Day 4 ~ the catalytic structure


Day 4

White Self~Existing Wind

Day 4’s of every wavespell are the structure of that 13 day, 13 step process

Each one is unique in the 20 wavespell process

Each one holds many different energetic templates

This is a very complex process and once the individual starts to work with it experientially

It becomes easy

The human being mind is limited to what it knows and has experienced

The universal consciousness accesses all and is limitless

How does the human being access it ?


This is a mastery step

and it may sound like I am speaking in tongues

Remember that the earth is where the spirit incarnates in a vehicle to evolve

Other places not of this earth have different formats

Earth and the full stage set, have the perfect learning set up holographically ~ shared game sets that everyone accesses with shared understanding generally speaking although again always unique to that person’s perception which has evolved due to their ancestral and cultural lineage

past life lineage


this life lineage


The universe is always reflecting back to us where we are

The universe is always supporting us where we are

we are part of the universe

The universe is always bringing us what we need rather than what we want


It is not a shopping experience in terms of a consumer catalogue although there is a framework for that and a popular one of course

and some people see it that way because that is where they are on their personal game plan evolution

So there is a game format~ the game of life

and I like to use the playstation model to illustrate that as a metaphor

People often get frustrated asking for guidance from their guides /angels/higher self saying that they are asking and yet not receiving or not understanding

This game of life and evolution is bound by parameters just like everything in the universe

These parameters apply to all human beings equally 

There are no shortcuts

So the universe always brings the individual their perfect next step

Often to the individual this seems insurmountable



How can that not be the truth on the heart path ?

the part that feels this is insurmountable, is the part of the human being mind that is limited to what it knows intellectually and experientially and may feel overwhelmed and that there is too much to hold already ~ a key place of being for anyone in the Chiron in Pisces transit like me 😉 This is very revealing ~ too much to do, not enough time, trying to do all, be all and be perfect in everything ~ key to Lilith in Virgo transit.


The human being is evolving on the path and is met equally

as below so above may be a different way to see it ?

The level the human being structure is at on all levels

allows the divine intervention in conscious open honest dialogue 

instead of speaking in tongues

spirit comes through our human being filter system 

sometimes things get lost in translation which is where intuition kicks in


Lost in translation is a film I watched this week

Loved it 

This is a key understanding and where this catalyst process comes in

The secret to this is the nature of Blue Storm which is a planetary cycle of emotion being the catalyst for human beings ~ again on all levels

often our mindset will actively avoid the person or event that will bring new learning, deep feelings,

love actually …

everything is on the road to love and allows us to access love

through it’s transformation

Our heart is the key

It feels the way

It knows and brings a repeating pattern scenario of all that ails us~ this is the shadow aspect of the heart’s desire

What aches? The grief of the past and what all human beings are seeking deep down ~ a release from their shadow holding them back ~ the personal enlightenment completion which happens with that personal relationship patterning and re-patterning process


If this is not dealt with at the time of the emotional event it is stored ~ in another way ~ it is frozen/put into holding space/goes to another realm in terms of soul retrieval

Time after time it repeats in our life ~ a matching event in some way ~ giving an opportunity for healing and at the same time these repeating events add to the pain bubble until left unchecked and unhealed it becomes a black hole

This is also our personal ancestral repeats in some way

also our personal soul lineage repeat in some way 

The energy dynamic of this is immense

Jupiter proportions


Depending on the person’s pattern it can then manifest as physical symptoms

The body does not lie 

Energy always has to complete it’s circuit somewhere

The body reveals where there is an imbalance and communicates that

In terms of holding body fat for example

this has the same cycle


Most of the western culture human being eats far too much above any nutritional requirement and metabolism

and the majority of the diet is surplus to requirements of the body’s nutritional need

As the food goes in ~ most of which on general terms is unnatural ~ the body does not recognise that substance and so ~ puts it on hold ~ does not know what to do with it so stores it somewhere until it can figure it out and the human being has the time and structure to detox and rid themselves of it and most importantly stop putting it back in

In terms of the universal structure, where it is stored is directly related to where something is not being addressed emotionally in that person’s life

There are many books about this and again often it is very simple 

If the body is also discharging lots of waste product  that is a message .

