Yellow Cosmic Sun ~ Ultimate Open Heartedness

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Yellow Cosmic Sun

 

We are in the last day of the current 260 day cycle

that began on 18 July 2014

How do you feel ?

 

In the UK it is Good Friday and as I write this we are in the count down

to the lunar eclipse and Full Moon in Libra

The next spin cycle starts tomorrow

If you go to

The Resources Page

I have created a document that you download from there 

that gives my interpretation of it 

Red Dragon Wavespell in Aries 

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We are in the last day of Red Solar Moon today 

the 9th Moon 

Tomorrow the new cycle begins

with Red Planetary Moon

literally the codes of manifestation of

The Sacred Feminine 

at a very symbolic time of

Easter 

New Beginnings

New life

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Today

We are at the human being evolutionary destination again

as this is a galactic portal day 

How the human being starts at

Red Magnetic Dragon 

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and goes through 260 days of living cosmic code 

consciously 

or

unconsciously 

and a

cosmic mix perfectly spun

being a channelled

avatar of consciousness

in flesh and bone

The Fool 

Aleph 

Quetzecoatl

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Setting out on the journey again

to create the world stage anew through each Fool’s personal life story 

The Universe does not require our life force to be sacrificed

simply that 

each person does the pattern

so that 

the web is woven 

over and over

with slightly different forms 

small steps over millennia 

evolving consciousness in it’s wake 

experientially 

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and so many paradoxes in this learning

everything matters

and no thing matters above another thing

The key now is to understand this process

Personally 

and to do it 

Personally

let go of being defined by our raw ego

who is simply a child 

and by the nature of this a very unconscious child 

full of shadow 

All of this is coming to light

now on planet earth 

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Which means we are in for some shake ups

to crack the death culture

wide open 

so that the ego led empire will crumble

and the balance will start to return

from the chaos and destruction

Time to let go of all that ego bulls*t 

The lies

The structure of false ego identities 

This feels huge at the beginning 

Walls are crumbling down and structures feel wobbly 

and that is why it is key to be pro active 

and work on the inner structure to create complex stability

It is time for new code

new myths

new ways

out of the ashes of the ruins and those at the top of the ego structures

will try to hold on for dear life

so time to be aware as all will be revealed 

To open the heart the individual works

with child issues

The shadow 

The biggest ego mask is denial of this and coping mechanisms

that will do anything to not feel emotional pain

All those who are believing that intellectual work will prevail

take heed 

It is an ego lie 

The ultimate mask

of the spiritual warrior of the mind 

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Is

mindfulness

more mind

more information

anything to not go to the dark recesses of the human beings life so far 

which is where enlightenment is

De construction 

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removal of indoctrination

and

masses education

and

lies about society and power structures

and

facing all that uncomfortable stuff of denial

that the individual does not want to face about the empire

and so keeps the empire going

Total madness

Now is the time for radical responsibility

Anything that is being held at arm’s length

averted

avoided

bring in for a death embrace

smell the breath of death 

and allow all the fear to be felt 

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remember that the human being dies

and all that means

because when the human race is in denial of this 

genocide is manifest in the world

and the human race

justifies this genocide

Conscious human beings

understand the balance

and the structure of ego

because of living the process and that without the awareness of death in every moment

there can be no true life 

Each Mayan Sign’s process

is revealed in the cross

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Yellow Cosmic Sun

Code 20

Higher Self is Yellow Seed

The mask of the coping mechanism

each child creates to be able to live in this unnatural society world of today

that is so far out of alignment with source

When the child becomes an adult the coping mechanism can begin to be transformed

if the individual is independent and safe enough to do so 

The true seed can then be revealed by transforming the existing patterns free from emotional and energetic distortion

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Red Dragon is the subconscious helper

Code 1

 

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Everything that is in our world is here to assist us move out of the mask 

live an authentic life 

Step one

Being able to actually be open to that way of seeing the world and trusting the process even though the ego may fear it and not understand it 

White Dog is the Challenge

Code 10

The codes of our birth tribe and wounding

create conditioned way of seeing and living in the universe

the building blocks of the world

that are essential to be transformed

otherwise nothing can change and history repeats 

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Blue Storm

The compliment 

Code 19 

The catalyst of emotional evolution 

Emptying our cup 

Emotional Freedom 

Free and easy flowing with all our emotions

letting go of trying to keep all our shadow emotions in check

in order to avoid upsetting others and rocking the boat 

The more we clear our past emotional events and make peace with our life

the more we can relate to others honestly free of rage 

free of passive aggressive childish games 

Doing our inner work is what this means

not being a “spiritual” person

who is pretending to be something they are not 

like all the politicians

like all the religious figures 

in history 

A human being is the same

as any other human being

We are all born through our mother and we will all die

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all equal 

all with human mess ups 

so let’s be honest about who we are as a race 

and 

when all of us can be honest 

all will change 

Let’s be the change

and

live in balance from the heart 

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Red Dragon Wavespell ~ initiate the spiral of home

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Red Dragon Wavespell

Initiating the spiral of Home

Home is where the heart is 

Imix ~ is the Mayan name 

Day 1 of a 260 day birthing period

Earth

East Awakening

Going through a galactic divinity process

that is perfectly created 

to synchronise us

with what is 

and let go of 

what isn’t 

in alignment with our heart

The shadow of this energy is issues of trust

taking on the role of

being the cosmic mamma 

the fixer

the caretaker 

the controller 

so instead

we can heal our trust issues and let the true universal mamma do her thing 

she doesn’t have any trust issues

as she is free of the human mind and co dependent conditioning 🙂

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The name of the game is remembering that everything

we see in the 3d dimension

Is a reflection of us

 

