way of being ripens and matures, it becomes even better. Then you begin to draw out from others the same kinds of marvels and wonders, and to make it possible for the vibrancies to spread and grow. With a wildfire capacity to spread good news and bring affirmative realizations wherever they are needed in generous profusion, you work with ever more effortless capacity to bring this world alive.

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Yellow Star Wavespell ~ Bee it

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Yellow Star Wavespell

Being the star that we really are 

Please click on the links or hover your mouse to reveal website links to expand on the info

Lamat is the Mayan name 

There are 20 Star Glyphs in the Mayan Wavespell

Lamat is number 8 

Which is all about integration

As above so below 

What is below is giving rise to what is above  🙂

The Tree of Life’s most important focus point for health and well being is the root area

This is the same in our spiritual path

Through our root work

Through our birth tribe 

comes our transformation and our flowering 

Be Do Have 

Whatever we are being 

Creates our doing

Creates our having

 

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This is universal law 

Whatever was our initiating family process 

continues until we transform it

Doesn’t matter what we “think”

the head is not our centre 

Our centre is our heart 

Our heart is what is creating our reality through our feelings 

You cannot un think fear

You cannot rewire fear 

It will simply mutate and get bigger until you feel the fear

and transform it 

HEART CHAKRA

We are now in the last 13 days of the Mayan 260 day Wavespell

that started on Halloween in 2013

The day of death

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Holy day

Where the veil is very thin between worlds 

In the planetary year which begins each year on July 26

we are in

Yellow Galactic Seed 

Taking our ego coping mechanism mask off 

Otherwise we get stuck in our role playing mode 

which is an ego construct that we created in childhood 

and which allows our ego to stay in denial 

of all it’s experiences of heart hurts since we were born

So in this last Wave we can feel to heal

and unearth the star that we really are 

If we choose

and that is the key Secret 

Lamat is the key code 8 

and so reveal the process we can use to integrate 

Be the change we want to see 

If we are being dishonest in any way then we are distorting our light code 

We are disconnecting from source 

We are using a cloaking device that may believe it is light

when in truth it is hiding our star shine 

Whenever we have emotions that are unresolved 

the essence of them creates distortion

there is nothing “wrong” with this 

this is what it means to be human

It is what it is 

If we are pretending to be pure positivity then we are being a false prophet 

If we are acting out we are by that very definition 

a thespian 

and that way of being creates drama

which is what the ego craves as an ego rub

Our society is addicted to drama 

We cannot change this until we be honest about it 

When we are in denial we are at a distance 

through disassociation 

and therefore are removed from the very thing that has the potentiality to transform us 

This is often called Victim mode 

Has the qualities of blame and shame 

Which allows the feelings to be passed along to the other 

instead of being felt 

When they are felt with an intention of healing and transformation 

 being conscious with them 

which is all that is required 

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they go 

and we are free of them 

and free of our past 

When we do not  do this process 

Our past is still with us

energetically and emotionally 

We take ourselves with us wherever we go 

Most of our planetary process is being made by child minds of distortion

Full of ego

In denial

and this way of being has no long term view

or common sense 

wants a quick fix

money no matter what the cost 

This has been happening for a long time and it is 

Time for a change 

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This is a great film to illustrate this point 

Human Beings have created a crisis with Bees 

and we are all involved in some way 

It is a society thing 

We are all in society and we are all being something in this manifestation

whether we are buying almonds from this mono farm

whether we are buying honey that is processed

A farmer in mono culture 

A consumer who is unaware of what they are buying

Instead of blaming each other 

It is time to overcome our differences and focus on a solution

What gave rise to this situation?

We may have been ignorant about it

We may have not realised or had any awareness about it 

We may have a lot of emotion about it 

We have all done things that aren’t “right relationship”

that is part of our learning process 

We do what we know 

and it is time to be honest about this

instead of denying it 

We all do the best we can and sometimes that is a really crap best 

When we decide to be honest and let all our feelings come up about whatever is feeling intense

we reveal a honeycomb 

our own catacomb 

deep in the recess 

the void 

and we start our cookie trail of healing 

This is the honey 

This is the raw food 

This is the seed of our discontent 

the reason for our sterile seed culture of control 

Our ego believes that when it controls everything it is safe 

This of course gets stronger

OCD 

OCD comes from big life events that had huge emotional impact for us

that we couldn’t control

so for example people in our close circle who died from Cancer 

Heart attacks 

and in some way we blame ourselves for what we didn’t do 

or they didn’t do

when in truth our ego’s biggest fear is death

death of itself as the little self 

When someone close to us dies our ego sees it’s own mortality up close and personal

If you are in close relationship now with someone with OCD 

it has a huge impact on that relationship

this has been my experience 

and I would not enable it and so the relationship ended at that point 

because no matter how I communicated my position with my knowledge and information

as a therapist 

and my own personal life experience 

the person’s inappropriate behaviour with me and my family did not change

because how can it

when they do not want to face their fears 

I know about OCD personally as this has been a coping mechanism for me 

It does

as all behaviour does 

have a positive intention to allow our emotional mind to feel good 

that categorically does not mean that it is healthy either 

We are all constantly swinging on the wild pendulum of the healthy spectrum here 

on our soul journey 🙂

At times of stress in my environment 

I created a coping mechanism of cleaning and creating harmony

This is also a learned experience from my Grandma who was a Libra 

She created sanctuary through her house 

It was immaculate 

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I love places that are clean and tidy and how it feels

when there is a place for everything and everything in it’s place

and my mind knows where to access things on a practical level

and I like wild messy chaotic spaces too 

but they tend to be somewhere I visit or create in my garden

When we clean in a physically

energetic way it is like a gym fix

endorphins pump

we get exercise

we get a high 

we feel good 

we have a lovely space to be in

the energy flows 

I discovered this as a child at home when my parents worked full time 

I created a harmonious space inside and out if I could 

this later led to property developing and gardening 

When I worked in the pub trade I did this in a bigger scale 

and in larger pubs this was exhausting 

When I had children I couldn’t live in chaos and  would make my timetable expand to fit my harmony rules

Sometimes this meant doing decorating and accounts at night 

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Way out of balance to fit my ego box 

I am still working with this energy because it is part of my pattern

as a Blue Hand 

I recognise it now 

I work with it 

I honour it 

I accept it 

and when the time is aligned I transform it 

This takes dedication and discipline and that is what is required to be the star that we really are 

This is not an easy path 

It takes courage to be the rose 

It takes strength of character to follow the golden threads of the labyrinth 

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and transform the minotaur of Taurus ego living 

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Pic by William Blake 

Now if we go deep into the coded message found in this ancient tale 

we see what this gives us to process 

If we choose to give in to ego living we die a cruel death 

It isn’t a judgement 

It is what it is

Our choices have consequences 

Our conditioning and ego masks are coping mechanisms created by an immature child mind set 

they allow us to survive by getting our emotional needs met in some way

but they do not allow us to thrive or ascend into our heart free of pain

The fabulous thing about being the star that we really are is….