To use my cats for an example. When I used to feed them commercial cat food there was lots of very smelly waste. Now that they have natural food there is very little.

This is of course a complex area of nutrition and the key is to intend to become an expert on oneself and learn ~ it can seem overwhelming at first ~ take little steps .

This is very much my process and I have not eaten any meat for over a month now . I cannot drink alcohol any more and I haven’t smoked for 11 years. I still eat lots of sugar based foods. It is a journey for us all as and when we are ready or not. I know that I have an addictive personality and am working with that over and over.

So back to the structure ~ the universe and our spirit meets us where we are


When the individual ~ the initiate ~ the alchemist in training ~ starts the conscious process , there majority of the inner circuitry has been distorted if that person is over 30 and/or younger and had a traumatic and very out of balance start to life ~ this again is a generalisation of course because it is a blog speaking to a wider audience

So at that point the conduit and channel guidance will reflect that to match that

This is the reason that many individuals do not go deeper as it takes discipline ~ Capricorn ~ to do the work 

It is life long

There are no quick fixes 

No online cheats like in Playstation 

However it does get easier and the rewards are amazing 

To use another metaphor ~

Jason and the Argonauts myth



Jason sets sail with the Olympian athletes to go and get the Golden Fleece ~ the Ram

This is the Aries start to the zodiac wheel ~ the initiation

The Golden Fleece heals the human ~  even from death brings back life ~ new beginnings~ another metaphor for the alchemical transmutation of the shadow into light


Naturally he has to sail to the ends of the earth to get it and faces death challenges with his companions

Hera ~ the Goddess is at the helm of the ship but can only help him a limited amount of times

so he has to be discerning and often this is a last resort


The key to the planetary game is human evolution

Hera is an asteroid and this is the new sacred feminine energy being revealed to expand on the new energetic templates coming in now ~ key to White Wizard Mayan Sign and the White Wizard new year coming on July 26

you can also add this info to your chart ~Hera in my chart is in my 11th house at 22 degrees Sagittarius 

11th house ~ naturally Aquarius on the zodiac wheel

22 ~ master builder number 

This is key to yesterday’s post and my South Node in Sagi 

Blackbirds flying out of a pie.
Darkness seeks release by the right vessel, at the right time, in the right place. You must be able to contain the darkness and to form it into an exquisitely sculpted-out seething chaos, and then discover your willingness and ability to reverse field, to give over the very thing you took as your own. This comes the hard way, by enduring the ravages of living in a volatile chaos almost as victim and then seizing command of your own vessel. Until you do it, the darkness leaks out around the edges and fosters the worst all around. Usually, triggering so much subtle destruction and indulgence in the negative brings you up short, and triggers the final reckoning and the huge release, sending darkness on its way and opening a space for light to flood through and start a new cycle, where the old had seemed to be decadent and established for the duration.

This is so key to the soul journey process and the 11th and 5th house ~ leo being the key to healing the child wound ~ the Lion and the Unicorn 

My Jupiter ~ mastery planet ~ is in this 5th house

so this is what I am here to master ~ 

Jupiter at 25 degrees Gemini 

A cave in deep ocean waters.
Stunning ways to preserve lost knowledge and lost worlds. The treasure chest is full to bursting. A leavening agent. A corrective to shallow patterns of existence. You are able to be so multidimensional that vastly divergent realities can be lived simultaneously and often are. Care and effort stand behind this place over myriad lifetimes. Contains boundless intact awareness held for the future. A contact point underneath conscious awareness. Faithful to the cause. Integrity above all.

Another asteroid in my chart is Vesta

She is in the next degree and brings the light of my sacred feminine aspect on this process


A cave with carved walls. It is an ancient temple.
A constant reminder of what exists in other time frames, but is missing from the now. You are secretly living in futures and pasts to an extraordinary extent. What is in there speaks eloquently. The world voices of the now fall on deaf ears. Distracted, elsewhere, elusive, remote. Inhabiting the inner mind and lost to the outer mind. You’re in a poised verge where what ultimately and essentially makes sense is the reverse mirror image of what everybody says and thinks. The minority of one, keeping the balance intact.