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Here we go again on the spiral vortex of emotional evolution

Bringing balance to our planet

by bringing balance to ourselves

by raising our conscious awareness of ourself

as that is where everything starts 

The Alpha and Omega of Us

That is it ~ the whole deal in a nutshell

and it is

really

really

really

simple 

Whenever life get’s complicated that is all we need to remember

How we are responding to whatever

is happening to the outside world

Is of our own making

We are creating meaning about this that is unique to us

We are having an emotional reaction about this that is unique to us 

We have created all of this because of our life so far 

Therefore the solutions …

to anything we are feeling and making meaning that we do not want 

lies in these earlier life events 

When we know ourself

understand ourself 

When we start to create a manual for ourself 

We understand how our buttons and switches work 

and then we understand how to work with them 

Instead of resisting what they do 

Most of our suffering comes from our resistance to

what is 

This resistance comes to the table

with everything that matches resistance in the past 

That doesn’t mean that we want to wipe the slate clean of our experiential life so far

and become an emotion free machine

a saintly somnambulist walking through life in a comfortably numb space 

( lot’s of people choose this route understandably)

It is the opposite of that 

It is understanding how we came to believe what we do about ourselves

and others

and then realise that everything every day is showing us where we have evolutionary possibility 

through our resistance

 emotions that are uncomfortable

that are doorways of change 

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The Great Mother of creation brings us this 

Our ego , whilst full of pain and 

maybe piss and vinegar patterns 

pretends that it is above all this 

has a “better plan” 

:you don’t really need to go backwards into all that mire do you ?:

Once we understand that this is

the raw ego’s prime directive code

to avoid pain in any shape or form 

It starts to shed some light on why it would do that 

It is a shallow simple survival programme that has no depth to it

It isn’t meant to 

Neanderthal style fight or flight free of any sophi ~stication of logic of conscious awareness

There are other programme’s for that …

However to access these one has to master being disciplined with the raw ego response 

and for any addictive programme re ~patterning this takes determination to create a new pattern

forge a new path in the wires of the brain for example

It has the same pattern as a person who has no life experience to draw on in certain areas

No field of depth 

The ego doesn’t know that certain hedonistic pursuits lead to a very unwell space for the body further down the line

or for the planet 

and it does not care ~ it is incapable of caring 

It is a simple reader of the past and a risk assessor based on what it knows works/does not work

and has a very limited scope therefore

which is why it leads us to live a limited life 

if we let it 

It does not do feelings the mind 

that is the remit of the heart 

being in alignment and in balance with the brain

Ego is wanting to fix the pain fast

no matter what the long term cost 

So we can see where this ego pattern is rampaging now on the world stage 

because it is having it’s will within each one of us 

This is the first biggest challenge in the soul journey and ego evolution

Do you have what it takes to do the dance with the devil ?

Your own personal devil that will do anything it can to distract you and keep you on the path of

what you know feels good

familiar 

fabulous 

That we all learned as children and young adult’s to transport us

to our own personal heaven for a while

 

using something to change our mood 

change our state 

let loose the dragon within

it may be we chased the dragon

shrugged off the shyness with a little alcohol

raised the temperature with some speed

unleashed the mind with some mushrooms

escaped “reality” with a good film and lots of goodies to put in our mouth to stuff down our feelings 

These behaviours may have mutated into different ego personas

Achieving recognition with a “job” title 

Becoming certified as an intellectual 

a healer 

an alternative freedom fighter for whatever….

All ego masks which we are in the last few days

of with the Mayan Year changing in a weeks time

We are now in the new age of transitioning all these escape

and coping mechanisms which are not long lasting or sustainable

and wear us out

It takes a lot of energy to prop up these shadow pursuits

and the cost is way to high for all of us on planet earth

 

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so is it time now…

 

to get back to the reality of who we really are 

instead of a society created construct conscript

that has outgrown this uniformity

and is ready to connect to the core 

All of these ways of being have allowed us to get to where we are today

and this is key

to accept them and in doing so accept ourselves as this is the way home 🙂

It is again very simple this process ~

honest truth is the way and the code

and it is what it is

clear and simple

Resistance is resistance and it creates resistance

so if you want to create resistance…

be resistant

On the other hand if you want to be accepted

then that is acceptance 

Who is going to accept you

if you don’t accept yourself ?

The universal part of you

is going to keep bringing you the parts of you

that you don’t accept

giving you an opportunity to ~

well accept them

and then when you accept them

you have healed the original resistance created in your childhood

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That is what we are here for 🙂

It doesn’t mean that how that person is behaving

is something we feel is “right relationship” respectful etc or something we want in our world

Everyone is where they are ~ that is the truth

A two year old may have tantrums

and it’s parent resists that behaviour sometimes/maybe all the time

and that is how that child learns about it’s will

and another’s will  

and carries that pattern in life

until it learns how to do it differently

 or not

On one level it all starts from the moment we are born

and our mind starts to make rules about the world

We all have choices throughout life whether to change and modify or behaviour 

do an update to live in balance 

or to blame our Mother and Father figures and stay in victim mode

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This Mayan 260 day Astrological overview

 

The astrology gives the heavenly universal codes 

I am learning about this and this is my personal perspective as always 

The Sun is our light consciousness and as the last cycle was rounded up in Cancer yesterday 

Yellow Cosmic Sun day always ends this 

The movement of light 

by creating a lighter space in our heart’s 

All of our suffering comes from dis~ honesty

Living out of light

Creating shadows

In authenticity 

The foundation of our ego society 

where work and money are The God 

This little ditty about work setting you free hung over some gates in the not too distant past 

These gates weren’t pearly and they weren’t heavenly

and what started out as a mission for one group in society ~ a scapegoat

converted into many groups who got in the way of the mission

See the raw ego pattern?