We can access this at any time 

all it takes is our will to do it 

We don’t need anyone else to do it for us

We simply ask and it is given

It is our soul birthright 

open to all 

who are willing to walk their talk 

and learn in living practice every day 

to be the codes of truth 

the codes of well being 

and let go of

distorted truths

manipulation

deception

dishonesty

co dependency

and pretending to be something we are not 

i.e spiritual 

We are all human beings with sh*t going on

so lets cut the bullish*t 

It’s the only way we are going to create new ways of being is by owning our shadow 

If we don’t own it we cannot access it can we ?

and so we are doing ourselves a disservice 

because this is the enlightenment process

and the way to our shiny star potential

Here’s a great  video about the current Star show that is pulling our strings for our 

evolution process at the height of Sun energy:

So here’s some info about the Moon ~

our Luna assistant that helps us lift our veil as and when we are in perfect timing with our solar script :

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Pic by Tristan Elwell

As I started writing this we were in Moon in waxing Libra at 12 degrees

LIBRA 12
The burning of a bough of sage.
Wishful thinking. Hoping for the best. Looking toward a new start. Naive and gullible, you are suspended, quiet, receptive, and lacking in discernment. Desiring with authentic feeling to bring a resonant impulse to bear, yet hobbled by blind fervor and tunnel vision. Prone to easy ways out and ideological positions. You are oddly poised between sheer reflective inwardness and exaggerated attempts to come out with ways to get on with the shared reality. A bit confused and at a loss. But charming, endearing, appealing, well-intentioned, and idealistic in ways half delusional and half genuinely restorative.

Here is the website link :

Inside Degrees

 

 

When we align with the Cosmos we can get a glimpse of Cosmic Code free from any distortion

and we see it though our decoder ~ our human personal process 

so that is why the more we clear our personal process

with a personal daily process

the clearer we can access it

All of these natural process ways of relating

The cycles of the cosmos

are representing natural time 

and that is the essence of The Mayan Wavespell

and this includes the 13 Moon calendar

This is why synchronicities become common place 

we are in synch with what is 

and we are decoding 

deconstructing

de culting

from the ego artificially created matrix

and into the true source

So we are in recovery 🙂

 

The more we are enveloped in the ego matrix that is out of synch

the more resistance we feel

because it isn’t natural

and natural is where it is at 

because natural is the result of universal consciousness free of any man intervention

It is an illusion that the ego knows anything that is greater than universal consciousness

and pure arrogance 

We live in an arrogant world fuelled by masculine linear wounded child code just now 

and it’s time is the big turnaround 

Here is a great blog by a fellow Glastonian that reveals the alchemical codes of sacred geometry

When we start to co create and transform our chalice by healing our shadow 

the serpent comes back down through our crown and forms a circle of constant alchemical transition

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I am a Blue Hand and so my code is number 7 in the 20 Mayan Codex of Mayan Signs

which is why I have  Mercury connections and Thoth as one of my guides

Code 7 is the mystical gateway to the crown chakra 

to let the kundalini come in ~ the kundalini starts to rise at around 42 with Uranus opposition 

Great blog about that here 

Liquid Light of Sex by Barbara Hand Clow is a great read on this 

we allow the kundalini ascension process by working consciously with our seven solar seals ~ our chakras 

This is what is often known as

The Mid Life Crisis

The Glastonbury Experience 

We get another go at resolving our life conflicts and most times we repeat unconscious ego masks 

only at an older age 

generally with more life experience 

if we are ready to

we can see a different perspective 

and create different choices 

and at the same time get in touch with what is important to us

what drives us

and the truth of our shadow egotistical self 

seeking to be expressed 

let out of the closet

wolves in sheep's clothing

 

So if we always got emotional needs met with a lover 

a physical fulfilment of our root chakra 

we are going to keep doing that in some way until we learn otherwise 

and go into what that is really about 

and find a way to do that co creatively instead of co dependently 

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Pic by Klimt ~ The Kiss

As we bring what has previously been beneath our conscious awareness

and created behaviour that is devoid of consciousness …

and we know we are doing this whenever we are participating in behaviour that has a distinct absence of health and creates uncomfortable side effects ;- ) 

and we still do it because it is…

compulsive 

deeply coded in our amygdala 

then we are at the gateway of

Blue Hand 

We are at a choice point 

Do we want to carry on or transform ?

Woa that feels so familiar and lights up our brain feel good factor points

through our root chakra gateway 

and yet 

it doesn’t last 

When our enabler device has worn off ~

intoxication code of drugs “in loveness” we are confused as to what on earth was our reasoning

and this is an essential part of the awakening process 

We are experiential beings

and we are here to experience and understand

what comes from our choices 

on whatever level of consciousness we are ready to create with 

So back to today’s code of Yellow Star 

Here’s a fun exercise you can use if you choose and you know your Mayan Sign and another person’s that you are in relationship with in some way

Thank you Deb Lassiter for sharing this with me 🙂 

Take both your Mayan Seals 

so Mine is Blue Hand 7 and my partner is White Dog which is 10 

Added together is 17 = 1 and 7 = 8 

Yellow Star and synchro here ~ the number 8 has the * symbol as it’s upper case 

So together our Signs are co creating Yellow Star 

This is the gateway above and beyond the seven seals that has the potentiality to create harmony when we integrate our shadow 