The key to the

off the planetary game

is spiritual evolution and expression

What is the difference ?

The planetary game has

a 3D play area

time sensitivity

cycles of seasons

planetary cycles which are zodiac and Mayan cycles which are energetic templates

lots of interaction with living 3d beings

A human being vehicle 

The human being vehicle has an emotional sat nav for guidance

This outlines who the human being is… in terms of how to interact in this 3d playground in a healthy way

It defines healthy boundaries

Most of which in today’s society are being ignored and overridden 

This has been happening for a long time on planet earth

In order to evolve one has to be it and feel it and know it


The human being has free will to make choices

It does not have free will over it’s original coding ~ astrology and ancestral line, past life etc

So …..

The human being has a galactic code and incarnates

It has a spirit to guide it

It can only access that spirit fully and clearly as it becomes conscious and is ready in alignment with the overall universal plan ~ everything on the web being interconnected


The key to this Aquarian Age coming in is to remember what it’s code is:

The human being is a cup holder of the Gods

A cup holder

A chalice 

The holy grail



Cancer time now and in our personal chart

is the structure of the human being experience creating the distortions

The home

The mother or the mothering experience/caretaker 

This is where the human being experiences what life is like on planet earth

What is seeking evolution now

The beginning of the turnaround age of becoming awake and aware of this whole process

From birth the human being has a priority ~ to survive

Often that can mean being dishonest, a hypocrite, having to hide true feelings, having to do and be and go to places that put that sensitive soul under huge psychological pressure

As a child the human being does not have the ability or resources to support itself emotionally,psychologically etc so all those out of balance events go on hold until the environment and the person are ready and able to integrate that which has been put on hold

On the planet at this time, the majority of human beings do not understand the human being process itself

Do not understand the human vehicle

Do not have emotional intelligence or self~awareness

Do not have a conscious awareness of themselves even though may intellectually understand the soul journey on some level


The true soul alchemist process start is when the individual focuses on the self and is ready to learn tools to assist them on their personal inner process

Understanding how the ego works and making friends with our own ego with it is key

If a person does not have some framework to use to assist with their own ego evolution then why would that person want to open their pandora’s box?

All that pain in there?

The ego will say that it is all sorted anyway ~ got over “it ” ~ this is a key ego manipulation

If the individual has not gone through all their pain events consciously then there is no conscious awareness

there is no enlightenment process holistically

there may be an intellectual conscious awareness and that is not the same

The hurt is still there

So the heart is still bringing the match


This is where Emotional Freedom Technique comes in

Partly what this technique can do is to start a ritual for the person ready to be with the parts of themselves seeking healing and ready to take the time to do it for it’s own sake 

not for a certificate

not for a degree

not for a cv

not for a career

not for anything else except for that person deciding it is their time to do this for them

The person is ready to bring themselves into balance

Into awareness of all the causality

Into awareness of emotional distortion

Into emptying their cup to allow their spiritual counterpart to come into them because their is clear space



The inner structure is being transformed 

The crucible is ready 

The student is ready

Open to new learning


What happens then is miraculous and the healing journey really starts to unfold in a huge way


The time of Uranus opposition is key ~ around 42 ~ bringing balance

a key current gateway for going onto another path

Of course many individuals are now going off the grid at very early ages ~ especially in alternative places so these key astrological gateways may also change in some way and others come in

I have only just started learning Astrology and ….

as with all things ~ you don’t really need to formally learn this old style ~ the information is useful of course

What I offer is this is a new age and new ways

I am an autodidactic learner

I now learn as an addition to what I am channeling

as and when I need that information

I read small bite size pieces of several books at once ~ as and when I feel to

because I am aligning with universal energy 

I was not aware of my Pluto transit until I started writing this blog 🙂

This is the primary reason I write it ~ for me 

Today’s Mayan Sign is White Self~Existing Wind


The framework of truth 


The planet is Uranus


This is one of my planetary codes

We have four planetary codes in the Mayan and these are called Castles

Each Castle starts on a birthday and lasts 13 years

White Castles are refinement of Red Castles ~ what the Great Mother of yesterday’s energy is awakening us to

Four Castles of 13 years comes to 52

When the human being is 52 it is a Mayan Elder having completed the four evolutionary codes

I have nearly completed mine and am at my Chiron return this year at 50.