So you could reflect back on the last 260 day cycle

and see where this was showing you your ego mask area 

seeking to come off

Here is what I wrote yesterday on my Facebook page:

Day 13 ~ Yellow Cosmic Sun

The last day of the 260 day Halloween initiated spiral has arrived

What is ready to shift today that has birthed over this gestation period ?

What light moment has aha’d us into a new consciousness ?

What can we create movement with

Within

To create new beginnings without

What have we integrated in our core

So we can let the barriers down

Remove the outer layers of our ego masks

Heal our heart

Are you ready to see what this cycle has
rejuvenated in us
rebirthed in us
let the layers dissolve
let the ancestors be heard within the dna
let the structure be revealed

to be healed

on all levels

So we are ready for the next level of potentiality

Today at the time of writing we have

Waning Moon in Aries at 3 degrees
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The outer casing of the Great Pyramid being removed.
Candor, stark naked honesty. Getting rid of all false coverings, going for what counts. You are sharply intent upon getting at the truth and staying on the truth. Self-disclosure. An extraordinary aptitude for reality, you are the world’s most direct person, willing to be seen and known unequivocally. The jackhammer treatment. Blunt, brutal, and straightforward. Devoid of charm or grace, but right on the mark, gutsy and truly incorrigible.

A great exercise for today is this exercise of stark honesty

First of all with ourselves:

What has been the theme running through this whole year that has felt very uncomfortable ?

Where have I been feeling the most resistance ?

Who or what has been showing up in the outer world to prod the pain body ?

Emotionally ?

Physically ?

Go within and feel it with the intention of raising conscious awareness

What is at the root of this way back in childhood ?

What survival mechanism did we create to avoid feeling it ?

What Mind Mask ?

What head led coping mechanism that allowed us to get along with a way of living we abhor ?

With a bunch of people we believe are full of sh*t ?

All of which started off in the playground

This dishonesty is making us sick on some level

It is creating a sick society

and only when we stop doing the bullish*t will it change

It’s really simple ~

Our body does not lie

If we are physically carrying around extra baggage

We are living out of alignment with who we are and out of balance

If we are trying to hide our true place in life ~ our true being

by being inauthentic to project an image so we can be socially “acceptable”

whatever that is and it mutates along with the latest gimmick

We will be constantly getting sick and feeling tired trying to spin all the plates

leaking energy from our ruptured core

radiating rage

toxic thoughts turning our inner world into an imbalance ph

fuelled by all that attracts

If we carry on trying to plaster that over with an anti~depressant pattern

of fake positivity

Put a bubble of bounce over all that mountain of frustration and despair

The wound goes deeper and the volcano pressure gets higher

Instead we do the opposite and we go within

Deeper and deeper

Feel it all with the intention of being honest with ourselves

Open the door to it

Face it

Admit it

Whatever it is

It is actually simply something we believe about ourselves

When we look over our life so far

The fruit of our labours

How do we measure up to our inner critic ?

What have we created ?

What is our legacy ?

The only thing that matters for our soul journey at this point

At this crossroads

Is what we feel and believe about ourselves

That determines everything else that is going to happen from this moment

Everything else happens because of how we feel about ourselves

That is how we interface with the universe

That is how we create our experience

If we are afraid to feel our strongest emotions

that determines our life

Keeping them at bay

Avoidance of those intense currents within

So

this is where we go

First

When we go into our void it changes everything

It is where we get to the heart of the matter

All our biggest emotional events are creating our Cosmic Road Trip right now

If we are feeling like a boat tossed on a stormy sea

Time to visit that inner ocean and be brave

Weigh our heart and see if it is as light as a feather

or heavy as the the world on our shoulders

This is the hardest thing we ever have to do is admit how we feel

to ourselves

and sit down with our whispering voices from our past that are haunting us today

in every way

Today Jupiter goes into Leo

Expansion of our heart and courage

and

Expansion of our ego

For many this will be a one sided show on the outside

Building a legacy so that the little self will make it’s mark on the earth

coming from a place of lack of self worth

because little self doesn’t want to look at who it really is

the truth of it’s whole self

It wants to do something “new”

New bright shininess

Doesn’t want to recycle

Has to have money to buy things because it doesn’t want to learn or take care of itself

A child dependent on paying for services

and yet feeds off the suffering and servitude of others who are capable

and has them believe are the people who need them

because they have the money

and therefore the power

Time for truth for some who are ready to connect to their power source

Willing to do what it takes

To create stability and sustainability structures

so that humanity can thrive

rather than strive

The new cycle starts all over again tomorrow with a new layer of evolution unfolding

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We are human beings and we all do stuff that we aren’t proud of 

We have all made mistakes

We all hide ourselves from the world in some way rather than admit our human frailness

because we have been conditioned to

If we don’t learn to behave differently about this 

turn this around 

within ourselves

nothing can change 

How could it ?