We are then literally starting a process beyond the world of duality and polarity

as we resolve them within us and bring ourselves into balance 

Today’s Libra Moon 

Next we do the numbers ~ the galactic tones 

I am a 9 and he is a 18 total 22

2 and 2 = 4

Self Existing 

Yellow Self Existing Star 

Which is the code for creating co creative foundation structures 

free from co dependency 

which is so true of our life journey together 

This is the key code of the structure in the Red Serpent Wavespell 

which is one of two super powerful Waves that has 10 portals 

Here is a blog I wrote about this last year and wow what a synchrony

even though I didn’t have conscious awareness of that when writing it 🙂

Love this 

We can do this with our family circle 

friends circle 

something seeking transformation and feeling uncomfortable circle 

It reveals the code

Knowing our birth families code is a great bigger picture tool too 

and we all need to focus first on ourselves 

because that is the key to alchemy

Know Thyself

 

 

So The next thirteen days gives us the potentiality

to be the star that we are 

 

gloves off 

mask off risking it all for true love 

of ourselves

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Day two ~ tomorrow July 6 is the day of new learning

and often our challenge

 

Red Lunar Moon

this will reveal what we are working with

in the new year Red Solar Moon starting July 26

being the beacon of light essentially

which in itself is number 9 of completion so a big year ahead 

 

 

 

Day 3 on Monday ~ also Scorpio Waxing Moon

is our day of alchemy potentiality

White Electric Dog 

Bring the Day 1 and Day 2 together and create a cosmic mix ~ How are we being our Solar Star energy ? What is your Sun Sign 

How are we seeking transformation with our luna self  ~ What is your Moon Sign ?

What can be possible to shine the light of our tribe and unconditional love free from our conditioning

and as a side effect ~ let go of drama 

because 

there is no emotional need for it 

as we are following our Sirius Star and living our soul mission

instead of trying to live from the heart on the ego route 

which is not possible as it isn’t connected to source coded sustainability 

More about the Dog Days of Cancer here with this great blog by Darkstar Astrology:

and talking of Heart Days 

Leo energy is in for an amazing time of expansion with Jupiter in Leo for a year starting on July 17 

numerology ~ 8 🙂

More info on this great link here

So Leo always brings the new Mayan Year in starting July 23rd for Leo Sun Sign

which happens to be my sign 

Still time for you to join me in the Heart Chakra for my yearly retreat on July 25th 

If you wish to have a deeper look at what year on your 13 year cycle you are on

and what is coming in for completion with you in the forthcoming year 

Circle of Completion 

Wishing you an amazing 13 day spiral of getting to the heart of your star energy 

 

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Yellow Cosmic Sun ~ love

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It is the last day of the 260 day Tzolk’in Cycle. The Yellow Star Wavespell.

It is also a Galactic Portal Day so we can be wide open with all that is to what is seeking a shift in our vibe today

a cosmic upgrade for even more open hearted va va voom

Tomorrow on Samhain or All Hallows Eve , we go into a new cycle…. and this energy of the thinnest of veils between the world’s of the earth plane and other planes, is the energetic flavour of the whole cycle.

Tomorrow the circle begins anew and if we choose we can speak to our personal ancestors and sincerely ask for their view about what could die now ~

  • what is really timely for release and renewal ?

  • what can they see now they are free of the earthly realm roadshow from a different perspective?

  • what can we learn about their past life experience…..

that is within us…..

our double helix divinity code?

Where has a belief and behaviour outlived it’s usefulness ?

Hereditary means so much more than blood and bone ~ what have we inherited from the past generations that is no longer true now and maybe was never ours?

What are we holding energetically that is causing us to live painfully in the dark shadows ?

Waning moon in Virgo today so a perfect time to see the Saturnian rings of earth bound grooves we may be stuck in.

This is the dark moon energy coming in so we can be in that psychic place.

No need to worry about release ~ we have a New Moon in Scorpio coming on Sunday 03 November

Language of love and heart or ego ?

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A common question I hear ~

How do I know if I am coming from my heart and soul space or my ego ?

The ego has a framework like everything else ~ it has a pattern. It is often very misunderstood and maligned our ego assistant.

An immature ego creates distortion of the language of light. It creates refractions like a prism. There is nothing “wrong” with this framework. It allows the duality game of life to take place on earth at this time. It is a very simple, child like framework of opposites and this is what we all transit through as children in our own unique way.

As we journey we ~ hopefully ~ learn through our engagement with the planet and everything on it.

If we don’t learn we repeat until we do.

We are part of our universe and we share some things with other aspects and somethings are unique to humans and there is a common belief that ego is one of our unique programmes.

Our human journey has often involved us borrowing ways of being from our animal world to create an ego belief system such as “survival of the fittest” ~ to justify ethnic cleansing, bullying and genocide.  

To introduce a superior system of religion to “lesser knowing mortals”  ~ a bullpoo manipulation framework in full scale and still expanding all over the globe.

There is no such ego framework amongst animals. Animals are depicted as lesser beings by ego dwellers as they fail to understand how limited their own perspective is.

It is, some of , mankind’s arrogance to place itself as an elite being above all others with a consciousness. Everything in our universe has consciousness.

This is going to become more and more evident now to all. Just reading Anastasia , watching Earthing film and loving the Barefoot connections that I have been experiencing more of this year on my beautiful land . I am so excited by this. I feel like a child again when my connection with the world of imagination was so vivid ~ anything was possible 🙂 

Here are two amazing films that really touched my heart . Hope they will for you too ~ please share them far and wide.

This healing is available for all ~ get those bare feet  on the earth and ground yourself lovelies ~ simples.

 

 

 

 

When we see our immature ego aspects and patterns , we raise them to our conscious awareness so we can transform them to maturity over our lifetime.

The ego is self serving and a survival mechanism  and as such , places it’s human being body and mind first and that is true for every living thing in one sense so ……

we could say everything that is living and breathing has this ego aspect.

It keeps the living being alive so …..

it can live.

Without life there is no life here 🙂 Simple.