At 52 it will be my Saturn square . I learned this from my friend yesterday who is learning this in Astrology.

I have now created documents for each of my Castle’s

and so today I know that today’s energy reflects my year in 2012 which is the first birthday I had in Glastonbury.

This was a very difficult time for me because I had to live in this intense energy all the time and I wasn’t just visiting and going back to a different framework in Yorkshire. As a family we were having a combination of conditioned code and working with conditioned frameworks such as making money, school times and conditioned rules.

At the same time I was in a year 4 of personal truth and this process of what I am describing in this blog so huge polarity and facing the choice point of whether to remain out of alignment with truth ~ which my ego preferred to feel “safe” and compliant . Whenever I took that choice the resistance that manifested was huge.

Something I am just looking at now ~ showed up ready to be worked with ~ is how the human being has a code ~ a wheel and the universe has a planetary code ~ a bigger wheel that all of humanity is working with.

These combinations are the tantra wheel process.

When using this decoder and putting in a date ~ so for example my birth date

It reveals the planetary code as well.

Our birth date reveals our Mayan Sign.

Our yearly birthday reveals what year we are in in that 13 year cycle.

The planetary birth day is 26 July 


The planet also has four castles ~ 13 year cycles

Red Moon ~ awakening to authentic self ~ this is the current 13 year cycle that began in 2006 and we are in year 9 of ~ Red Solar Moon ~  Mercury

White Wizard ~ refinement of authentic self by letting the universal energy flow ~ self empowerment ~ coming up White Planetary Wizard ~ the asteroid belt

Blue Storm ~ transformation of the individual ~ emotions show where that is required to catalyse the human being to evolve ~ Pluto

Yellow Seed ~ as a result of the 3 other castles, the coping mechanism masks come off and the true individual is revealed ready to be the gift that they really are free from hiding ~ Jupiter


My White Castle years ~ every 4 years ~ correspond to Blue Storm Years on the planet


When I was in White Self~Existing Wind ~ being an independent authentic truth teller ~ as much as I actually was at that time ~ on the planet it was Blue Resonant Storm ~ what was resonating with emotion on the planet

In zodiac terms

My Uranus ~ bringing light and allowing me personally to go beyond the personal planets ~ my Uranus is in Virgo at 13 degrees

Blue Storm’s planet is Pluto ~ currently in Capricorn 

Here is a great article about this with specifics about the degrees of the current Pluto transit and how it will hit your chart ~ again if you feel ready to work at this level and haven’t got a chart yet you need this info ~ it is free 

All you need is a chart so google free birth chart


This Pluto current transit is hitting my 1st and 7th house ~ my self and my mystic revealed by what is resonating ~ traditionally the Aries and Libra axis ~ am I in balance ? This is also the current North and South node on the planet but in reverse ~ Libra North Node

The more I work on my inner self and the more my spirit can guide me because I am ready and able and doing what it takes on all levels for this mission 

My planets being resonated ~ Saturn at 15 degrees Pisces first house on the 16th of April ~ which was  ~ the thirteenth day of the initiating wavespell Red Dragon ~ Red Cosmic Skywalker ~ what has to shift to bring heaven to earth for the individual ~ what has to shift personally in the way of relating.