The universe is always changing because change is life 

To embrace and enjoy life

We embrace change

and we create it within us

If we are sending out mixed messages of honesty because we have learned to do that

as a way of keeping safe

We reap what we sow 

We get mixed messages back

and so honesty is the best policy 

The truth is always there in what we receive

It is simply in a different form

Our true vibration

is always being transmitted and received by everyone and everything

which is why the universe brings us what we need 

and that is very different to what our ego wants 

which is why our ego seeks to override it 🙂

 

This process takes time 

and key to assisting it’s birthing

is patience and being gentle with oneself 

This is the bigger picture of the whole deal that arrives tomorrow ~

Day 2 of the Wavespell

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This is our challenge and growth area of new learning

When we integrate our shadow 

the past ways of learning that created issues around telling the truth

any beliefs that got in the way of us being a clear channel and connecting to source 

free from ego distortion

we are free 

and accordingly

we see

we hear

we connect 

are on line 

with the divine 🙂

Isn’t that worth a few trips into the doldrums for some tapping and weeping and wailing with focused intent ?

That way we really become detached from the drama 

because our personal drama has become

our personal self empowered place of grace

through our own self awareness process

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The Sun is consciousness ~

the masculine code of our evolution

that everything on earth is receiving every day

 

The Mayan Wavespell is a continuing spiral

so this initiating Wavespell changes every time 

because of this 

This is

The Grand Design

This time it is in Cancer Sun

In the Astrological Wheel Cancer is the 4th sign

everything is birthed through the Great Mother

 

It is all about the

Great Mother

Nurturing 

Home 

It matches Red Dragon’s energy 

What is being birthed through the race of humanity in alignment with the conscious code 

For each one it is different as each one is in a different place on their emotional evolution 

Each one has a different Astrology and Mayan Sign

Whenever our personality feels in despair about life on earth

our heart has more clearing to do 

we are connecting to our personal history ~ always 

and in doing so we are losing connection to our source 

to clear the connection and re~establish it we clear our story

Simple

I use EFT 

Emotional Freedom Technique 

It is simple and easy to do 

Anyone can do it and it works 😉

It does take time to build a skill ~ new learning

Cancer in Decan 3 today

Cancer ~ Pisces which is Decan 12 overall ~

the crystal clarity code 🙂

 

Each astrological Sign is split into 3 Decans to give a more refined overview of that energy

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website for this:

www.claralucia.com

A wheel within a wheel

like the Mayan Wavespell in many ways

Here is a great article explaining this by Darkstar Astrology 

In the Moon at midnight in the UK we had

Waning Aries Moon at 11 degrees

Inside Degrees Website

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The marvel is that the observer exerts so strong a presence, yet disappears into the atmosphere. You find yourself to be centrally pivotal, yet subtly underlyingly a pure witness to the objective turn of events. You inhabit the edge between self-will and a higher will. You hold to the sharp borderline between the infinite and the finite, so that you can create yourself anew out of whole cloth. Transformation can take many forms. You are endowed here with power of wishing, the capacity to visualize and imagine whatever comes next. An astounding skill at coming back to life, recreating everything, taking into your self worlds ending and worlds beginning. All is poised within. A way of looking at things that magnifies the wonder and overcomes all of the dross, in a strong quest to find yourself amidst the debris of lost worlds and to salvage the dream and the vision.

 

We also have the blessing of Leo in Jupiter

for the next 12 months to expand our ability to be courageous

and be open to love 

open our hearts

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The Mayan Calendar also has 13 Moons

 

This framework stays the same each year and aligns with the start of the new Mayan Year on July 26 every year 

So we are in the last few days of Cosmic Moon energy

The 13th Moon of feminine movement

In the heart

It is magical number 22 = 4

July 18 = 9

Lots of resources on my resources page being added 

I learn as I create them 🙂

Here is an old one about the Mayan Moons ~ there are lots of resources on the internet

if you google and follow your own cookie trail

you will find what is perfect for you 

So this cycle will take us up to Easter next year ~ April 04 2015 

I am looking at the significance of this pattern in more detail as to astrology and the signature codes and will post about that at another time 

The key thing for me is to focus on my patterns and what I am feeling to expand on and release in this period 

and to look at 

what is seeking completion for me that began on July 26 2006 

with a Red Moon cycle of 13 years beginning 

I will be focusing on this on my workshops

next week in Glastonbury 

More here if you feel to come and join me on July 25/26/27 

Circle of Completion 

If you cannot come in person you can get your personal info via email and/or Skype about it ~ please contact me for details

Remember that Red Moon beacon is

all about the message of awakening to :

 

the more I know myself

the more I can  be myself

the more I trust myself

the more I realise that 

I am enough

and

the less I feel worried by lack

the less I get knocked off my happy horse

the less I rely on the moving swirls around you me to

sustain myself

because I sustain myself

free from any need

to be anything other

for any others

than 

who I really am

after all 

I am the universe 

We are the universe

all we need do is remember that 

and be it 

Co create from a

balanced

grounded

place

of  

responsible relationship

 

Within and therefore without 

Yellow Cosmic Sun ~ love

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It is the last day of the 260 day Tzolk’in Cycle. The Yellow Star Wavespell.