This ego aspect for the animal world involves hazards that are general patterns and over millennia create a programme of harmful patterns to avoid and to enable that protection programme of millenia of experiential learning ….

the physical being of the animal is overridden by consciousness that is at the same level of awareness as breathing. It isn’t something constantly accessed unless needed because if it was…..it creates too much overload and distraction.

We can see living examples of this in human beings when they develop OCD, phobias and are on the very sensitive spectrum of autism for example.

Life becomes very challenging just to complete simple details. If you feel like you are barely keeping moving forward then this is a good time to shed a load 🙂

There are lots of reasons why this happens too and all of this way of being…..

that the immature ego sees as “wrong”

are simply to create learning so that we can evolve and explore through understanding.

That is why we are here.

The more we take heed of our immature ego and the more we can transform that space .

Our ego is our best friend and here for that very purpose. Without it we would die and our evolution on all levels wouldn’t be possible.

When we let go of events in our past that have caused us physical and emotional wounding , our ego matures. It has had the experiential experience and has survived it ~ grown stronger as a result.

It moves us to a space of thrive ability and moving towards rather than moving away from pattern.

As we move towards what we love and open our hearts part of that process involves clearing our inner space of fear patterns and…..

this opens up our inner world and allows more room for courage and flexibility ~ patterns that our spirit self loves to enhage with.

We let go of trying to run away from our pain and we are ready to stand still and

bring it on 🙂

We are ready to speak our truth.

In this universe of ours we have cycles for this.

We have sun signs, moon signs and lots of other planetary times. We have seasons and we have a time specially prepared to be in a space of new learning.

Only the immature ego that has forgotten it is part of the universe and struts it’s stuff and tries to force it’s will over the universe ~ like Icarus flying too close to the sun ~ insists on a different framework with it’s own timeline that is out of synch with the language of light.

The more we ignore this pushy little diva and trust that our universal mamma knows the way for us

because we are she 🙂

and the more we learn to re educate our relationship with our god and goddess self and trust our instinctual intuition.

When we are ready to receive then our sacred feminine will usher in

If there is too much ego noise getting in the way and no time and space for this to happen

Then it does not happen.

It is our free will and our choice to play the soul game.

Most people on our planet are not aware of this and totally immersed in ego living. A few are intellectually aware of awakening and still living an ego framework ~ part time intellectual players at weekends. Some are going deeper and energetically and emotionally transforming.

There is a long way to go …..

and if you are feeling jaded about this….

accept that. It is tough love time on our planet.

Until we love and accept our feelings and our ego as individuals, the language of light cannot be fully received ~ it can be intellectually known of course.

To fully receive it ~ we have to be it 🙂

Are you longing  for intimacy and to be the true love you seek ? There is only you that is in the way of that happening 🙂 Beliefs around being intimate that you have learned about yourself ~ that are totally ~ illusional 🙂

I am seeking a couple more people on my current coaching circle to synchronise with. This is an exciting time of  digging deep to pave our way for Spring. If you think that may be you and you are ready to remove some layers and are open to working with your shadow please get in touch. It’s an amazing time to be alive and I know we are going to be in for a rebirthing year in ways we hadn’t imagined.

Love to you all and your love light shining 

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Yellow Star Wavespell

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Yellow Star Wavespell

 

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A powerful day today with the last wavespell of this current Tzolk’in 260 day cycle . It’s a full moon and a lunar eclipse and the ephemeris pictured shows you where the planet’s are today and how this energetic signature will affect certain parts of the planet more than others.

With this Astrologers’ perspective Peter Stockinger ~ how it will affect the UK in particular for four months and women especially in that region. I chose this at “random” today ~ what I intuitively felt to do and share.

Everyone’s perspective is purely unique of course and the majority of the planet still do not understand this very basic premise:

We all have our unique perspective based on our life experience

We are not taught self~development in most Western schools

We are not encouraged to be a free spirit or create independency patterns in our dependent patriarchal led society

We are not advised to be heart led and be

the star that we truly are

because that doesn’t serve our consumer led, ego driven way of life in the majority of our planet earth at this time 🙂

However…….

times they are a changing and if you choose now

 

you can do this for yourself by learning

about your energetic signature

 

and your star seeded mission at this transit time.

Why would you want to do that you may ask ?

 

What will happen if I change my focus from giving , being in my masculine and the outward pattern of being ego led?

 

Outward pattern focus on ………the stuff outside of us the individual

and this is what most people are still doing because this is familiar, ingrained and what they know

most people are doing this with their “spiritual journey” and believe they are “following their path”

For most this is still the ego outward pattern.

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Anything outside of you…..

is well

ya know sort of

outside 🙂

and

will only influence your way of being for a short while until the ego realises it is a temporary fix and wants something new.

We learn these ego fixes as a child and they are

coping mechanisms .

The flavour of this heart dwelling wavespell  ~ it is in the fifth green segment of the Mayan Wavespell calendar, is to show us what our ego coping mechanisms are so we can outgrow them and instead of “coping”

we can thrive 

by creating an inward focusing pattern that is totally self sufficient in terms of each individual getting their emotional needs met from within.

This is truly “sustainable” …

as it means in the bigger picture

We no longer “need” to consume planet earth to feel good and define

ourselves through “stuff”

 

This is the beauty of learning about patterns and sacred geometry.

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Again, at this time, many people are still on the intellect track of cramming in information about sacred geometry and the fibonacci sequence, the golden seed and so on.

Nothing “wrong” with that.

It won’t create heaven on earth for you in isolation.

Anything that happens as a singular focus, in isolation and linear is a masculine pattern and is more often than not ego led and definitely mind led 🙂

This is what patterns reveal and enable us to let go of debate, duality and ego arguing about “the best” way . “the right” way and all the ego stuff that gets in the way of

creating heaven on earth and harmonious co creating.

