Red Serpent Wavespell
Day 13
Cosmic
Red Cosmic Earth
Caban
Today is the shift day and the tail of
the serpent
In every Wavespell this is the moving
and shaking energy day to create something
new because of our process
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In this Wavespell we have ridden
the kundalini energy
and now ….
We are returned to the earth
Maybe more centred as a result
More grounded
aware of our essence and that we too are baked earth
Ashes to Ashes
Dust to Dust
Just like Anthony Gormley’s Terracotta figures
I visited this exhibition at The Yorkshire Sculpture Park
many moons ago
and it blew me away
how many people had created this vision
I love this place and have spent so many inspired happy hours there with my family
Today is a hard day for me as one of my family is very poorly
He has featured in this blog before
Love for Arnold beaming out
for a return to health
if it is meant to be
Took him to the vets today and he may not be coming home
If you have been reading the 13 day blog you will see that there have been lots of
pictures and references to my childhood
and today when I was feeling sad and desperate really
sat with no answers for my beloved friend
and he was upset being there
there I saw my childhood friend Spidey in the window
on an umbrella
How bizarre for a vet’s to have such a thing on display
and again I saw the Spiders web and the connection to all things I wrote about
on another day
It comforted me as I tapped on myself
in my mind in the waiting room
feeling the usual discomfort I feel in the Medical World
knowing that whatever I say will be challenged
if it is not their medical model
and clearing my cache as much as I can
so I do not come from a very emotional space
I have had so many clients who have been having a medical intervention….
have felt more traumatised from the lack of compassion from their caregivers
with no caring response
Birth experiences
Death experiences
and I know that the people who face illness and the majority of births in hospitals
in a working capacity
often have to turn their sensitivity down low to be there
otherwise they could not deal with their day to day
and all of this has to change if we are to create
more loving supportive relationships
and the more we become empowered to seek
our own answers this will happen naturally
When people speak of a calm spiritual approach and that no one
“should ” upset others on their path when evolving
ones who are walking their talk realise how this cannot happen
A key part of our path has to involve this process
to let go of people pleasing and being co dependent
We are not realised saints in our human bodies which is why we are here 🙂
As we waited Arnold settled in his box
He could feel me calm down
and I trusted that this time spent waiting was for that to happen
I allowed my anxiety to come up and be released as much as I could
and I contemplated different choices I could have ~
to be knowledgeable ~ often met with distrust/competitiveness
say nothing ~ feel disempowered and often annoyed at oneself later….
thing is whatever you say or do
the response is perfect for us at that moment according to our vibe and our next steps
regardless 🙂
The more we become confident in that and ourselves we let go
and
trust in the process
our process
So I chose to be in the moment and be a bit of both ~ proactive and reactive
and noticed I was far more accepting of myself and others
This is a pattern for so many of these past events of taking myself and my loved ones to hospitals
at times of big interventions
and the choices I have made
each time
Each time now my intention is to be open
to new ways of relating
and also being in my centre
being grounded and firm
and able to bend with the breeze
Noticing how the medical model relationship thrives on having
patients as people who please
rather than ask questions
and want to make an informed choice about their and their loved one’s health
I trust in my life process
there are lots of times when I do not like it and when I am afraid
I noticed today again that if I cannot create any solution ~
if my mind feels all is lost
I feel despairing
One of my main ego masks as a reforming people pleaser
is to create solutions
for others
Which has many benefits of course
and….
sometimes there are no solutions that we like
and are essential for our evolution
I have been afraid in many lives
My last life had Sagittarius energy
as this is my South Node
I am guessing this was my Sun Sign
My life is full of Sagi friends and relatives
To be a Sagi truth teller requires developing a way of being
That takes courage
I am still learning this art
whilst breaking apart
my heart is broken over and over
and reforms
Today Sagi moon went to Capricorn
both of which can be a hard energy to work with without compassion
in search of truth
I know that in the end we all return to the
Great Mother
I know that life is often cruel as we are often cruel
I know that to be sensitive and loving walks hand in hand
with deep sorrow and grief
because that is the life package
I fully understood that even more when I became a mother myself
Many moons ago I wouldn’t have thought to include my sad space
a blog such as this
I wouldn’t have been able to write it even
and now I know it is the core of my learning
and my teaching
Life is short
and immortality is long
as was said in Gladiator
What we do in this life….
echoes in eternity
So what do you want your relationships to be?
For they determine your life ?
I am a very emotional person
I do not want to change that
I want to honour it
and
be in balance with it
so I can live in the world
instead of retreating from it
When someone close to me is unwell or leaves my life
I feel it deeply
and
I will grieve deeply
Here and Now
Free Flowing
It is what my eyes are for
the windows of my soul
as I believe this is the natural process
of loss
The more we love and accept all of our relationship dualities
the truth of life’s learning in all it’s forms
the more we truly live
from the heart
Today see what miracle unfolded for you ?
What wonder happened so your spirit was allowed the joy of deep emotion ?
It is what we are here for
to Love
Truly
Madly
Deeply
To feel everything
It is what having a body is for
Love to your cosmic wild card today