It is also a Galactic Portal Day so we can be wide open with all that is to what is seeking a shift in our vibe today

a cosmic upgrade for even more open hearted va va voom

Tomorrow on Samhain or All Hallows Eve , we go into a new cycle…. and this energy of the thinnest of veils between the world’s of the earth plane and other planes, is the energetic flavour of the whole cycle.

Tomorrow the circle begins anew and if we choose we can speak to our personal ancestors and sincerely ask for their view about what could die now ~

  • what is really timely for release and renewal ?

  • what can they see now they are free of the earthly realm roadshow from a different perspective?

  • what can we learn about their past life experience…..

that is within us…..

our double helix divinity code?

Where has a belief and behaviour outlived it’s usefulness ?

Hereditary means so much more than blood and bone ~ what have we inherited from the past generations that is no longer true now and maybe was never ours?

What are we holding energetically that is causing us to live painfully in the dark shadows ?

Waning moon in Virgo today so a perfect time to see the Saturnian rings of earth bound grooves we may be stuck in.

This is the dark moon energy coming in so we can be in that psychic place.

No need to worry about release ~ we have a New Moon in Scorpio coming on Sunday 03 November

Language of love and heart or ego ?

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A common question I hear ~

How do I know if I am coming from my heart and soul space or my ego ?

The ego has a framework like everything else ~ it has a pattern. It is often very misunderstood and maligned our ego assistant.

An immature ego creates distortion of the language of light. It creates refractions like a prism. There is nothing “wrong” with this framework. It allows the duality game of life to take place on earth at this time. It is a very simple, child like framework of opposites and this is what we all transit through as children in our own unique way.

As we journey we ~ hopefully ~ learn through our engagement with the planet and everything on it.

If we don’t learn we repeat until we do.

We are part of our universe and we share some things with other aspects and somethings are unique to humans and there is a common belief that ego is one of our unique programmes.

Our human journey has often involved us borrowing ways of being from our animal world to create an ego belief system such as “survival of the fittest” ~ to justify ethnic cleansing, bullying and genocide.  

To introduce a superior system of religion to “lesser knowing mortals”  ~ a bullpoo manipulation framework in full scale and still expanding all over the globe.

There is no such ego framework amongst animals. Animals are depicted as lesser beings by ego dwellers as they fail to understand how limited their own perspective is.

It is, some of , mankind’s arrogance to place itself as an elite being above all others with a consciousness. Everything in our universe has consciousness.

This is going to become more and more evident now to all. Just reading Anastasia , watching Earthing film and loving the Barefoot connections that I have been experiencing more of this year on my beautiful land . I am so excited by this. I feel like a child again when my connection with the world of imagination was so vivid ~ anything was possible 🙂 

Here are two amazing films that really touched my heart . Hope they will for you too ~ please share them far and wide.

This healing is available for all ~ get those bare feet  on the earth and ground yourself lovelies ~ simples.

 

 

 

 

When we see our immature ego aspects and patterns , we raise them to our conscious awareness so we can transform them to maturity over our lifetime.

The ego is self serving and a survival mechanism  and as such , places it’s human being body and mind first and that is true for every living thing in one sense so ……

we could say everything that is living and breathing has this ego aspect.

It keeps the living being alive so …..

it can live.

Without life there is no life here 🙂 Simple.

This ego aspect for the animal world involves hazards that are general patterns and over millennia create a programme of harmful patterns to avoid and to enable that protection programme of millenia of experiential learning ….

the physical being of the animal is overridden by consciousness that is at the same level of awareness as breathing. It isn’t something constantly accessed unless needed because if it was…..it creates too much overload and distraction.

We can see living examples of this in human beings when they develop OCD, phobias and are on the very sensitive spectrum of autism for example.

Life becomes very challenging just to complete simple details. If you feel like you are barely keeping moving forward then this is a good time to shed a load 🙂

There are lots of reasons why this happens too and all of this way of being…..

that the immature ego sees as “wrong”

are simply to create learning so that we can evolve and explore through understanding.

That is why we are here.

The more we take heed of our immature ego and the more we can transform that space .

Our ego is our best friend and here for that very purpose. Without it we would die and our evolution on all levels wouldn’t be possible.

When we let go of events in our past that have caused us physical and emotional wounding , our ego matures. It has had the experiential experience and has survived it ~ grown stronger as a result.

It moves us to a space of thrive ability and moving towards rather than moving away from pattern.

As we move towards what we love and open our hearts part of that process involves clearing our inner space of fear patterns and…..

this opens up our inner world and allows more room for courage and flexibility ~ patterns that our spirit self loves to enhage with.

We let go of trying to run away from our pain and we are ready to stand still and

bring it on 🙂

We are ready to speak our truth.

In this universe of ours we have cycles for this.

We have sun signs, moon signs and lots of other planetary times. We have seasons and we have a time specially prepared to be in a space of new learning.

Only the immature ego that has forgotten it is part of the universe and struts it’s stuff and tries to force it’s will over the universe ~ like Icarus flying too close to the sun ~ insists on a different framework with it’s own timeline that is out of synch with the language of light.

The more we ignore this pushy little diva and trust that our universal mamma knows the way for us

because we are she 🙂

and the more we learn to re educate our relationship with our god and goddess self and trust our instinctual intuition.