If we haven’t healed our inner conflict around this within us and therefore creating self~ confidence and high self~ esteem from core integrity then this will continually keep showing up outside of us to show us that 🙂

This is the true meaning of law of attraction 🙂

It is impossible to live in peace and harmony outside if it doesn’t dwell within us ~ 

harmony code 🙂

If you have spent a life time creating rose beds with the intention of having an Eden space ~ only to have a farmer continually bulldoze it, neighbours spray it, or a new development show up just as your prize flower is ready to open like in the film Dennis the Menace 🙂

(If you haven’t seen this I thoroughly recommend it for bellylaughs)

Here is the clip of the moment:

Maybe it is time for you to realise that this is you creating this reality inside out ?

your inner slides require a change of view  instead 

because the inside creates the outside 🙂

Instead of blaming “the villain”

and  “the menace” which is our inner child “dennis”

the part of us that has never grown up and is stuck in that space in the past

and bringing us that information today so we can free ourselves and integrate

blame ~ is an ego mask of avoiding the feelings

then we can do something else

heed the message

and let go of shooting the messenger

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everyone benefits as we become responsible on all levels

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What does create heaven on earth for us as individuals is to use a holistic, integration pattern ~ an inclusive one that involves the whole person.

To initiate your inward focusing pattern can be as simple ~ simple is the heart path pattern ~ as

Learning about your pattern 🙂

The more in depth you go and the more you can see exactly what is happening for you at a particular time and how you can create a change in circumstance for yourself.

When we are creating a pattern and this pattern creates a behaviour  there are outcomes that match that.

Karma

If you want to change the outcome you have to change the pattern

Here is a document I created  that you can use if you choose with a video

This is how the universe changes and as we are a part of the universe

yea ok ho hum ~ it ain’t rocket science is it really 🙂

and each one of us doesn’t need to be super human in a mind capacity, to understand how our universe works either

because we are superhuman 🙂

Lovely paradox.

We all have the same access to everything even though our way of living at this time may not seem to hold that vision

underneath the illusion version

it is true

but only

if we believe it and half the power of that self belief

by activating our spleen energy in a healthy way instead of

venting it from an ungrounded , shame perspective around stuff we cannot stomach

The spleen energy is emerging now with the sacred feminine earth energy 

that we create within us and in turn without.

Being a hero within meeting our own dragons is a very different perspective from being on a crusade fighting the good fight for “others” like the Salvation Army modus operandi for example.

When we look at our Starcode ~ our natal chart of where the planets where when we arrived on planet earth ~ a shooting star of consciousness, then we can be consciously aware of our star seeded mission this time around.

When we are ready to do this and walk our talk ~ use this conscious information to create an outcome of living in harmony ourselves ~ everything starts to become crystal clear.

Knowing your Mayan Sign is another way of doing this.

 

The Mayan Wavespell is the Matrix code and the more we learn about it and our individual code and be it every day 

It becomes second nature and we are being the change we want to see in the world.

 

When we start with the Starcode we get lots of information and we start to use a bigger picture perspective of our energy signature. We are so much more than our Sun sign.

When we focus simply on our Sun Sign ~ we are connecting to the masculine linear ego led pattern because that is what this energy is.

If we have chosen to evolve our consciousness in this lifetime and awaken to our true nature then this is where we start by learning about our initial focus of what this energetic signature brings for us.

There will be expansion of this energy and key times of this expansion.

Do we choose to live as an ego being who lives in the outer pattern and expands the ego consuming way of being to try and fill the void within us that the ego creates as we experience

many events that feel hurtful to us .

Do we at some point decide to look at what has created that “disharmony” relationship and how we can transform our experience through knowing about how “we work” on all levels?

When we have this inner focus and lead from within then all is revealed as we transform.

That is the secret.

As we change our energetics within we expand our feminine and we allow ourselves to receive instead of giving all the time.

We develop our circle in balance .

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We give and receive in equality.

We become balanced in our masculine and feminine as we transform our ego events.

We heal our shadow.

This is the alchemical lead into gold process that creates heaven on earth for us.

The more time we spend on ourselves ~ knowing our true energetic signature and unveiling it through clearing off any emotional event “distortions” and the easier our life flows and the more magical life becomes.

We cannot see and experience the matrix fully without unveiling our own matrix because……

to see it, to live it fully ~ we have to own it

and to own it….

requires owning all of ourselves, our behaviour and our life so far ~ all our behaviour.

We cannot “go” anywhere else until we “go” here 🙂

We can of course create the illusion of going and having by using money and stuff but as soon as that disappears ~ and ageing brings that on which is why we currently age to reveal how we really feel . It is part of the ego transformation process.

When we don’t need that process it will end.

Life can seem cruel to the ego personality ~ because the ego personality has expectations and ideas is all ~ it has rules and regulations about how life “should” be  in resistance to “what is”

If someone dies young often the resistance is ~ they went before their time

How can that be?

The truth is ~they died and there will be many reasons as to why that happened for their and other people’s learning experience I believe.

Our ego may not like that.

It uses a coping mechanism to deal with it instead of feeling the feelings. It disowns the feelings of fear, sadness, anger and labels the experience as “wrong”.

Byron Katie’s framework “the Work” is a great way to see this.

Whenever we have an experience we often use this pattern of focusing on the outward and avoiding the true direct nature of the feeling which is

fear of our own ego personalities death and what that could mean for us.

A thriving mechanism can be to own that for ourselves, face it , feel it and let it go.

Indigenous people do not have this mind construct and in many tribes they do not have language for future experiences. They live in the now. 

They don’t do “fear” in the way our western society does ~ that doesn’t mean any lack of awareness of danger.

When we live in the now we do not fear the future  and this creates a different reality.

Our western way of life ~ our city system ~ does not allow this and we have to plan our future.

Another reason we cannot be in the now is because we haven’t cleared our past emotionally and therefore energetically

and this energy is constantly triggered in our day to day through current events that cause us to “time travel” and re experience these past events.

We have no room in our day to day because our “hard drive” is full up and we are running slow with all our human hardware over burdened with these big data files taking up all our energetic space.

This is happening in the collective as each individual hasn’t “cleared their cache” 

At this time of the year in the Northern Hemisphere , we are in the Persephone Underworld.

This is the time to go into our lower chakras and vent our spleen , visit our emotional wounds and clear our cache.

It’s time to connect to our Aries , youthful energy and revisit Aries time earlier this year and see what came up as our challenge.