So My Saturn in Pisces at 15 degrees:

Many kinds of fruits arrayed on a silver tray.
The inner kingdom seeks to come out. Everything is ripe and ready for emergence. There have been gathered many soul gifts in divergent worlds and now there is a harvest time, An immense earth force presses to the surface to release and reveal an underlying feeling tone of righteous triumph, exultant mastery, the gathering of the tribes. The frequency of sociocultural renewal, with everybody here together offering their best. A subtle, permeating tone underscores the outward power with mystic fervor, a deep and strong combination to make a difference and to carry through what is intended.

Saturn in Pisces ~ boundaries, masks,coping mechanisms and for me these have been various addictions over the years ~ alcohol , drugs, sex, co dependent relationships on all levels

Pluto in Capricorn at 15 degrees:

A woman wearing a necklace of skulls.
Feminine power of the deepest kind. Ancient, impressive, and formidable. Standing for the Dark Goddess. Authoritative, proud, and knowledgeable. Can be attracted to pouring on the power and becoming personally identified with dominant behaviors. Lack of compassion, very little forgiveness. Not generous-spirited. Imperious, demanding, and not to be denied. If sparked by wakeful seeing–redemptive and cauterizingly renewing. But if captured by old pictures–autocratic, ideological, and retaliatory. The perfect soul-gift for those with pure intention. Otherwise, a scourge.

Just had a good cry this morning about this and how I have not felt loved and accepted that this is my personal take ~ and tapped and cried ~ let it go as much as I can

Then enquiry:

What did this way of relating do ? What did it allow for me?

To avoid taking responsibility for my happiness and blame others even though I know intellectually I am perfectly capable of doing lots of things and can achieve big projects because I have but this also changed when I became a mother which was when I started my White Castle ~ at my Saturn return . This created conflict because I wanted to be with my children and not work and that did not happen. I was way out of balance, overstretched and allowed it 🙂 I also had to challenge lots of health frameworks and belief systems.The violations I had allowed for myself, I would not allow for my children and this was intense and frightening because I was scapegoated over and over. I  have allowed myself and my values to be violated many times believing I had to and often that was true in a way because I was vulnerable with young children and wanted to ensure their safety of a roof over their heads etc~ that was then and this is now and now ~ this is not how I am relating any more in a big way because I am so aware of the price of that way of relating for all concerned….

and this is still in process too as I am taking the steps and working with what is and who I am 😉

On a planetary scale this is why women in particular, will tolerate domestic abuse and abusive relationship ~ again the wound of the sacred feminine ~ no rights in law, chattels, locked away, children taken ~ ancestral codes still running ready for transformation in each human being.

This is a core transition from the Age of Pisces to the Age of Aquarius

The 12th house being transformed ~ what is commonly called christ consciousness.

The other planets ~ in the 7th house

My Pluto at 15 degrees Virgo

A man inherits a vast fortune.
Aristocracy takes many forms. Whether by karmic predisposition or by bloodline or both, being granted the ultimate pedigree for serving effectively. Those who have ruled can serve. Those who have mastered can give themselves over. Those who have attained can extract the essence of what they have come to before and utterly discard the rest. Showered with blessings. Filled to overflowing with the streams of your background, you are yet definitely motivated to use all this as a springboard and not to lean back on it. You feel the impulse to renew gifts, treasures and mysteries–to revitalize the old streams, to make relevant and essential what has previously proven to be steady and enduring. And most of all, endowed with a fluency in drawing from the well something fresh and new, and being so at home in bringing it all through that you become an individual here in the midst of things, who just happens to know and be familiar with just about anything you need to access from the well that never runs dry.

My Uranus at 13 degrees will be swiped energetically and not sure when but I need to find out because….inner work required with this degree ~ ideally it would be good to be as clear as possible of my past emotional events otherwise this could be a volcano and it will be what is meant to be too :

A man with hair on his back.
Peppery, fiery, contentious, and spoiling for a fight. Born ready, shot from a cannon, one of a kind–volatile in the far extreme. Convinced of things. Taking sides, even inventing them, you are impelled by the polarized consciousness to be so fiercely partisan that the destructive overwhelms the constructive. Incited to riot by what is wrong with the world–not reconciled, not accepting, not at peace. Self-righteous and headstrong. In perfect moments, ebullient and magnificent and the most charming a being can be, much of the time you are feuding and bickering and blindly consumed by the lower mind. Keenly good at self-deception, the world’s best at blind self-fidelity. The perfect promoter of the unpopular cause. But you feel tormented by the way in which all of this perpetuates itself and cannot find freedom. You search for a way through, hungry for self-overcoming, and needing so badly to emerge from the thicket of the mind, to be affirmative of existence with no doubts making the world intolerable to sit in one more moment.