When we are ready to receive then our sacred feminine will usher in

If there is too much ego noise getting in the way and no time and space for this to happen

Then it does not happen.

It is our free will and our choice to play the soul game.

Most people on our planet are not aware of this and totally immersed in ego living. A few are intellectually aware of awakening and still living an ego framework ~ part time intellectual players at weekends. Some are going deeper and energetically and emotionally transforming.

There is a long way to go …..

and if you are feeling jaded about this….

accept that. It is tough love time on our planet.

Until we love and accept our feelings and our ego as individuals, the language of light cannot be fully received ~ it can be intellectually known of course.

To fully receive it ~ we have to be it 🙂

Are you longing  for intimacy and to be the true love you seek ? There is only you that is in the way of that happening 🙂 Beliefs around being intimate that you have learned about yourself ~ that are totally ~ illusional 🙂

I am seeking a couple more people on my current coaching circle to synchronise with. This is an exciting time of  digging deep to pave our way for Spring. If you think that may be you and you are ready to remove some layers and are open to working with your shadow please get in touch. It’s an amazing time to be alive and I know we are going to be in for a rebirthing year in ways we hadn’t imagined.

Love to you all and your love light shining 

First picture ~ artist link

 

Illuminating the shadow

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Yellow Cosmic Sun day and the last day in this star wavespell. How are you feeling today? That is the most important question of all if we are truly living from the heart instead of being led by the head.

The energy of this mayan sign is all about questioning the intelligence so we can be in our heart wisdom.

Letting go of being ruled by the limited linear mind and training and transforming our inner dog so it leads us to maturity and love.

We are always going to be bounding off into the shady woods to learn and digress and go round and round for a while as the path is a spiral……

Do we choose to reign in our temper tanting child or live forever in the world of it’s making…..?

Today I have learned of two people dying and I feel this can be such a cosmic nudge to remember ,that although we are infinite beings we have a finite life as this person and what is really important often gets lost in the mundane trivia that our mind likes to wallow in as a way of avoiding total emotional immersion.

I see it every day in Glastonbury where people weave a fantasy land to live in to avoid facing their sadness at a life that has created realities they didn’t want.

What most people don’t realise is that in any moment this can be transformed into the life of their dreams….but only if they get real.

In writing these blogs it is my intention to raise awareness of the emotional evolution we are in, as through my own personal life journey I know this is a truth.

Whether you believe it or share it  as your truth….is of course your personal road trip.

For me I will do whatever it takes to open my heart and live from love and that has involved a close encounter with my shadow side every day for years. There are no short cuts and no skipping over and sidestepping the painful parts of our lives because that is what we are here for to live the darkness in order to reveal the light.

Let’s hear it for the shadow 🙂 Chatting with several people in the past few weeks it seems we have a circle of consensus…..time to let go of biting our tongue when we smell a bullpoo reframe and manipulation…. and we all recognise it  🙂 This year let’s create workshops, opportunities and frameworks to raise reality awareness and in the process we are creating the potentiality of intimate open hearted relationships. Rip off the corsets of repressing our true selves and hold the love space of taking whatever goes with that. It can feel uncomfortable simply because it is new ground.

Everyone knows what their stuff is. We all know what has hurt and what we don’t like about ourselves and our shadow always took shape in our childhood. It isn’t rocket science. It is the same for everyone although we each have our own unique experience. There is no need to come up with elaborate structures or methodologies to release this as all our shadow seeks is to be heard , loved and accepted. To come in from the cold and feel the warmth of inclusion. This is the integration process.

Very simply it’s about love and when we see it we know it. We know when someone is in an open heart space.

The myth of any need to manipulate someone is starting to fray at the edges because people have been around long enough to be on the receiving end of that abusive behaviour. Manipulate ~ lie basically.

Over millenia we have created amazing methodology to explore this shadow side and each generation has evolved and shared insights into our psyche. There isn’t really anything new under the sun only a slight twist to technique.

The key answer I have found is to simply let the emotion out and feel ok with expressing it and I still have work to do in this for myself . I am still uncomfortable with being the one who is unpopular because they speak about things that other people don’t want to deal with. The more we let go of past emotional events and the less emotion is in there to vent and ideally we can keep clearing it so we don’t have volcanic eruptions.

Today I am sharing a story with you about my journey as a therapist with the intention of illustrating the difference between what we call intelligence and heart wisdom which is what today is about and it’s also a portal day so a super gateway to allow time to be transcended. and create a huge shift. From what I understand of the nature of our universe this is how we evolve….through each of our own personal evolutionary journeys weaving together.

In our society we have such a high regard for intelligence as a sign of elitism. We measure a person’s ability with how many exams they can pass and what grades and so many people are excluded because they do not fit this box. Today in our society children who are classed as having behavioural or learning difficulties are seen as deficient and often a problem in some way as they don’t fit the norm and are labelled accordingly. In over 40 years the way the majority of our educational systems work with these out of the box children hasn’t changed …..not the ones I have seen.

Don’t you find that amazing? That in 40 years we haven’t evolved in this area? This is a passion of mine.

How much of your childhood education has been of any real practical use to you as an adult?

When we look closer at our educational system in the UK we can see how it was a duality system for the working classes and elite and birthed. For the former shaped to create a holding space for children so their parents could work on many levels. The subjects were ( and still are in many ways) chosen for the industry in the locality and how their workforce would need certain skills. A sausage factory of Pink Floyd The Wall ilk. I have watched this film many many times with a good friend who certainly had ( and still has ) a wild child very well developed side.