As we leave the gateway of Pisces energy in February and March each year ~ Pisces reveals our dreams, we immediately encounter our growth area of where we expand to create them. The challenge that is our next step on our evolutionary journey and what is required to be the Hero and Heroine in our own Mystical Movie of life.

Our own Mystery school 🙂

So today we can travel back and remember.

To use the garden as a metaphor ~ we may be planting bulbs now for Spring. What do we choose to bloom in the garden of our heart?

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We can also be aware of our challenges over the past few days, weeks and maybe there is a pattern emerging.

The universe ~ which we are part of ~ is bringing us an opportunity now to create new patterns and free ourselves from old karma.

When we started our journey here this time we had a code and a mission that we chose to experience.

To know this experience we start with the wounding process:

We choose a family to be born into that creates a pattern of being that we are choosing to evolve as a collective consciousness.

There is nothing “wrong” with this pattern. It is what it is. Our experience of it may feel “wrong”, it may feel hurtful and maybe ~ as with the majority of relationship patterns on planet earth at this time 

It may have felt disrespectful and unloving. It may have felt we were dishonoured, told we couldn’t be who we were.

It could be that we experienced being:

bullied, manipulated, controlled, abused, unsupported emotionally and physically.

In order to create new patterns in this duality framework that we currently live in 

We have to know the pattern to transform experientially.

Then we have a choice.

We can carry on being that pattern and live it with our behaviour ~ chip off the old block 🙂

We can carry on being that pattern and start to become aware of it and decide to change it at key times in life ~

become a life ~ long learner and transformer 🙂

We can carry on being that pattern and start to become aware of it and pretend we are changing it by doing the same thing in a different way ~ wearing an ego mask 🙂

All of these choices are important on planet earth because they allow the game of life to be played.

Each perspective is equally valid and valued ~ one cannot exist without the other.

As each perspective evolves through the interaction with each other

everything changes

that is why all we need focus on is ourself because when we change ~

everything changes 🙂

The more inner emotional work we do and the more we understand this and let go of trying to control the others because our times in the past around being controlled are healed.

It is the only way ~ you cannot do this with intellect because it isn’t how the emotional mind works.

 

What you choose is your destiny 🙂

I am in the process of creating some new videos to help people who want to help themselves by enhancing their inner emotional therapist ability 🙂

They are on their way and I will put them up as and when they become available so please bear in mind that you may wish to choose to use them for a particular emotional event ~ when they are all there 🙂

We all know what our issues are and now is an amazing time to clear them and thrive .

Ways I co create with people choosing to thrive now:

I use Emotional Freedom Technique and have had a fabulous journey with it.

I create workshops for people who are brave enough to face their demons by facing their shadow.

These are time sensitive and contain the astrological and Mayan information.

They have coaching frameworks for self development and to focus with intent on what you choose to create and let go of

I work one to one in person and on Skype

Today’s workshop is Persephone Path

I work with people who are ready to do what it takes to know themselves , empower themselves and let go of needing other people to do that for them.

Over several years of working as a holistic therapist and being a mother and a woman in relationships I have learned a lot about co dependent ways of relating.

I have worked my way through lots of addictions and ego stuff so my school of life is experiential and I offer this as “a” way.

If you are feeling inclined to ride this powerful Saturn in Scorpio Snake time please get in touch.

It is my honour to work with you and the wonderful thing about this way of working is we both get a shift in one to one work.

In circle work we all get to create a synergy that is greater than our individual parts ~ true Gestalt.

I am another you and I love co creating .

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The sooner we all go into ourselves and the sooner we feel real 

in that space of grace

we are self supported 

and nothing can burst our bubble

of beauty 

when we love ourselves

everything is beautiful 

and we trust our universal process

love to you and your transformation

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Illuminating the shadow

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Yellow Cosmic Sun day and the last day in this star wavespell. How are you feeling today? That is the most important question of all if we are truly living from the heart instead of being led by the head.

The energy of this mayan sign is all about questioning the intelligence so we can be in our heart wisdom.

Letting go of being ruled by the limited linear mind and training and transforming our inner dog so it leads us to maturity and love.

We are always going to be bounding off into the shady woods to learn and digress and go round and round for a while as the path is a spiral……

Do we choose to reign in our temper tanting child or live forever in the world of it’s making…..?

Today I have learned of two people dying and I feel this can be such a cosmic nudge to remember ,that although we are infinite beings we have a finite life as this person and what is really important often gets lost in the mundane trivia that our mind likes to wallow in as a way of avoiding total emotional immersion.

I see it every day in Glastonbury where people weave a fantasy land to live in to avoid facing their sadness at a life that has created realities they didn’t want.

What most people don’t realise is that in any moment this can be transformed into the life of their dreams….but only if they get real.

In writing these blogs it is my intention to raise awareness of the emotional evolution we are in, as through my own personal life journey I know this is a truth.

Whether you believe it or share it  as your truth….is of course your personal road trip.

For me I will do whatever it takes to open my heart and live from love and that has involved a close encounter with my shadow side every day for years. There are no short cuts and no skipping over and sidestepping the painful parts of our lives because that is what we are here for to live the darkness in order to reveal the light.

Let’s hear it for the shadow 🙂 Chatting with several people in the past few weeks it seems we have a circle of consensus…..time to let go of biting our tongue when we smell a bullpoo reframe and manipulation…. and we all recognise it  🙂 This year let’s create workshops, opportunities and frameworks to raise reality awareness and in the process we are creating the potentiality of intimate open hearted relationships. Rip off the corsets of repressing our true selves and hold the love space of taking whatever goes with that. It can feel uncomfortable simply because it is new ground.

Everyone knows what their stuff is. We all know what has hurt and what we don’t like about ourselves and our shadow always took shape in our childhood. It isn’t rocket science. It is the same for everyone although we each have our own unique experience. There is no need to come up with elaborate structures or methodologies to release this as all our shadow seeks is to be heard , loved and accepted. To come in from the cold and feel the warmth of inclusion. This is the integration process.

Very simply it’s about love and when we see it we know it. We know when someone is in an open heart space.

The myth of any need to manipulate someone is starting to fray at the edges because people have been around long enough to be on the receiving end of that abusive behaviour. Manipulate ~ lie basically.