See how knowing this information can allow the individual to work with conscious awareness?

If the individual is also working alchemically with the emotional body too and clearing old goo then there is a different outcome possible on the table

Scapegoat shadow workers are so powerful when this chalice is clear and not being a receiver of this energy anymore ~ then the energy goes somewhere else and sometimes it goes back to the place it was initiated creating transformation as it does in a catalytic way.

The ultimate mission in Mayan terms ~ the Blue Monkey ~ at the heart of the calendar ~ the divine child who is the adult transformed and therefore transparent ~ free from wounding and free to live in peace

Planet Venus


Remembering that Venus has many aspects particularly when in balance 

Back to the playstation model…

Tomb raider was my favourite game

I have learned about the terrain and how to be in it in balance without physically hurting myself too much ~ pain awareness, good boundaries in action ~ most of the time anyway until I don’t ~ new shadow awareness time

I have learned how I work to a degree that I can be aware and function to a good level without being eaten by predators every two seconds and having to start again

I have enough life and medical aid as I learn new things about health

I have found the treasure because I take the time to discover and explore

I am able to defend myself without violence 

I have more self confidence and assertion skills

I can say what I want more and to a degree know what I want so be discerning

I am a good communicator most of the time and learning more every day

I am letting go of the fear of being me ~ having worked on past events where I spoke my true feelings and got an outcome that felt uncomfortable/was scapegoated/ridiculed/bullied/attacked etc

Most of the old world transiting ~ will oppose the individual seeking truth ~ unawake/unaware/not ready to see themselves and evolve ~ a necessary pre~requisite of playmates 

Human beings are all on the same path even though it often feels untrue especially when meeting the greatest teachers who are often very close to our heart .

I do not play Tomb Raider any more ~ I watch my children play it and this is also key

I do not like game playing on one level ~ it is limited to the designer’s constructs ~ in many games it is an ego structure and in some ~ especially human ~ competitive 

I choose instead to focus on my game plan for my evolution

It can seem overwhelming to the ego and the mind at the start ~ the universal self knows the path and brings the exact match for everything at the perfect time though

It is greatly assisted by the human being intending to be open and willing to learn new ways 

Ready to be with all of themselves at all times

Ready to focus on oneself as a priority

Ready to see oneself everywhere and feel the feelings that go with that 

Often this is intense at the beginning 

So the ability to trust is key ~ the more the inner work is done on trusting the self this expands

The ability to not know is key ~ surrender to divine will

The ability to apologise genuinely and be humble ~ that takes time in my experience as there are big coping mechanisms there around barriers the ego builds

and as a reforming people pleaser it can be easy to fall into the avoidance of apologising oneself out of existence

rather than telling the truth of how one really feels and it is anything but sorry especially in a “spiritual” community which is often one of the most poisonous and stuck communities there are ~ takes courage to say one’s truth here 😉 

and it is essential for the warrior of the heart

so the more that person clears their past 

and the more this comes from transformed ego space 

freer of emotional baggage 

If you are ready to start this process

or wish to go deeper

Here is my up and coming workshop :

It is via ebook and there are options and levels to suit all wherever you are on your path and in the world

You can then co create with me via Skype, email or phone if you want to go deeper and do some transformational energy coaching

Emotional balance workshop


Today’s pictures

I have featured many by the same artist, I love her work and I cannot find the link on facebook

I have mentioned her on another blog with White Wind where I used purely her pics. When I find I will add a link.

Apologies for this and the others I have used without reference ~ if I know them I will always quote them








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