Many people today are still very ignorant as to how this system has no individual free spirit ethos. It isn’t there to create self-empowerment, learning about relationships, how to handle life and how to focus on self esteem in our young people….indeed the opposite is true. We aren’t often privvy to what is driving  the powers that be and their curriculum and sometimes we are so used to being led that we don’t think to ask or challenge …..

When we raise our heads above the parapet we are often humiliated and criticised….what do we know? Poke at the illusion bubble and risk the Wrath of the mask wearer.

Every child knows the simple truth of love or fear because it is an innate knowingness that is often worn over time on the way to adulthood and then can be reclaimed.

Imagine an alternative where young people learned how to do what they loved and about their star seeded mission. How to follow their internal emotional sat nav to live authentically and create new foundations. Instead of one size fits all and you have to be a square peg in a round hole.

In ancient times we had mystery schools teaching of sacred geometry and the building blocks of our universe. We had initiate training for the soul journey to assist our planetary evolution and all of these structures were evident because it was the perfect time for that to happen…..just as now it’s the perfect time for it to return. It is all there magically in waiting for us to energetically match it and so awaken . We have the keys to turn the mechanism and breathe life into the form.

Now is the time for us to reconnect to who we really are so we can live from our heart place and let go of feeding a system that simply perpetuates slavery to the ego.

We are all equal under the sun no matter how unequal people’s distribution of wealth may seem.

Many coaches focus on finance as the way to go because that is a model of excellence and supposed emancipation….I have yet to meet a financially wealthy person who is happy more than not and living an authentic life and although I have never reached the dizzy heights of fame or what is known as financial security ….in my short life I really understood very early on that money cannot buy you anything truly worthwhile because it is an ego created mechanism and as such a manipulation.

We have so many written words, songs, scriptures and gurus from the past teaching us of this and yet how many of us are actually walking the talk of it?

So back to the story of my learning as a therapist. In previous blogs I have shared how I started out wanting to focus on psychotherapy and very quickly realising that although this can give understanding it is only a piece of the puzzle. I added NLP to my tool box that gave further understanding and more techniques….and there came lots of ecology questions for me with using those powerful strategies. If I have ecology questions I find myself going round in circles without a way forward until I can resolve them. Here I learned EFT ( tapping) and this started to show a way forward.

As a fire sign and a blue solar hand in the Mayan calendar my energy is about transformation. Talking therapies for me have to have an outcome to work towards that creates change. This is my energy blueprint and my gift. Simply talking in an unfocused way isn’t my domain.

The teachers I chose were heaven sent to show me their personal techniques of using EFT and again this is where heart wisdom reveals itself . We can all learn the same technique and we will all use it differently because of our starcode and our life mission so if you have ever ruled out a system because of an individual’s methodology  I urge you to seek and be persistent with finding a person who has a different delivery of it because they are out there. To take responsibility for our own learning is the Aquarius way.

In the past I have had many teacher’s who did not meet my expectations in their delivery of course content and as a child I quit some courses and dropped out of sixth form. Revisiting that space as a mature student  I did not limit my learning because of my teachers approach. I love what I learn and so it is easy to learn it and this is the difference that makes the difference. I decide my outcome in life through my actions and attitudes and one of my strengths is persistence. Sometimes life doesn’t match my desires and it often delivers something I wasn’t expecting…my outcome  in life is to open my heart and share that process so I always move in that direction even though it is often going back to go forwards.

 

When we have our training as a therapist most schools insist on doing personal introspection and discovery first because it is key that we know how this process works so we can share it. Many courses today skip that and state that isn’t necessary. This is especially evident with Alpha male pattern NLP schools. They like to sell a course  to completion in a couple of weeks with no or little work on the person first and if we look at the bigger picture of that we can see what a nonsense it is. If a person has no life experience then they simply haven’t lived long enough to transform intelligence into the next stage of integration through experiencing it on a daily basis in a practical way. If they haven’t ever had relationships of a therapeutic nature with people and learned about person centred approach and empathy then how will they pass that knowledge on? Most people I know who have done this are simply looking for a short cut and to manipulate others and have zero awareness of their own patterns. They actually don’t care about other people and don’t want to hear any content because it is boring to them. They simply want to “fix” the other person that is pushing their buttons and feel powerful and they are great teachers in this process….only not about what they think they are teaching….

Most people I have met who have been on these types of courses have lots of parlour tricks to play with people and very little interest in how that can deeply affect the person they are practising their newly learned trickery on. I know in the bigger picture we can say that is the law of karma in action….and if we are to create changes in this then this way of being is not of love and respect or any form of wisdom and maturity system I choose.

When we have done a good delve into our inner work ~ and this I believe is a lifelong peeling of the onion skin process ~ then we can start to work with other people. All the perfect people show up so we can both evolve as we are always an energetic match in some way. This is a true win win when this happens and a beautiful process.

I had one client for over a year on a very regular basis and each time they challenged me. I learned so much from this relationship and as I offered person centred therapy and believed strongly in it , I always let them lead as to the outcome they wanted. Over time I noticed that whatever we supposedly solved in an intellectual sense using a coaching solution based framework, always popped up somewhere else in a different form. This person had tried lots of therapies and lots of coaches and money wasn’t an issue. They made it part of their life. Whenever I made a suggestion that came close to childhood issues they wouldn’t go there. I always give homework to my clients to integrate their experience and minimise any dependency and transference and yet this wasn’t done by them. Whatever frameworks and boundaries I raised around sessions was always breached or pushed and my intuitive offerings overridden.