Over millenia we have created amazing methodology to explore this shadow side and each generation has evolved and shared insights into our psyche. There isn’t really anything new under the sun only a slight twist to technique.

The key answer I have found is to simply let the emotion out and feel ok with expressing it and I still have work to do in this for myself . I am still uncomfortable with being the one who is unpopular because they speak about things that other people don’t want to deal with. The more we let go of past emotional events and the less emotion is in there to vent and ideally we can keep clearing it so we don’t have volcanic eruptions.

Today I am sharing a story with you about my journey as a therapist with the intention of illustrating the difference between what we call intelligence and heart wisdom which is what today is about and it’s also a portal day so a super gateway to allow time to be transcended. and create a huge shift. From what I understand of the nature of our universe this is how we evolve….through each of our own personal evolutionary journeys weaving together.

In our society we have such a high regard for intelligence as a sign of elitism. We measure a person’s ability with how many exams they can pass and what grades and so many people are excluded because they do not fit this box. Today in our society children who are classed as having behavioural or learning difficulties are seen as deficient and often a problem in some way as they don’t fit the norm and are labelled accordingly. In over 40 years the way the majority of our educational systems work with these out of the box children hasn’t changed …..not the ones I have seen.

Don’t you find that amazing? That in 40 years we haven’t evolved in this area? This is a passion of mine.

How much of your childhood education has been of any real practical use to you as an adult?

When we look closer at our educational system in the UK we can see how it was a duality system for the working classes and elite and birthed. For the former shaped to create a holding space for children so their parents could work on many levels. The subjects were ( and still are in many ways) chosen for the industry in the locality and how their workforce would need certain skills. A sausage factory of Pink Floyd The Wall ilk. I have watched this film many many times with a good friend who certainly had ( and still has ) a wild child very well developed side.

Many people today are still very ignorant as to how this system has no individual free spirit ethos. It isn’t there to create self-empowerment, learning about relationships, how to handle life and how to focus on self esteem in our young people….indeed the opposite is true. We aren’t often privvy to what is driving  the powers that be and their curriculum and sometimes we are so used to being led that we don’t think to ask or challenge …..

When we raise our heads above the parapet we are often humiliated and criticised….what do we know? Poke at the illusion bubble and risk the Wrath of the mask wearer.

Every child knows the simple truth of love or fear because it is an innate knowingness that is often worn over time on the way to adulthood and then can be reclaimed.

Imagine an alternative where young people learned how to do what they loved and about their star seeded mission. How to follow their internal emotional sat nav to live authentically and create new foundations. Instead of one size fits all and you have to be a square peg in a round hole.

In ancient times we had mystery schools teaching of sacred geometry and the building blocks of our universe. We had initiate training for the soul journey to assist our planetary evolution and all of these structures were evident because it was the perfect time for that to happen…..just as now it’s the perfect time for it to return. It is all there magically in waiting for us to energetically match it and so awaken . We have the keys to turn the mechanism and breathe life into the form.

Now is the time for us to reconnect to who we really are so we can live from our heart place and let go of feeding a system that simply perpetuates slavery to the ego.

We are all equal under the sun no matter how unequal people’s distribution of wealth may seem.

Many coaches focus on finance as the way to go because that is a model of excellence and supposed emancipation….I have yet to meet a financially wealthy person who is happy more than not and living an authentic life and although I have never reached the dizzy heights of fame or what is known as financial security ….in my short life I really understood very early on that money cannot buy you anything truly worthwhile because it is an ego created mechanism and as such a manipulation.

We have so many written words, songs, scriptures and gurus from the past teaching us of this and yet how many of us are actually walking the talk of it?

So back to the story of my learning as a therapist. In previous blogs I have shared how I started out wanting to focus on psychotherapy and very quickly realising that although this can give understanding it is only a piece of the puzzle. I added NLP to my tool box that gave further understanding and more techniques….and there came lots of ecology questions for me with using those powerful strategies. If I have ecology questions I find myself going round in circles without a way forward until I can resolve them. Here I learned EFT ( tapping) and this started to show a way forward.

As a fire sign and a blue solar hand in the Mayan calendar my energy is about transformation. Talking therapies for me have to have an outcome to work towards that creates change. This is my energy blueprint and my gift. Simply talking in an unfocused way isn’t my domain.

The teachers I chose were heaven sent to show me their personal techniques of using EFT and again this is where heart wisdom reveals itself . We can all learn the same technique and we will all use it differently because of our starcode and our life mission so if you have ever ruled out a system because of an individual’s methodology  I urge you to seek and be persistent with finding a person who has a different delivery of it because they are out there. To take responsibility for our own learning is the Aquarius way.

In the past I have had many teacher’s who did not meet my expectations in their delivery of course content and as a child I quit some courses and dropped out of sixth form. Revisiting that space as a mature student  I did not limit my learning because of my teachers approach. I love what I learn and so it is easy to learn it and this is the difference that makes the difference. I decide my outcome in life through my actions and attitudes and one of my strengths is persistence. Sometimes life doesn’t match my desires and it often delivers something I wasn’t expecting…my outcome  in life is to open my heart and share that process so I always move in that direction even though it is often going back to go forwards.

 

When we have our training as a therapist most schools insist on doing personal introspection and discovery first because it is key that we know how this process works so we can share it. Many courses today skip that and state that isn’t necessary. This is especially evident with Alpha male pattern NLP schools. They like to sell a course  to completion in a couple of weeks with no or little work on the person first and if we look at the bigger picture of that we can see what a nonsense it is. If a person has no life experience then they simply haven’t lived long enough to transform intelligence into the next stage of integration through experiencing it on a daily basis in a practical way. If they haven’t ever had relationships of a therapeutic nature with people and learned about person centred approach and empathy then how will they pass that knowledge on? Most people I know who have done this are simply looking for a short cut and to manipulate others and have zero awareness of their own patterns. They actually don’t care about other people and don’t want to hear any content because it is boring to them. They simply want to “fix” the other person that is pushing their buttons and feel powerful and they are great teachers in this process….only not about what they think they are teaching….

Most people I have met who have been on these types of courses have lots of parlour tricks to play with people and very little interest in how that can deeply affect the person they are practising their newly learned trickery on. I know in the bigger picture we can say that is the law of karma in action….and if we are to create changes in this then this way of being is not of love and respect or any form of wisdom and maturity system I choose.

When we have done a good delve into our inner work ~ and this I believe is a lifelong peeling of the onion skin process ~ then we can start to work with other people. All the perfect people show up so we can both evolve as we are always an energetic match in some way. This is a true win win when this happens and a beautiful process.

I had one client for over a year on a very regular basis and each time they challenged me. I learned so much from this relationship and as I offered person centred therapy and believed strongly in it , I always let them lead as to the outcome they wanted. Over time I noticed that whatever we supposedly solved in an intellectual sense using a coaching solution based framework, always popped up somewhere else in a different form. This person had tried lots of therapies and lots of coaches and money wasn’t an issue. They made it part of their life. Whenever I made a suggestion that came close to childhood issues they wouldn’t go there. I always give homework to my clients to integrate their experience and minimise any dependency and transference and yet this wasn’t done by them. Whatever frameworks and boundaries I raised around sessions was always breached or pushed and my intuitive offerings overridden.

This person had been on so many courses and had so many certificates and could trot off so many trite positivity intellectualisms at workshops and yet nothing was changing because although we tapped they weren’t allowing their feelings to come up and part of their ego defence mechanism was to create a diversion whenever we came close to the wound.

Despite so many sessions and so many solutions their behaviour wasn’t changing because it wasn’t the right time for them to go there…..and it may never be because there is so much fear blocking the heart opening process. That is their choice and none of my business. What is my business is how I choose to work as a therapist. Eventually I ended the relationship because I wasn’t allowed to be me and so was delivering my energetic intervention in a straight jacket that I allowed. No matter what my relationship is with someone I have to be me. I cannot be someone else’s fix in an out of balanced way. That is co-dependency .There are so many misunderstandings in these areas and no matter how I tried to explain it they couldn’t understand it because to them I was a business service and I was paid for them to use in what way they chose. As we got nearer to the core of their wound their behaviour around any boundaries I was setting became more resistant and in the end I would not allow them to attend a weekend retreat because I knew the impact their behaviour would have on other people in the group….and that wasn’t an outcome I wanted for my retreat. It was sad for me because so much of our relationship was inspirational and it had to end because I was ready to create new circles for me and they weren’t willing to face their fears and let go of control to go into them.

As I have raised my self esteem and confidence I have raised my boundaries too and for me this is about being discerning and seeing people’s patterns through their behaviour….trusting my instincts and wherever possible being open without judging. This comes with experience and the more we release our ego stuff the more we can see clearly.

In Glastonbury this is essential as it is the Heart Chakra of the planet and so the ego stage.

Many people behave as if it is the Crown chakra and become a godly saint archetype. It’s the perfect place to see that being acted out . Many people become something here to enable their ego to perform and forget or try to hide their humanity in the process…..it is so clear to see though through a discerning eye. No one is perfect/happy/saintly all the time and somehow if you act any other way …..authentically revealing a shadow emotion…..then you have fallen from grace.

One of the key learnings for me with EFT was my first teacher Gwyneth Moss and her sharing of our inner dog in our training weekend. Our emotional Mind. This was a major aha moment and really shaped the way I used EFT. Gratitude to you Gwyneth. It has been the foundation of my understanding and pivotal in how I work with myself and everyone else. The emotional mind is a pattern matcher and I have an in-depth pdf about it here.

Our emotional mind does not do intellectual logic. It isn’t rational. It simply wants to avoid pain and bring pleasure ~ hence our addictions. Like a child it doesn’t understand how eating lots of processed sugar every day leads to no teeth and diabetes if unchecked. It doesn’t care if our alcohol intake leads to liver failure or inappropriate behaviour. It is purely concerned with getting it’s fix in whatever way it can so we don’t feel unhappy and it learns this very early on in life. Whatever was used as a sugary pacifier, in a mind, body spirit way, in our childhood is plugged in to our way of living and unless we rewire that pattern it simply expands.

The more we rely on intellectual solutions instead of getting our emotional needs met and the more our emotional need grows and the more we need our fix.

Tapping works by combining mind, body and spirit. It can be used in many ways with content, without content, with or without emotion, with pictures, with art, drawing a line on a piece of paper, watching a film, in your car, in a meeting, in labour….it’s limitless you choose.

Any age,  literally anything even appliances, animals, surrogates, with reiki, with massage…..it’s universal because it is simply energy and  ancient wisdom. It allows us to let go instantly if we are ready…..

Our heart knows our path. Our heart knows if we are on it. Our heart doesn’t need all the intellect to know love because it feels love. Our society loves mind and it has become the primary focus often as an avoidance of pain…… living a life so far removed from who we are.

We are always attracted to rebels, wild child people, the bad boys, rude girls who entrance us with their audacity and derring do. Our desires rarely run to fantasising about the domesticated nice person who is safe and always accommodating and if we have created a life without challenges and colour we are undernourished in our beige haze.

This is where the addictions surface.

So instead of being Stepford wives we can be the imperfect human beings we really are and love ourselves and then we let go of any need to do alter ego behaviours that cause our bodies pain or hurt ourselves and other people physically or emotionally.

Here is a video you can use if you choose to start to tap and create your own scripts. If you don’t find this appeals there are lots more people out there who do it so simply google or go on youtube and explore the world of tapping. It is amazing how quickly we can create wellbeing and peace with this every day for ourselves….who cares if it looks unusual? If it works and there are no side effects what is there to lose except our fear

and……it is free for each of us to do it ourselves.

The EFT community offers so many free resources.

Love to you and your beautiful wild child self.

In the words of The Doors ~ Wild Child full of grace saviour of the human race.

Please try EFT for yourself if you haven’ already…..and share it. If everyone uses EFT each day instead of addictions our world will change. If you are using a pure mind system for letting go of an addiction please consider bringing in your emotions because they are a key part of the process. It’s time to let go of scapegoating and blaming alcohol or drugs for causing destruction in our society ….it’s people who do that with their behaviour and it simply stems from lack of love and understanding.