This person had been on so many courses and had so many certificates and could trot off so many trite positivity intellectualisms at workshops and yet nothing was changing because although we tapped they weren’t allowing their feelings to come up and part of their ego defence mechanism was to create a diversion whenever we came close to the wound.

Despite so many sessions and so many solutions their behaviour wasn’t changing because it wasn’t the right time for them to go there…..and it may never be because there is so much fear blocking the heart opening process. That is their choice and none of my business. What is my business is how I choose to work as a therapist. Eventually I ended the relationship because I wasn’t allowed to be me and so was delivering my energetic intervention in a straight jacket that I allowed. No matter what my relationship is with someone I have to be me. I cannot be someone else’s fix in an out of balanced way. That is co-dependency .There are so many misunderstandings in these areas and no matter how I tried to explain it they couldn’t understand it because to them I was a business service and I was paid for them to use in what way they chose. As we got nearer to the core of their wound their behaviour around any boundaries I was setting became more resistant and in the end I would not allow them to attend a weekend retreat because I knew the impact their behaviour would have on other people in the group….and that wasn’t an outcome I wanted for my retreat. It was sad for me because so much of our relationship was inspirational and it had to end because I was ready to create new circles for me and they weren’t willing to face their fears and let go of control to go into them.

As I have raised my self esteem and confidence I have raised my boundaries too and for me this is about being discerning and seeing people’s patterns through their behaviour….trusting my instincts and wherever possible being open without judging. This comes with experience and the more we release our ego stuff the more we can see clearly.

In Glastonbury this is essential as it is the Heart Chakra of the planet and so the ego stage.

Many people behave as if it is the Crown chakra and become a godly saint archetype. It’s the perfect place to see that being acted out . Many people become something here to enable their ego to perform and forget or try to hide their humanity in the process…..it is so clear to see though through a discerning eye. No one is perfect/happy/saintly all the time and somehow if you act any other way …..authentically revealing a shadow emotion…..then you have fallen from grace.

One of the key learnings for me with EFT was my first teacher Gwyneth Moss and her sharing of our inner dog in our training weekend. Our emotional Mind. This was a major aha moment and really shaped the way I used EFT. Gratitude to you Gwyneth. It has been the foundation of my understanding and pivotal in how I work with myself and everyone else. The emotional mind is a pattern matcher and I have an in-depth pdf about it here.

Our emotional mind does not do intellectual logic. It isn’t rational. It simply wants to avoid pain and bring pleasure ~ hence our addictions. Like a child it doesn’t understand how eating lots of processed sugar every day leads to no teeth and diabetes if unchecked. It doesn’t care if our alcohol intake leads to liver failure or inappropriate behaviour. It is purely concerned with getting it’s fix in whatever way it can so we don’t feel unhappy and it learns this very early on in life. Whatever was used as a sugary pacifier, in a mind, body spirit way, in our childhood is plugged in to our way of living and unless we rewire that pattern it simply expands.

The more we rely on intellectual solutions instead of getting our emotional needs met and the more our emotional need grows and the more we need our fix.

Tapping works by combining mind, body and spirit. It can be used in many ways with content, without content, with or without emotion, with pictures, with art, drawing a line on a piece of paper, watching a film, in your car, in a meeting, in labour….it’s limitless you choose.

Any age,  literally anything even appliances, animals, surrogates, with reiki, with massage…..it’s universal because it is simply energy and  ancient wisdom. It allows us to let go instantly if we are ready…..

Our heart knows our path. Our heart knows if we are on it. Our heart doesn’t need all the intellect to know love because it feels love. Our society loves mind and it has become the primary focus often as an avoidance of pain…… living a life so far removed from who we are.

We are always attracted to rebels, wild child people, the bad boys, rude girls who entrance us with their audacity and derring do. Our desires rarely run to fantasising about the domesticated nice person who is safe and always accommodating and if we have created a life without challenges and colour we are undernourished in our beige haze.

This is where the addictions surface.

So instead of being Stepford wives we can be the imperfect human beings we really are and love ourselves and then we let go of any need to do alter ego behaviours that cause our bodies pain or hurt ourselves and other people physically or emotionally.

Here is a video you can use if you choose to start to tap and create your own scripts. If you don’t find this appeals there are lots more people out there who do it so simply google or go on youtube and explore the world of tapping. It is amazing how quickly we can create wellbeing and peace with this every day for ourselves….who cares if it looks unusual? If it works and there are no side effects what is there to lose except our fear

and……it is free for each of us to do it ourselves.

The EFT community offers so many free resources.

Love to you and your beautiful wild child self.

In the words of The Doors ~ Wild Child full of grace saviour of the human race.

Please try EFT for yourself if you haven’ already…..and share it. If everyone uses EFT each day instead of addictions our world will change. If you are using a pure mind system for letting go of an addiction please consider bringing in your emotions because they are a key part of the process. It’s time to let go of scapegoating and blaming alcohol or drugs for causing destruction in our society ….it’s people who do that with their behaviour and it simply stems from lack of love and understanding.